Holidays

I know it is kind of late to declare holidays now since my holidays already started since last friday. Been studying quite awhile so, decided not to update my blog for a while. However, these few days have been rocking. Really cool. These days did really repay the time I spent on studying.
My final exam is commercial law paper which it the subject that I have least confidence in. But, my my, the hall that I sat the exam did really impress. It was very beautiful and ancient at the same time that I feel like I am sitting the exam in an ancient castle. I felt really inspired before starting the exam paper. The paper was on the opposite so uninspiring. Haha... There you go,the paradox of the day.I wrote like the whole time for that exams which lasted for 2 and a half hours. Although it is an open book exam, the questions were real tests both to the brains and skills. I wish not to describe it further. Overall, I did manage finish it at the nick of time. Phew!!
The next day, I went shopping with my friends. One of them is leaving back to Malaysia so shopping will be the ultimate choice. Our destination is DFO which stands for direct factory outlet. Well, it did go pretty considering I shop for two shirts and a pair of shoes. 40% man for that puma shoes! Only 36 dollars. Still smiling for getting a good bargain. It was a splendid day though we spend around half an hour to walk to that shopping mall from train station. Walking has been a culture,considering that Sydney is really a very pedestrian friendly place.
Skipping all that, I want to talk about today. Today is full of adventures. I was supposed to meet my friend from perth at 1130am. She ending up arriving at 12pm for being lost in the city. Then, we went to sydney wildlife park and aquarium. Everything is nice and cute. And today, I manage to touch the cuddly koala. Yeah! Another achievement for the day. I did took some photos of the animals but will be posted soon. Also, there are dugongs and sharks in the aquarium. Nothing special but watching those sea creatures swimming underwater did give peaceful feeling to me. The dugong is damn fat man... Muahaha...
In fact, my friend from perth did recommend us to drink the lindt hot chocolate. Great! I took the dark one which I think will be the best chocolate drink I tasted so far. Thumbs up! To add excitement to this, I visited the world largest theatre today to watch transformers. Awesome. At first, I thought the small banner was lying since the size is so minute,nobody will really notice it. But, the size of the screen did send my mouth gaping. My, my... Really huge that when I tried to take a photo with my camera, it cannot fit the whole screen. Imagine that! The cineplex is called IMAX,located in Darling Harbour. The clear definition image plus the great sound are really really awesome. Best day in Sydney by far! A happy,fun, and joyful day indeed.

I am so ..........blank

I feel really blank right now. Actually I feel worse than blank, I feel useless. Part of it can be attributed to my lack of focus. I plan to study whole week as the name suggests, it supposed to be study week for this whole week. Apparently, my time was used nicely with minority time studying and majority time watching movies and dramas. I don't know what was I thinking. I blame it on addiction. Haha.. As addiction is something you cannot control, I can't help but to succumb myself to all the entertainment and excitement it provides.
I am pretty sure part to be blame is the weather here. Too cold, makes me too comfy for my own good. And a little bit part can be blamed on my friends who are constantly moaning about how lazy they are. So, I am simply influenced. So much so for self discipline. In the dire need to refocus.
With my latest interest in time magazine, I begin to see things differently. I realise how much this world has to offer. Perspectives,views and food for thoughts. I love reading magazine because I know I love to read them for the sake of reading,not examined. Well, I have read an article about a guy from america who has cultivated the business by giving back to the environment. He uses a pond to rear fish and brilliantly enough to use the sea water,I presume, to rear fish. Instead of using the conventional way to keep away the birds from the fish, this man actually let the birds feed on his fruits of labour. Sounds great huh? He did mention that 10% of his fish is eaten every year. However, he said as humans, we have the duty to preserve the ecosystem. I feel inspired at that moment. The recent news of those stupid humans doing stupid things really irritates me. Some guys are just borned to irritate people and some are just simply amazing. And this guy has definitely made me see a little,bright light at the end of the tunnel.
Also, I really would like to comment about the policy of making English subject as a compulsory subject to pass in order to obtain SPM certificate. To me,it serves no difference. With the current English level that is so low. If you do not pass it, I think it is a shame. Either you must be fooling around or make no effort at all to study the subject. English is fun. I begin to enjoy the language quite at an old age which is about 14 years old. That is the turning point of my life. I began to cultivate the love for books. Unfortunately, I am doing the right thing for the wrong reason. At first, I realise how poor my vocabulary is and how low my marks in the test. Things that I want to express in Bahasa and Mandarin cannot be well explained in English. I was thinking, "This is it. I am going to change" I start very small. Imagine the first time I took a book in the library, it is meant for those who are in primary school. I still remembered vividly how many pages is that book:45 and the font is like 15 to 20 in Times News Roman. Luckily, I enjoy it. It is about some detective case where children solve the mystery in a synopsis way. From there, I venture into Enid Blyton, which I thought is Grid Blyton in the first time. I was so embarrassed for my friend to correct me. And she did ask, "Don't you read that before? It is a bedtime storybook" I was thinking, "Oh my god,it sure is." Then, I began to love Chicken Soups for the Souls. Inspired stories make my heart feels warm. Haha... I can swear that I almost read finish all the series in the school library.
My sister did play a significant role too. My first ever thick storybook which I read is more than 500 pages would be "The Kitchen God's Wife", written by Amy Tan. At that time, I was really making progress. Reading has become a habit. Though my reading pace is really really slow as I can't fathom most of the words in there, I still read it for fun. The more time you read, the more the words make sense to you. Ah ha!!!! From then on, I never stop reading. This is how people should learn to enjoy English. Not the Malaysian way of memorising. It spoils the fun. Words should come out spontaneously. At least, try the newspapers. It is a big source of information. But the tip is, just read whichever section that attracts you. Then, you will never feel bored about it. Well,well. Some people say old books are just like your old best friends. Make you enjoy the moment and learn new things at the same time. And I have never regretted since.
Also, I would like to highlight that Malaysia education system is not that bad,but please do not lower the standard until so low. What is the point? If you really want to generate a knowledge-based society, do something about it. I luv my country but the people administrating it are not making me proud. Please please.... I am asking favour for the greatness of all. Whatever the reason might be, just make it happen. After all, it will sound really ironic to use the phrase of "Malaysia Boleh!". Do you mind if I switch it to "Yes, Malaysia Can!" That would be the joke of the day. Hahaha.....
Blogger on a very cynical and patriotic day.

Dazy feeling

Having a little dazy feeling. I ought to be feeling confused, relieved and shocked a little bit. After going through a few sleepless nights, I finally know what really happened. Don't worry, the oath of secrecy will be maintained. In this few years, I do learn a lot of people secrets. Some which I combine which I think will be pretty shocking. I guess I love being dependable for such matter. To me it matters because these people do matter to me. For those who don't matter, if they tell me something I won't really care what are they saying. This is me, distinguishing things to a very fine line. What is black will always be black. What is white will be white. To me,it makes things a little simpler and me a little happier.
I can say that I am not really those who are really friendly. I don't trust stranger unless proven to be honest. That's me. Insecurity gives me the feeling of anxiuousness. But I don't want to be kepoh actually. I just love being control. I don't really know what I am saying here. But,at least what I am feeling now is relief. Relief to know that things are not really that complicated. Or maybe is the way my mind reject certain things that I feel is rather not true. I need confirmation but this kind of matter is better left at it. What am I better off without it is better to keep it that way. Okay,now I can fully concentrate with my studies but wait a minute, there are some american series waiting to be watched. Dun worry, I will just relax a little and study a little. This way, things stay in equilibrium.
One more thing, these days I feel so guilty of doing not so good in my previous test that it adds to my rising anxiety levels and unnecessary stress. I would just do anything just not to study ranging from switching on facebook to watching gossip girls which are so nice. Wait a second, I used to watch this series anyway. Having chatted with my close friend yesterday, he did warn me some stuff I need to take care with. First would be my health and second would be my studies. Yup, true what he said. But another one thing he said will be etched in my mind. What he says does reflects my current situation. A little dazed. Well, it turns out to be another long hours of advice and humour I should say. Thank you for it. In a foreign land, it is not those advice that are important,it is the thought that someone does care that really matter the most. Okay, time to fly now. Got some readings to do and revision to take... Adios amigos (this phrase is learnt from my best room mate in the world,he force me to admit it that time). Haha.. You know who you are.....
Blogger on a dazzy day

A lesson to be learnt

A browse to the online newspapers sent me head shaking metaphorically. The issues being displayed are really disheartening. The problems are people fail to recognise the core problem. They ignorantly shelf away the problem and begin pointing fingers at each other. Don't you know that it is the ignorance on your part in the first place? The consequences of failing to assign responsibility to those who really deserved are your own to be born. Sometimes, I wish something really tragic and significant happens then, only they will feel the "ah ha!!" moment. I hope you suffer the doom one day to give you the realisation that you need to have. If not, your plain,stubborn arrogance is not helping us anyway. Curse you my little old friend.

A little happiness that goes a long way

A jolt suddenly ran through me today. Haha... If you know what that means, I think you should know it means a good feeling you have inside you. I can't of remember I used to get it last time when I listen to good music. It is a very simple easy task to get this good feeling but having a jolt is something extra I guess. For me, everything has to be random. As one has already anticipate the good feeling, the intensity of pleasure is kind of lost in the process. The way to be random for me is to listen to the radio. Yup, I love to listen to the radio. Call it old fashioned, "lao du" or "kuno". I still prefer the way songs are played randomly by the radio. One of the major aspect I will think about before buying a handphone would be: Will it have a radio function? Funny right? Other people are so caring about bluetooth,camera,space and other features. To me,a phone is a phone. As long it satisfies my usage of calling and smsing,it is a complete phone.
I guess I am not really the generation Y that the TV show is casting in "Talking about your generation". The characteristics of generation Y would be completely capable of multitasking, yearning for immediate satisfaction and simply plain blatant to any old rules and principles that don't seem fit to them. I,on the opposite is completely hopeless in multitasking. I end up being confused. I guess I am just not really keen to be in generation Y anyway. Well,since age already make up the generation you are in,then you are stuck forever. In addition to that, I think some people also think this generation is very high tech. Okay, this is another big no no for me. Computers sometimes send creeps to my body. I feel inferior when I face in front of the computer although I can do the general tasks like blogging, checking mails and doing assignments. Other than that, please do not ask me more than that. Apparently, other than these few things, the others are not located within my area of knowledge and interest. I guess giving me a million years still won't convince me to learn computer thingy. It just too much of a hassle and does put off my ability in some way.
For instance, I do not like how computer is replacing the writing in general. I hate it because I love my handwriting. People say computer handwritng gives everyone the fair share when it comes to grading their results. I differ this opinion totally. Handwriting actually shows the characters of a person. I find that my talent is wasted. I dislike my work being shown in computerised style. It gives me the impression that the work is not done by me.
Another possible reason is organisation. When it comes to assignment, I am very meticulous. I used to make sure my work is done all in order. A single crooked line will result me in crushing the paper and did another new one. That is the zero tolerance for me to hand in sloppy work. Since computer has substituted everything, only people who master the technique of drafting things will be advantageous. I am,on the other hand, seems to be finding the necessary button to click. What is this? I know how to do assignment and just don't know how to draw it in excel. Haihh... I am losing not to myself but to the damn technology. I am constantly very embarrassed to ask my friend when executing a very simple application. Like, how you find a button for a particular function?
And also, I want to share a very simple pleasure I had a few weeks ago. A review of my law test did send me with a surprise. Although I just pass the test, I realised I have an additional comment attached to my paper. It writes " Beautiful handwriting". Well, well, my handwriting has been given the much needed attention afterall. It may seem a bit trivial at that time, but I feel very happy. It is called the little happiness that you accumulate all the way in the journey so called life. If such thing doesn't make you happy, what will then? Unless you are talking about good music and it will naturally mean somethingelse.
Blogger in a mood to have a musical day.

I am smiling :)

I am smiling now for a few reasons. First of all,now is 1230am and I am still blogging. No big deal unless you know that I have a 8am class tomorrow. Haha....Second of all, I am listening music from my friend's blog. All your fault la,khaw eng cheng. His blog's music very nice. Strongly recommended by me. Haha.... I think I must be too bored do this kind of crazy stuff.
Last but not least,I just finished watching the first movie of matrix. Very very nice. Recommended to my friends who feel bored,friends who have nothing to do, and to friends who are actually acting "busy" but in fact free as usual. Okay... I need really to get some rest already. Good nite,folks!!1
Blogger on a midnight time in the mood to blog.