Idle mind breeds complacency

University life has just reached the fifth week. There are tests coming but I feel a bit relaxing. I wondered is it a good thing or bad. First of all, I am now hooked to a hong kong drama known as "EU". According to my hong kong friend, it is the latest drama in hong kong. So, I thought initially that after so long duration of not watching drama, controlling myself to one episode a day will be a piece of cake. Turns out to be, old habit dies hard. I watch around 3 episodes everyday,consider to be ok as I watch 11 episodes a day last time during holidays. Haha... I think life just gets more interesting as you delve yourself with the challenge of balancing your time. If not,life will be pretty dull and boring.
Besides,there is another memorable event that happened last sunday. I went to a concert. It was organised by Hillsong. The music is great and the hall is so enormous which left my mouth gaping at first sight. Seriously astounded. The hall can accomodate to 15000 spectators. I was blown away by the huge amount of attendance. All in all,it was cool and I had fun. Thanx to Mr Jason for bringing me there and also Mr Look for his nice ham bread. Very delicious.
After all, I have survived college also watching the american series all the time mainly american idol,ncis, antm and gossip girls. I can't imagine. I think I must be pretty lucky. Although I did know that my grades will be better if I study harder, I prefer slacking a little to give myself a little boost. For me there is nothing call lazy. It should be rephrase as taking a rest to continue a longer journey. Oh my gosh,why am I so philosophical this day!! I am so proud.. Haha.. I am like this. Self praise all the time. I love to self praise,whoever knows me will know that. This self praise thingy has led to create a better phrase. I always smile to myself whenever I came to think of it. This phrase has a good,old history.
Once, I was talking to my dear housemate about some stuff then suddenly I praise myself out of no reason. Suddenly, he blurted out and laughed," self praise punya orang". Then, I became silent because nothing comes to my mind. I just laughed as usual. When weekend came, I normally went back Melaka. So,suddenly I utter the phrase again," Self praise" to my sister who also happens to be self praising all the time. Out of the blue, she said ," hello,self praise is better than no praise". I was overhelmed. This praise just send a bang to my head. Finally I got something to send my housemate silence now. He agreed it is indeed a very provocative phrase. I guess it suits me well since self praise is my nature.
To be realistic,self praise sometimes do more good than harm. First, it boost your confidence but there is a fine line between cocky and confident. Secondly, it can be humourous depends on how you see it. I often find it rather amusing thinking about my "great" qualities. Not going to reveal here. If you want to know,just know me more... Ciao and an nyeong.

The steps taken

With the increase of each step, I felt more tired than ever. It was cool and refreshing to jog on a Saturday morning. Everything is perfect with the dogs running wildly and the crowd so happily chatting and jogging. Today is the day look and jason decide that we should have a jog after being so idle and motionless for so long. First jog is always nice. Although I didn't sweat much,it is still a good jog. Panting and panting. Exercise is good!!!
Unfortunately,as much as it feels good, I seem to feel it different from the days I jogged at the park,located next to Ridzuan condo. Something feels terribly empty. I got company just that it feels less satisfying. Don't know what actually happen. I used to be love jogging and continue for a few rounds. My mood did play a major part in everything I do and more frequent or not, it is always connect to the people next to me. Perhaps, I yearned for more companies... Haha...used to lots of crowd that I know. Now, it seems so foreign and strange. Miss home I guess... not exactly home,is home food! Yup, while typing this, I can feel my saliva "tengah meleleh" already. I seriously need to be a better cook by practising more. Though things are fine now,just that my energy drains very fast nowadays,but still, I do enjoy myself today.
Maybe,the intensity of satisfaction is less. Ah har,now I remember what my econs lecturer talked about utility where it measures intensity of pleasure. I think it used to be 50 and now 25 I guess. Finally, econs do make more sense now. And also,that commercial law subject did send me to the state of blurness for who knows how long. I just started to get the "AH HAR" feeling last week. It is interesting just that being bombarded with so much things to read does not really fancy me. Still, I am going to survive. Well,it is always like this. I took more time than other people to grasp something new. Should stop writing now, my american idol show is calling me..Ciao and adios.

A new vision

   Funny, when I have lots of things to say. I can't figure out what title to be given for this post. Normally,the title just popped out of nowhere. Hmmm... Maybe my creativity has its limitations too. I met a new friend two days ago. I was talking to a Guangzhou guy from China. Suddenly,the conversation took a turn towards a Cantonese version. This girl happens to be a Malaysian,turned around and said hi. She must be quite happy to meet a Malaysian finally. Me too. It is so hard to see any Malaysian around other than my friends from JPA sponsors who I already know.

   As the lectures ended, I went for a PASS programme,catered to students who wish to enhance their level of understanding of a particular subject. Coincidentally, I met her again. I was thinking, what a small world!! Apparently,she had went out of class earlier for an interview to be an ambassador for international student. Come to think of it, I actually did have the passion to be so full of life. I don't know where it has gone to. Coming across this girl really makes my brain thinking again. If it is what I want in life, I should just grab the opportunity. I want to meet more people, indulge myself with work and have fun all way long. Yup, does really give a kick in my head to start having a direction now after losing it for who knows how long. Quite happy seriously this week. I am a grateful person,constantly counting my blessings as a simple,kampung person like me made it to a city which is so alienated to me, getting the scholarship and reached the level of opportunity that seems doesn't have any boundary. Kudos to myself. 

   Also,this week I really do need to thank my guardian angels. It seems so weird to me that I believe in the existence of angels. My religion says it has something to do with karma but to simplify things, I think they are just my guardian angels as wherever I go,there are sure to be people who make things easier for me. Take for an example, I manage to buy a cheaper textbook from another friend which so happened to be from another state. Besides, the girl whom brings new perspective into my life. Thank you. Although they are not really my guardian angels, it sounds better than nothing. I just hope things continue to be better if not this good. Well, challenges so seem tough at first but hell it goes as I am going to rock it!

What it feels like to be in a complete strangers place

    Hi, welcome to my first ever blog in blogspot.com. Not that I don't have a blog before but,it seems that creating another one is not much of a hassle. I have created this account for about a year and it seems pretty empty. Therefore, I should begin writing down my thoughts starting from now on. I do have another blog but it is viewed mainly by my close friends only. This time around it should be rather general I guess.

   So,here I am first time in Sydney, Australia pursuing my dream of becoming a consultant. It feels strange the first time to feel out of place. I have grown up in a small town known as Melaka. Being accustomed to friendly people around me, venturing out to a place unknown quite be rather scary but, it ends up fine. I know quite a number of people here, mostly Singaporeans. I am also don't know why. They are very friendly and nice. However, the culture shock I endure is quite overwhelming. For the first time in my life, people said my chinese language proficiency in communication is rather odd. I was dumbfounded. Studying in a national school previously, I didn't have the chance to really learn chinese at all other than some simple tutoring by my big brother. 

   First of all, as a Malaysian, I do use quite a bit of "la,ma,ba liao". And some people find it weird. However, I myself find it very unique. As you can see, the great mastery of a language doesn't always depend on the native speaker. Let me remind you that the first purpose of learning a language is for other people to understand you. So, I am pretty proud of myself for the way I am. Secondly, I do mix and match the languages mainly bahasa,english,mandarin,cantonese and even hokien. To me, as long as the message got across,it is fine. I remembered I just meet this china student. He overheard when I was talking to my friend. I spoke in chinese that time but I added a word "apply liao" in my sentence. And he smiled and repeated after me,"apply liao". Then,only I realised it meant as a joke. I was so embarrased that time that I refused to use chinese anymore.

   Another thing I find rather interesting is the huge amount of foreign students studying here. Majority will be China. Anywhere you go, if you can't find a China citizen, you must be in the jungle I think. Every class I attended has at least two to three Chinese students. Besides, I don't mean to be rude here. Almost every single one of them has an English name. I was wondering,"Is it a necessary to have an English name?" I find that rather amusing. They try pretty much to be Australians that some even copy their accent. So fake but, well what can you say when people try to adapt to their surrounding, I am still be so proud and arrogant being a Malaysian. But I am just being me. Even Malaysian seniors of mine do have the accent after a year studying here. In fact, I purposely mentioned to other people my full name even though I have an English name because it sounds more like me. Haha... Sounds weird right? I am a weirdo. A weirdo living in Sydney. to be continued......