this week is very hectic... 2 mid semester exams and one quiz. I don't have the mood. not to say not to study, but very hard to focus. Something seems lacking, don't know how to describe. Anyone can tell me what am I lacking. I try to cheer myself by watching a taiwanese talk show, "Guess Guess Guess". It works towards a certain extent and I am still here. One indication: I am stuck. I hate to deal with uncertainty and for these two papers not to say hard, but rather confusing.
I really hate it when some standards are put in such a manner which sounds professional but doesn't make sense. Isn't better if you use simple language that normal people would comprehend? Instead of saying directly, it is beating around the bush for dunno how many times and in the end, it means simple stuff =.= But I heard previous exams were tough, so I did some study and ask some tips. Hmmm.... Financial accounting is really not my cup of tea. I refuse to say I hate it because it is a process of learning.
The process of learning can be wonderful, I just have to find a way to learn it. Also, I try to be grateful for the fact that I have a comfy place to learn, good friends for guidance and nice tutor to provide additional assistance. Oppsss... I forgot that tomorrow I have tutorial to attend. Ciao!
Blogger regaining his focus once he starts blogging. Wheeee.... Maybe he will consider blogging more than once a day to remain focused. Gambateh.
Monday, 13 September 2010
Saturday, 11 September 2010
mahu vote tak?
Recent Malaysian news indicates that election might be coming soon. Maybe maximum 2 years time? Time really flies. And since I am 21, I am eligible to vote.... If I am an ordinary citizen, I would be pleased to vote because it represents my power in determining the future of my country. Unfortunately, my country is extra ordinary. The political parties are fighting things for the wrong reason.
Just to compare with Australia, there is a labour party and liberal party. Am I saying it right? One is fighting for keeping the basic's human necessity like lower tax, higher incentive and higher payment for paternity leaves. Wow, got paternity leave suggestion some more. Syioknya. And another party is fighting for Green, as my Aussie housemate told me. They are here to protect the environment by carrying out higher tax on corporate bodies to create a sustainable future.
These visions are really that make the voters fire up. They are fighting for rights that everyone can enjoy. Either party wins will benefit the citizens. Hmmm.... what about Malaysia? I think we are still fighting about education rights, scholarships, business opportunity, discrimination and race issues. Where are the solid grounds you are fighting? They seem to be focusing on the menial issues that are not supposed to exist any longer. One thing you can applaud them. Those damn stubborn politicians and voters. They refuse to change the track of the main agenda. To say Malaysia is still at its infancy, we are not. To say we are developed, we are so far away.
So, what are we? We are just like adults fighting baby issue. Which adult should get the toys? =.=
Back to my question: should i vote ar? Why should I? I will only give to individual that deserves it but what if the individual I want to vote is of party that does not fight for the main agenda I wish it is fighting for. My main doubt. Never mind. Once, I start seeing the main agenda, I will vote. From the current being, let's just say my vote might come for a few more decades, if I am lucky enough to survive till that time, that is.
You do not have to persuade me to vote for you. Save your breath and effort. Just do the things right and I shall have the eyes to see.
Just to compare with Australia, there is a labour party and liberal party. Am I saying it right? One is fighting for keeping the basic's human necessity like lower tax, higher incentive and higher payment for paternity leaves. Wow, got paternity leave suggestion some more. Syioknya. And another party is fighting for Green, as my Aussie housemate told me. They are here to protect the environment by carrying out higher tax on corporate bodies to create a sustainable future.
These visions are really that make the voters fire up. They are fighting for rights that everyone can enjoy. Either party wins will benefit the citizens. Hmmm.... what about Malaysia? I think we are still fighting about education rights, scholarships, business opportunity, discrimination and race issues. Where are the solid grounds you are fighting? They seem to be focusing on the menial issues that are not supposed to exist any longer. One thing you can applaud them. Those damn stubborn politicians and voters. They refuse to change the track of the main agenda. To say Malaysia is still at its infancy, we are not. To say we are developed, we are so far away.
So, what are we? We are just like adults fighting baby issue. Which adult should get the toys? =.=
Back to my question: should i vote ar? Why should I? I will only give to individual that deserves it but what if the individual I want to vote is of party that does not fight for the main agenda I wish it is fighting for. My main doubt. Never mind. Once, I start seeing the main agenda, I will vote. From the current being, let's just say my vote might come for a few more decades, if I am lucky enough to survive till that time, that is.
You do not have to persuade me to vote for you. Save your breath and effort. Just do the things right and I shall have the eyes to see.
Friday, 10 September 2010
she who is someone different from other
I am used to heard my friends saying, "Mothers are all the same." Yeah, I agree up to a certain extent. Mother will always say that you kids are so lucky nowadays, got to study and parents to fetch you go and back from school. Haha.... My mum also said that all the time. And I was very scared when I have to stay back for extracurricular, she will ask me, "Do you know how hot is it?" Oppssss... That's why I will walk very fast out of my class once the last lesson ended. Faster coming out = avoid traffic. Phew...everyone is happy.
At times, I feel that I have the luxury to relax around without parental pressure to do well because my mum never ask me to be extra ordinary, She just hopes that I will be like everyone else and have a normal life. But, I think the last I wish is like everyone else. In form 1, my best friend told me, "My Mum keeps asking me to study." I replied, "My Mum always ask me to stop studying." Haha... You know why.... The reason is I love to study until late at night because I have taken naps in the afternoon. Hoho.... So, I give my mum the impression that I am studying all the time. Tactic successful.
My mum also never ask me when is examinations. So funny, she will tell me to sleep early and do not stress myself too much. Wahhhhh.... My mum really think I study too much huh? Since young, I always believe that one should be responsible for his own action so, I seldom make my mum worry much academically. I can still remember her shouting in the car when I told her I scored full A's for UPSR. But I know she has nothing to give me other than her care, love and advice. For these, I think it is sufficient for me. I never ask for more because I know family at home is quite tough.... Not say tough, but someone is making it tough. That's why I always cherish my mum.
Today, just called her. And she said she was just thinking earlier today why I haven't called for so long. You can say this is mum telepathy, sending signal to me to call home. Haha.... Then, I reminded her to keep some mooncakes and asked whether she kept some bak zhang for me. She said no need, I will make some for you. Hoho... Zhuan dao.. That's why there is a saying, "The way to heaven is at the bottom of Mum's foot" (direct translation for syurga terletak di bawah tapak kaki ibu) and I really believe that indefinitely.
At times, I feel that I have the luxury to relax around without parental pressure to do well because my mum never ask me to be extra ordinary, She just hopes that I will be like everyone else and have a normal life. But, I think the last I wish is like everyone else. In form 1, my best friend told me, "My Mum keeps asking me to study." I replied, "My Mum always ask me to stop studying." Haha... You know why.... The reason is I love to study until late at night because I have taken naps in the afternoon. Hoho.... So, I give my mum the impression that I am studying all the time. Tactic successful.
My mum also never ask me when is examinations. So funny, she will tell me to sleep early and do not stress myself too much. Wahhhhh.... My mum really think I study too much huh? Since young, I always believe that one should be responsible for his own action so, I seldom make my mum worry much academically. I can still remember her shouting in the car when I told her I scored full A's for UPSR. But I know she has nothing to give me other than her care, love and advice. For these, I think it is sufficient for me. I never ask for more because I know family at home is quite tough.... Not say tough, but someone is making it tough. That's why I always cherish my mum.
Today, just called her. And she said she was just thinking earlier today why I haven't called for so long. You can say this is mum telepathy, sending signal to me to call home. Haha.... Then, I reminded her to keep some mooncakes and asked whether she kept some bak zhang for me. She said no need, I will make some for you. Hoho... Zhuan dao.. That's why there is a saying, "The way to heaven is at the bottom of Mum's foot" (direct translation for syurga terletak di bawah tapak kaki ibu) and I really believe that indefinitely.
Tuesday, 7 September 2010
tikam....
Today, my whole day is filled with this misery word. I felt so helpless.
Corporate Finance 2 mid semester examination is today, And I just thought I am aiming for pass.... Aiming for pass seems so hopeful afterall. The 1-hour examination for 30 MULTIPLE CHOICE questions is so long. Yes, it is multiple choice which makes me feel worse. I am like =.= I have been preparing since the first week itself, doing all the tutorial questions and preparing 1 week ahead. Still like this... One word I just learn which really suits my situation right now: FML!
Then, I was guessing all the way because I am scared I don't have time to tikam at the end....I did some with ease but for the majority part: they are either uncertain or unknown. Feel like want to cry but then, decided not to because I still have 2 more examinations next week. I shall rest for today, so I end up watching 6 hours of anime plus drama just to forget the experience.
While the rest of my day seems unproductive, I did volunteer for an event, not bad though. Met quite a few new friends. And I even taught a China friend the word, "tikam" because she was in the same exam as me and ask me what it means when I told that to a Malaysian friend.The event is nothing much just that recently I found that people who met me before do remember my name.... Hehe...I thought I am insignificant, seems not =)
Then, I also went for a dharma talk organised by my friends, interesting discussion I should say but I seldom ask questions. Pai seh ma, first time attending.. But I do find it quite informative and interesting. The speaker point of view can be used as a guidance in life or should I say, a light that will shine through the tunnel, but I do not deny that I have neglected the spiritual need of myself for quite a few years.
The thought of that seems to strike me with another thought... I seem to think that right or wrong is within one's conscience. You yourself will determine whether it is right or wrong but within the society, there are some moral conducts that are deemed necessary. Once heard that, the Buddha is within you. It is not that if you pray more, you are more holy than others. One's person karma is determined by your action, speech and thought. You must do it right then I think will be sufficient.
Blogger feels that when one hell breaks lose, another two might come next week... Gambateh to me!
Corporate Finance 2 mid semester examination is today, And I just thought I am aiming for pass.... Aiming for pass seems so hopeful afterall. The 1-hour examination for 30 MULTIPLE CHOICE questions is so long. Yes, it is multiple choice which makes me feel worse. I am like =.= I have been preparing since the first week itself, doing all the tutorial questions and preparing 1 week ahead. Still like this... One word I just learn which really suits my situation right now: FML!
Then, I was guessing all the way because I am scared I don't have time to tikam at the end....I did some with ease but for the majority part: they are either uncertain or unknown. Feel like want to cry but then, decided not to because I still have 2 more examinations next week. I shall rest for today, so I end up watching 6 hours of anime plus drama just to forget the experience.
While the rest of my day seems unproductive, I did volunteer for an event, not bad though. Met quite a few new friends. And I even taught a China friend the word, "tikam" because she was in the same exam as me and ask me what it means when I told that to a Malaysian friend.The event is nothing much just that recently I found that people who met me before do remember my name.... Hehe...I thought I am insignificant, seems not =)
Then, I also went for a dharma talk organised by my friends, interesting discussion I should say but I seldom ask questions. Pai seh ma, first time attending.. But I do find it quite informative and interesting. The speaker point of view can be used as a guidance in life or should I say, a light that will shine through the tunnel, but I do not deny that I have neglected the spiritual need of myself for quite a few years.
The thought of that seems to strike me with another thought... I seem to think that right or wrong is within one's conscience. You yourself will determine whether it is right or wrong but within the society, there are some moral conducts that are deemed necessary. Once heard that, the Buddha is within you. It is not that if you pray more, you are more holy than others. One's person karma is determined by your action, speech and thought. You must do it right then I think will be sufficient.
Blogger feels that when one hell breaks lose, another two might come next week... Gambateh to me!
Friday, 3 September 2010
eustress or distress?
I know I like a subject when remembering the facts come so naturally. For those who have studied Organisational Behaviour, these terms should sound familiar to you.
These two are basically, as the names suggest, stress. One is a good stress while one is a bad stress. What the heck, right? People nowadays can classify stress into good and bad. Don't they have anything in between?
Eustress is a good stress apparently. This amount of stress is helpful. Let me give you an example. For example, when the examination dates come nearer, you apparently have eustress to quicken up your pace of studying. So, somehow or rather, it can be said a good stress.
What is distress? It leads to anxiety and may cause you some trouble such as emotional problems. It is bad stress. Something like when you are facing a stalker or trouble fitting in. So they are bad!
But, I am wondering why is my eustress is causing me behavioural change? The nearer the examinations date, the more hours I spent on drama and anime. Today itself, 6 hours =.= Fine, I will gambateh tomorrow but Malaysian Hall is having buka puasa. Should I go? It is very tempting but I want to nail that Corporate Finance subject.
Want to ask for help, but pai seh to ask because I know the subject is tough so I do not want to trouble other people. I should read up myself right? Always ask questions also makes other think you are such a bother.
Never mind, a fresh day comes with fresh hope. =) I will sleep earlier and wake up earlier to revise. Corporate Finance is such an interesting subject but most of the content is like so challenging! I am finding myself sweating for this subject. =.=""""""""" haha, lame joke for a lame me.
Blogger feeling like sleeping,studying and watching drama at the same time.
These two are basically, as the names suggest, stress. One is a good stress while one is a bad stress. What the heck, right? People nowadays can classify stress into good and bad. Don't they have anything in between?
Eustress is a good stress apparently. This amount of stress is helpful. Let me give you an example. For example, when the examination dates come nearer, you apparently have eustress to quicken up your pace of studying. So, somehow or rather, it can be said a good stress.
What is distress? It leads to anxiety and may cause you some trouble such as emotional problems. It is bad stress. Something like when you are facing a stalker or trouble fitting in. So they are bad!
But, I am wondering why is my eustress is causing me behavioural change? The nearer the examinations date, the more hours I spent on drama and anime. Today itself, 6 hours =.= Fine, I will gambateh tomorrow but Malaysian Hall is having buka puasa. Should I go? It is very tempting but I want to nail that Corporate Finance subject.
Want to ask for help, but pai seh to ask because I know the subject is tough so I do not want to trouble other people. I should read up myself right? Always ask questions also makes other think you are such a bother.
Never mind, a fresh day comes with fresh hope. =) I will sleep earlier and wake up earlier to revise. Corporate Finance is such an interesting subject but most of the content is like so challenging! I am finding myself sweating for this subject. =.=""""""""" haha, lame joke for a lame me.
Blogger feeling like sleeping,studying and watching drama at the same time.
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