the girl who owed me an ice cream

for all students who are still studying and looking forward to graduating, be prepared for a question comes the next chinese new year: you have girlfriend already?

wah, imagine my shock when this chinese new year, i was asked a lot of times of THIS question. and last year, when i was still studying, i have NONE. errrr.... i don't have. all comes from relatives alike.

sometimes, i owed it to my love belief. i have this belief that if the right person is for you, she will be there at the end of the road. why search for the one when the road has been laden for you to walk by. if you are calling me a coward, i will admit it, love wise. i used to have a crush for this girl. this love at first sight is really unique. it makes your heart skip a bit and you can see stars surrounding her. does it make sense?

she used to walk around but we never talk but we know each other through mutual acquaintances. imagine my surprise when she asked for a favour one day. i said, "okay, sure no problem. but in return, i would love to have an ice cream." she laughed and said yes. thats the first time i managed to make her laugh. still, as time passes, we seldom cross our path. so hence, we never meet again. but i know where she is now. silently waiting for the unfulfilled promise and yet knowing the promise might not come true. and thats the risk i am willing to take. romantic? stubborn? or plain silly?

yes, that's how i view my love life. it is a brief encounter and if she is not the one, i better moves on now because the incidence happened 9 years ago.

blogger describing how he felt for his crush for the very first time.

happy valentine

with valentine's day looming closer than ever, i think it would be best for me to wish all the love birds out there "Happy Valentines". i am no sour grape. just because i am single doesn't mean others cannot display their affection for their loved ones. but can i have a simple request? just keep your photos and declarations to yourself rather than posting everything on the wall for everyone to see. you see, it makes sense. you love him/her and that's between the two of you. if you start sharing with everyone, what are you trying to prove? that you have a partner that everyone already knows. get it? unless you are dedicating your valentine's day to friends and family members. then, it's perfectly alright la.....

Adapted from the G search

have a good day and may you find new love one if you are still single. it is not too bad to dream right. i read once that love isn't admiration, infatuation and pity, it is for no reason, you are so in love with the person.

a little too late

i kinda regret for the fact that i did not perform more research on taipei before i went there. the reason for my regret is while blog-surfing around, i found out that i miss out a lot of sumptuous food. aiya. ishhh... first, there is the ice cream dorayaki. second, i have lost count of the food i miss out. apa lar. it is probably a month too late. if i were to blog surf during 2nd of January 2012, i still can make it a point to list out the food i would love to have. at least i will know the blog to go to.

oh well. but all is not lost as my sister has asked me whether i want to join her to go taiwan next year. instantly i said yes without even considering whether i will be able to obtain leave. haha. part of my bravado comes from the promise i made that i will go back to taiwan again. eh, just in case any reader out there who is an employer. want to hire me? i am interested in working in taipei. any job that pays good and provides accomodation is suffice. one year spend there would be best. but a better dream is to go taiwan every now and then. if not, all the fats accumulation will be detrimental to my health.

ohhhh....red bean pancake. you don't know how much i have missed you.

blogger feels a bit regretful for not being an active researcher before travelling.

take what you need

today, i saw a picture which states something like this.

(Picture adapted from the blue wall)

i begin to wonder which one of these will i need. my answer is hope. part of my life struggle has always revolves around giving myself hope. i need hope in life. if none exists, i wish not to exist. if only life is that easy where you can determine when you live or die. 

last sunday, there is an article sent by the reader, commenting about how her life has been tormented by family problems. my heart felt for her. i was thinking, "finally someone is writing what i feel and how i feel ." while feeling sad that she has to endure her suffering at such a young stage, i agree with her that "she feels stronger compared to her peers out of this struggle." i believe that is true. sometimes, when you have struggled for so long and hard, you begin to take life as it comes. you learn to complain less, work more and hope for the best. 

fortunately, things are turning better for her as she is writing about her past. bravo! another individual who deserves my respect in life. do not get me wrong, i don't mean i only respect those who have successfully endured their hardships. but getting the battle won gives me the little hope i need to have in life.

hearing others' successful stories gives me motivation to move on. blogger is pondering of reading chicken soup for the TOUGH souls, only if such a series exists in the first place.