my hobby

Just because I spend the whole day doing my homework, I need a reason for doing all these work. Hence, once I reach home, I decided to watch continuous 4 hours of hong kong drama... =)

Yeah! I finish watching "The Men of Justice". This drama is very unique. Although I do not deny the actors and actresses aren't that good looking, it has awesome story in it. It is about a group of lawyers and detectives solving cases as usual. Yet, the intensity of the mysteries is very unique. Beside, the romance part..fuuuhhh. I tell you... I give it 9/10. With my experience of watching dramas and movies... this romance story is one of the top leagues. Recently, I realise that drama that incorporates correct mood song has tremendous effect. Maybe for others no so, but for me plus 10 points.... Unfortunately, the heroine died in the end... =(  and the ending is somehow not logical for me... Watch it and then give me your comments please.

Regarding my studies, I have spent these few days keep reading and reading until my eyes go @_@. Seriously, I do not exaggerate stuff one. I will not make up stories about how less I read but I will tell you. Is spending 4 hours per day on reading a little? Maybe 3.5 hours la...

Ohhhh... today is merdeka day. Happy National Day. Selamat Hari Merdeka! 国庆日快乐！
Nah...here you go... all the language I try my best to type... I learn these words from a friend geh.... thanx maggie! She refused to be my tutor because I am not paying her. So money face right this kind of friend? But ngor dei hai kong sam gei ma.

With 53rd times of independence years, I hope Malaysia can go a higher level now. Recently, I read some saddening stories on the net. Yet, I choose to ignore and focus on the positive of Malaysia. Be strong, be dynamic and be loved!

I hope Malaysia can end the racial politics soon, I hope everyone can enjoy total freedom especially speech wise. I also wish everyone will be open minded with the current issue on hand. Focus on growth. I think that is what everyone wants to see. Be more caring, be more loving and be more creative. I do not really love Malaysia, but I love Melaka la... Since Melaka is part of Malaysia, then I presume I love Malaysia a little bit geh.... XD

I also wish everyone will stop telling me Malaysia has no hope. I want people to tell me Malaysia is the place you go because of your own willingness, its potential and capabilities and because you love everything there. I will work my best to promote Malaysia.

And and also about my sudden realisation that I have been manipulated into thinking I am just like everyone else. Just because I am new and inexperienced, that does not mean I am the same as everyone else. I believe I am unique in my own way. Unique I shall strive. I have a rational mind to think. Hehe......

Blogger has been productive by reading,researching and watching dramas during National Day and he feels as awesome as ever, just a little bit bored because he has not talked to someone for 8 hours.

ps: talking excludes "hi and bye" and chat

like this and that

The music I am listening recently really has catchy phrases. I feel that music heals one soul, seriously. Does it heal yours? For one, I like these words "The spaces between my fingers fit yours perfectly". Well, I do not have a loved one yet. But I think one day, I will tell my loved one these words again. I find it very nicely said and sentimental in value. Just the silly me again.

The hard working me has finally come out for today. I have spent 3 hours non-stop doing my International Business assignment. Thumbs up for me. This assignment is quite tiring because the validity of the research material is important. Still, I have received help from my friends. Thank you.... There are only one actually... =) Well, it doesn't matter thanking another one, is there?

Blogger in the spirit of watching anime for hours non stop to celebrate the emerging hardworking side of him.

little secrets

If I were to say I have become a more realistic person, I think I would disagree.

If I were to say I have become a more caring person, I would disagree too.

If I were to say I have become a more individualistic person, I would nod my head.

Just who says individualistic is a bad thing? It sounds bad only when you see from a point of view of someone who is used to collectivism. Well, individualistic is actually cultivated as a result of capitalism. This is what I learn today. I am so glad that International Business is one of my core subjects. When I am reading International Business, I think I must have fallen in love with it. Although the reading is 60 pages, I found myself amused and motivated to read them because it relates to human and society behaviour. Besides, I love the area which focuses on weird but true fact and situation that make me go, "Ah ha". Overall I am loving International Business more and more.

After learning Organisational Behaviour and currently International Business, I am beginning to know where I want to land myself someday. It somehow strengthens my aspiration to be a consultant because I want to deal with human characteristic. Human is greedy by nature you know. They are possessive, greedy and needy individuals. (It seems that I am talking from a third person point of view which makes me an alien =)  ).

But this is just what I observe at the moment. I always think that the concept of money system is the greatest invention of all. Why do people always chase after money? How do people survive without money last time?

What makes money so important? Where does money come from? Which society values money less? I would love to know all these answers. However, i think the answer is rather obvious. It comes from human itself. We are so into power, possession and greediness that we create a system that bounds everyone. Best to say, our survival depends on it. What if money does not exist? I would love to see when that happens which I think will not happen for my period of life staying here on earth.

Can anyone tell me the answers? Even if you are a religious person, I have always read articles about religions sometimes do use money to attract the believers in the low income people. Hmmm... Does it mean money can even help you to spread religious beliefs? Interesting. Please do not get me wrong. I LOVE MONEY. But, my passion of human behaviour is as strong as my love for money. Thats why accounting is my chosen level of  field. It fulfills me. Hehe.... Actually, this post is not intended for the stuff write down here. Just out of the blue, feel like writing this.

Back to the title... Just when I thought friendship issue can take a rest from my mind for awhile. A sudden comment makes me amused again. One friend said, "I felt betrayed." ps: I am not the person okay? I am the listener only. I don't spread gossip here and there. Just here. 

Funny, I faced the same situation but in a very different context last semester and I have already taken console with the fact that we are human afterall. Our inner drive sometimes shows in our action. One might say, "Aiyar, you are making up stories." I don't and I don't like convincing and talking bad about others. Bulan Ramadhan, tak baik bergossip. So, I will just give this advice one more time, if my friend were reading this.

Live for yourself, live for others and live with your heart. You don't have to pour all your heart and soul. The best you can will suffice.

Blogger talking about stuff that is so random he thinks this thought never actually came through his mind before. He just loves to say something important to make himself think he is important. Another selfish soul!

what say you.....

A few hours ago, I heard my housemates talking, "Sas, what the fxxx happens to the fxxxing election?" Well, no surprise at all when the words came out of my housemate. I began to realise she has no meaning to curse. It is her way of expression. In my opinion, thats the way they express themselves. =)

Then, a further query reveals that Australians are required to vote at the age of 18. What gives me a shock is that even students have to vote. Also, if they do not vote, they will face a fine of $120. Wow... okay, that is really something new.

It seems so different in Malaysia where citizens are able to vote at 21 years old and students are not allowed to involve themselves in politics. Hmmm... Here, we have students who don't mind not voting but we have Malaysians students yelling to be heard. Haha...

It is something to take note, my beloved country. If people want to vote, it shows they care. If there are people who don't mind at all, you should be scared, not the way round where you are scared that people want to vote. Students have strong minds and they are capable of handling themselves, well, these are expected of them anyway. So, why not put a little more faith in Malaysian students. They might provide fresh ideas and more critical discussions in comparsion to the current bickering and dog-eat-dog Parliament.

The thought of those in Parliament makes me shakes my head wildly. Yes, wildly. They are so un-classy. Even children know it is not nice to be yelling here and there. Have they not known the word shame? I do not have to tell whose faults is this. One point: YOU HAVE TO EARN YOUR VOTES. Who gives you the damn right to sit there? It is US, the people. We are the people you have to convince, not the top level government.

What makes us trust you? Obviously, the answer is through your actions throughout and not during a few months before the election. My gosh... Please... Don't you think this is the best time to change. If we keep having this kind of administration, whatever potential a country has will not matter anymore. It is disheartening when I told my friends, "Malaysia has potential." But the replies I have are, "Malaysia has no hope liao" and "Impossible la." I was like..... dumbstruck because I have nothing to say back.

Sometimes I think Malaysia needs a lesson. She needs to falls hard and she who learns a tough lesson will know how much pain it is and come back strong. Then, I believe everyone will have the "ah ha" moments. That will be for the best. What I am afraid is Malaysia will fall hard but the people still cannot have these unique moments. Thats is the time I will cry.... Not through tears, through my loss of hope.

Blogger at the moment thinking Malaysia requires major revamp on her looks, inside out.

my hobby

I am dead..... not literally. Brain wise. Today, I use my time whole time watching Hong Kong dramas, animes and reading mangas. What a rest. It is not like I have nothing to do, I just feel like not doing anything. The only time I stand up is cooking, toilet purpose and take a book from Jason. Haha... I can feel my legs are quite numb now. Well, I will do my work tomorrow. Sometimes I just need to do my hobby whole day without doing anything else. I feel that this is my personal time I enjoy the most =) Although it can be a little lonely, at least I can get a run from the reality for awhile. Well, I am going to put some music I love from the things I have watched. XD

hidden agenda

If I ask you, "The more you know a person, the more you find the person has his very own agenda." You find it very uncomfortable with it. How will you advise me when you meet this person? 

A) Stay away

B) Fake a smile and play the game

C) Despise the person 

D) Act nothing happen

Well, I find it grossly disgusted. Maybe it is just me but not others. I find people who have their own interest above others are actually human afterall. But to have a person who always has his self interest above others ALL THE TIME. Ewwww... Makes me wanna puke. I don't know how I should say this. I find rather funny. This person is very friendly yet he knows how to manipulate people around them. Hmmm... Am I the only one who is too sensitive or is it people around me have no soul?

What the hell, whatever reason it is. I choose to act nothing happen. I will know what you want to do once you lift your tail, friend. So obvious! It is better if you do not tell me anything actually. Fine, since we are friends, I should at least give you a smile at least right? =) nah, here you go. Now, can you go away? 

Blogger finding himself rambling on unproductive stuff instead of focusing on his assignment. Damn! Hypocrite! 

as time passes by

   I am sitting down whole day, looking at my own laptop. The thought of those confusing notes sends shiver to me. Next week got an individual presentation. Let me see, it has been quite a long time ever since I did an individual presentation. I used to like to do presentations because I love the thing I do. Hehe.. I still remember I did a presentation about nuclear disarmament two years back in Taylors. I felt empowered to be discussing about important issue. Honestly, when I first I heard about nuclear disarmament. I was like, "Oh shit, what the heck is this about?" Then, I am required to do research about this.... Interesting. The more I read, the more interested it gets. Well, I manage to evaluate my level of english proficiency too because everyone is giving out comment and opinion. Hmmmm...
   That is the moment which I think I should give more of time to do serious time. Being 19 at that time, I felt naive not to be aware of such thing. Well, I did my part by reading Times Magazine once a month. Good progress during matriculation years. But, during university life, I have completely shunned this opinion. I noted this as transition period. Spent most of my time watching dramas, movies, travelling and eating. Kind of fun but I think it is about time to get serious again. As an individual, I believe everyone has the responsibility to know such issues. People will not be offended that you do not know, you just have to put a little effort. I can't be more impress this week when I read that a University of Sydney student is running for a political post. I was like, "Wow!" University students nowadays are quite powerful, aren't we? The more surprising thing is he is only 19... Another, 'Super wow'. Just when I thought about how important I feel, some people my age is thinking about politics.
   Time to get serious people. People are getting smarter. What makes you different? Well, one thing I can be sure, I have confidence and I am true to myself. Errrr..seems like these are not advantages in the business world at all. They are insufficient. Haha... Just when I was being interviewed to join as an AIESEC member, I find myself talking my past experience. I am quite impressed with myself. Talking and chatting is my expertise anyway =). Huhu.... I think I should brush up myself. I will be facing the business world in about 2-3 years time. Hmmm.... I want to rock the business world but it seems super hard. Never mind, I shall rock it the way I rock my life... Here comes me! Weeeeee......

Blogger on the day he hopes that he will feel empowered again during his next week presentation =)

我是香蕉人？

   This title should be quite catchy, especially for friends who have called me that. I have not heard this phrase for  maybe 5 years. Maybe, new friends find it impolite to say that. Not like previous schoolmates, never offer any face, step all over you. Haha, at first, I am quite annoyed but at last it possess no feeling already. Afterall, I do admit that I lack the grasp in Chinese Language. Hence, jiang jiang, I have thought out a good strategy to be a better reader in Chinese. I am learning from friends who write in their blogs. But I do not use google translator okay? I do not resort to such way to learn. No point if you are using translator right? Just you wait and see, hoho... this is what people call "越战越勇” Hopefully this proactive learning will be continuous.

   It is such a joy everyday to learn new things. At least it kills the boredom of every day staring the computer with nothing to do.

   A post 20 minute visit to my friend's blog sends a deja vu for me. Apparently, she is having doubt about herself, friend and society. I was in the exact position half year ago. I can't agree more of what she said. She thinks friends will be lost when you have trouble. Isn't it true? The fact is every human is a self center living species, striving for its very own survival. Do note I mention "it". The sooner you realise the fact, the better are you. While it is worth noting the fact, be rest assure that in times of need, try to find someone is who willing to listen to you. Hopefully at the end of the day, someone will be there to assist you.
   This is human, when we are in doubt, we tend to think of us being alone, but we need to realise the moment when friends and family are sometimes there for us too. Do not stress the self center behaviour of human nature. Instead choose to believe someone will be there at the end of the day. It costs nothing to have a little hope other than a little faith. If not, life will be boring without predicament and feeling of losing hope. Just have live on,

Live for yourself, live for others, live with your heart hopefully because it does not harm to be kind and caring to others. It just leave a warm smile and lovely heart at the end of the day. Gambateh....

Have you heard of him

Haha...I know it is rather ironic to be blogging about music artist yet again. This time around he comes to me by surprise. I listened to his song before... But as my usual behaviour, I did not bother much who the artist is and what song is on play. Just listen to music for the sake of enjoying good music. Perfect. This is what I call carefree music spirit me.

I was quite determined to do my International Business readings today. WAS is such a strong word here. I ended up doing research about an artist. At first, I thought this song is composed by a band because the name Owl City sounds like a band name right? Then, I did the research through Google, listening to a few songs in youtube and voila.... I found the official site for Owl City.

This brand itself is made famous by a chap known as Adam Young. Are you curious why is it call Owl City? It happens that this chap suffers insomniac which is a sleeping disorder from a very young age. And so, he used his home basement to compose music at night. Thus, the name owl city comes by. Is this what people call every cloud has a silver lining... I ain't sure I am even using a right idiom here?

Then, I went the distance and searched for his pictures and blog. Haha, yes.. I have become a stalker. Funny, from his pictures, I think he is a shy person. The reason: I should not tell. Haha... Let me just have my own secret. True enough, in one of the news article I read, he describe himself as "shy and not a huge person"(New York Times, 2009). He sings fireflies and vanilla twilight. For any of you who have not heard of it, give it a try. His music is of a unique genre. His use of disco and European electronic music sends chills down my spine. I swear it rarely occurs unless something good happens. Hoho...

Special thanx to a friend of mine who helps me notice who he is... You know who are you right? Haha.... Join me and have a light and easy music listening session, plus spine chilling if you know what I mean =)

Blogger on a musical mood all over again. Cheerios, mate!

Have you ever heard of her

I just heard of her recently as well. So, I presume most of you will know not her unless you are a Malaysian artist fan. I saw someone posting a music video about her. Then, I just clicked and listen.... Wow, Malaysia music industry is really heading towards the right direction. I am proud to be a Malaysian. Her nickname is quite cool as well. She is Mizz Nina... Go, Mizz Nina!

everything is going smoothly

=)

I love my current situation. Everything is going as I plan. I am playing badminton every fortnight. Sangat bagus, it is one of my new year's resolutions to be more active in sports.

Yesterday I found out that I can listen to Onefm, which is a Malaysia radio station. Perfecto. I try to use it last semester but to no avail. Thanx to my friend who reminded me to try again. She didn't actually reminded me but she posted something about Myfm. Suddenly I was thinking, "what the hell, just give a try"

Today happens to be another good day as well. The weather is sunny just when I would love to go shopping, book badminton court and pass movies to my friend. Loving the moment of it. This is what hokkien people say, "Sun sun li li" Heard of it... Hope you do. Because I love this phrase as it indicates life is like a sailing journey. At times, life goes through difficulties and tribulations, but at times, it has its smooth times as well...

Plus, yesterday I wrote in japanese asking, "whether I am cute" My friends and junior never give face one lor. Simply say no, some say impossible. Some say i am lying. Hey, I do receive the compliments okay. Not once but thrice okay? Fine, I should not argue.

Blogger at the moment wishing life will go on like this for awhile

Love Actually.......

Dear Readers,

   Who know what three words that follow? Well, if you want to know the answer, go and find out. The reason I put this post because I love this thing... Haha. A well produced piece. Thumbs up! 

   Okay, it is actually a movie. It is about a few mini stories combined together to form a  movie. I love one of the actor's accent. Just perfect. But I know deep down I will never have this kind of accent. It is just to hard to imitate. Very good acting. I don't know whether it receives a nomination or not.. But I still love it.. I watched for the second time yesterday, fully well known what the story entails. =)

   I shall put this a favourite movie of mine as a general reminder that love actually ......... Go and find out. You will be surprised... 

Blogger who agrees that love actually ......... 

Reading

I was quite determined during the beginning of the semester. To work hard for this semester. But I don't know where the passion has gone to. Errrr.... Been reading the whole day, 3 hours in exact of a new bought story book from Melbourne. Only 8 bucks for 2 stories. Awesome. I wonder when is Malaysia going to subsidize on books.

What is the purpose of subsidising petrol. It only causes more pollution and people are going to use it extravagantly. Why not subsidise on books right? It definitely won't cause any harm other than generating surplus of knowledge to be passed around. Let's petition for "Subsidy for Book in Malaysia". Can I start the petition?

Haha.... I wonder. Currently, I am happy to be in a place where books are cheap. This is how a civilised culture is developed. It is through reading. Do not be mistaken by my words. I mean books in terms of fiction and non-fiction. Not some gossip magazines or school textbooks. Since school textbooks now are free, there should be an act soon to publicize the habit of reading.

To look around, I find it disheartening because minority of my friends read. They do read but only textbooks. Can even memorise and read over and over again. Why not give storybooks a try? The key is preference. Choose something you like and light reading material. Then, you are off to a great start and be welcome to my world. I hate that when I told someone I love reading. They will reply, "Yah, can see.
You have the bookworm face." I was like... You must be lying in order to avoid the subject.

Fine, I should be secluded in my own world of books. I am very biased when it comes to book, I only read certain authors. ANd thanx to a dear friend of mine, Sophie, she introduced me to Sidney Sheldon series. I love him ever since. That's what has been keeping me occupied for 3 hours.

Blogger on the day he feels satisfied because he has achieved better reading time average for his fellow Malaysians. =)

age old subject

i wonder why. i am asked this question almost like a few times a year. "why you don't have a gf"

first, i will pretend what is gf which in fact, i know well what it is.... haha... avoiding the question perhaps? *take hint la, i have no answer for it as well. no, actually i do have the answer. i have the perfect answer why i choose to be single. one, less problem. two, carefree. three, i have a lot of problems at hand.

then, a friend will say, "aiyar, this kind of problem doesn't matter one" if the girl really likes you, she will not care about this kind of matter. hmmm, at least coming from a girl's perspective makes the overall argument sounds more convincing. haha... ok la, there is another reason. the girl of my type has not appeared yet. perfect answer... opppssss.... do i hurt a lot of girls? haha... thick-faced right me? 

recently, two people say i am cute... alamak, at least say la i am handsome ke or yeng ke.. cute pulak.... maybe my personality is rather unique i guess. not bad, not bad. at least being cute is a good trait as well. better than nothing right? 

and then, i asked the girl la, she recently just announced her relationship in the open ma. how do you know the other person is the one? your heart beats faster? 

she said, "errrrrr....... not really. but they are symptoms associated with it. like you want to see the person all the time, talk to the person and share your feelings with him. and she said the most important thing, you can be yourself" wow, perfect answer. 9 points! wait a minute, where is 1 point goes?

to me, i am always being myself wor... then friends aso can fulfill all the rest. she said it is different. fine, since she is the one in love, i respect and honour her answer as the ultimate truth. she did give some good advice too which i find quite relieving. haha.... thank you very much for you concern. that's the reason she gave for asking that question and somehow, i believe so. i am only 21 and friends start to get concern. ohh no... am i being a slow bloomer in love. perhaps. i can aso attribute to patience is a virtue. love does not consider anything. it comes when you least expected. haha.. fine, i shall wait and see. 

blogger on the day he feels like not using capital letter at all. do you realise that?