i need someone who really sees me. i don't wanna wake up alone anymore.

all i need to know is for sure and i'll give all the love in the world.

good lyrics by The Corrs

the Bunsen guy

have u heard of the word Bunsen? actually it kind of ring a bell in my head when i read this word. somehow somewhere i must have come across this word before because it is really really familiar and very important. and given a deeper thought, the word 'penunu Bunsen' pops out of my heard. aha! there you go. the burner that i used when i was doing laboratory experiments during my senior high school years. oppsss....does that mean that i never pay attention during form 1-3? perhaps not. i felt like i was floating around during this period and until late form 3 year, i begin to grasp what i was doing. strange but true.

back to this bunsen guy, today is actually his 200th birthday, if he were still alive. unfortunately not. he was a man with incredible inventive skills. he is the first that created bright,pure,clean energy to burn the chemicals in the lab. hmmm.... how should i credit him? simply thanx won't do because he already passed away. maybe a remembrance will do him justice. think about it. without him, we are mostly suffocated ourselves in the labs doing those experiments because the gas produced will be sufficient to intoxicate us.

he is also the first guy to conduct electrolysis to extract pure metal form. ohhhh.....i know that! the electrolysis question came out during spm. and i kept wondering whether i had that chemistry question correct or not. what i am curious about is how do all these intelligent creatures manage to invent to many stuffs? no guideline, no rules, and no books to refer to. and yes, he did sacrifice his right eye due to chemical poison. for the sake of science. really earn my respect *bow*. come to think of it, chemistry is really fun when it comes to lab work but when the time sets in to do the report and solve equations, my brain will go disconnected. actually i am quite good in calculating the equations and reading the periodic tables but for the rest, i really tak tahu macam mana mahu buat.

i can still remember vividly that i will purposely stay late after chemistry class and ask my teacher, pn tan lay hua a lot of questions: both nonsense and practical. and she would reply: nothing is hard. it is the matter of whether you want to learn or not. although she is really advise me like my late grandma, i take it as a principle in life because she definitely has more experience. and for her dedication and trust in me, i mati mati study very hard just to get an A. not a fan of chemistry but for the sake of someone putting trust on you. =) this "grandma-like teacher" has retired unfortunately. for her trust in me, i will always remember her.

both are visionaries

to have a vision is a great thing to do. in life, to have vision helps because it helps you to stay focus and gives you the extra x factor to move forward.

but is the vision you have really affects the people around you? i am discussing about the visions that our politicians have at the moment. so ironic. the main purpose of having politicians is to establish the people's vision. and there shouldn't be any discrepancy because if everyone has the same thing in mind, why is there so much difference in opinions. the reason: everyone has a vision.

the person who is staying in power wants the votes and hence, to be able to sapu as much wealth as one can. this is the reality. try asking malaysian. they will tell you, of course la. it somehow becomes a norm. this cannot be tolerated. if we somehow believes this is the norm in life, part of us will begin to see this as alright. we must reject this unfair and unethical norm out of our lives.

try listening to the talks by nga kar ming. i am quite impressed with politicians. though they speak in chinese and talk about the historical chinese lessons in life. but somehow they make sense. well, i guess this must be the jobs of politicians. speak confidently and convincingly. what they need is logic and perspective. if the people feel right, they will vote for you. how easy?

me too have a vision but i don't want myself to resort to corruption and shoe licking dogs to get the job done. i would like to see my beloved state, melaka to go eco-tourism. somehow or ratherm i can imagine people cycling around the streets of melaka, especially the historical sites. if you plant more trees around the areas and restrict car access. i believe this can be a major business deal in times to come. people do really like some tranquility nowadays. the city life is so bloody packed that i think four and half years already make my head spinning round and round.

unfortunately, i dun believe in politics that much. seeing my own background. i think my chances are pretty slim. first, people will question: what is this? this chinese kampung boy couldn't even speak proper chinese...oppssss... i will be labeled as person who forgot his own roots. secondly, i dun like to ampu people. go to hell if you dislike my way of conducting stuff which can a BIG no no for the political arena. you must be able to please everyone. mati la mcm ini, i believe i will provoke more people than pleasing. =) this fails me as politician.

try watching some videos about them. it is really interesting. while i am taught to be critical thinker, these videos provide more insights to you. don't believe them blindly, just take them as reference and judge yourself. afterall, if the equation connects, logic comes.

blogger taking his time off doing homework by watching the flying high symbol talks =) (must be discrete, if not i will be caught)

tiger mom? says who?

i have just come across an article which writes about how an asian lady brought up in america by very strict parents. hence, she in return, treated her own children with the same treatment. to me, asians are always like that lar. so tough, even to the point i find where is the logic of being so strict. somehow this article brings back my own memory how i was used to force to memorise the multiplication table. actually i was kinda slow because i only finished that when i was 8. haha.... so much for the memorisation skill at such a young age.

actually, i hate anything to do with rote learning. but some experts are suggesting that pure rote learning isn't that bad for certain aspects such as mathematics and music skills. i was quite taken aback. does that mean i really have no talent in these two subjects? actually, it is the truth. i am good with numbers, just not excelling them. that's the reason finance seems so tough la.

in the article, the asian parents and even children are labeling american children spoiled. i can't agree less. although i have no such treatment after i entered primary school, i couldn't imagine children who are brought up without pressure from parents. will be quite a shock to me. the internal drive for me would be monetary( as promised by my late grandma). but i can't see any other reason for others to excel. pressure? pride? fun? challenging? the last one seem least likely. who learns to excel in a very young age unless pressured.

if i were to be a parent one day, i think i will be a strict one. trust me, i tolerate no nonsense. oppss.... maybe when i become a parent one day, i have different thinking. love them but don't spoil them. my mum never actually pressure me much with academics studies because she allows tv watching for 3 hours before examination day. i guess i am a lucky child. i always heard a friend telling me, " my mum keeps telling me to study. " and i would tell K, " my mum keeps pressuring me to sleep early. " with that, i rest my case. not all asian parents are tigers, just majority are. but mark my word, my mother also tolerate no nonsense for behaviour. if the number of canes are counted, i think both hands' fingers aren't enough.

blogger who is having thought whether finance could be mastered through pure memorisation. hell no! it requires genetics. can transfer him some? wait, what is genetics?

music airing at the moment: all i ever wanted by Train

happy birthday

this post is dedicated to a good friend of mine. it seems that time really flies because i haven't seen him for three years already. this good friend of mine is a very caring person in my opinion. for one, he always bring extra fruits to school. and sure enough, the first thick faced person to reach out is none other than me. haha.... since i have been so "kek ki" (hokkien) all this while, i felt that I should have dedicated a birthday post to him. really long time no see.

he is currently pursuing his dream of becoming a medical practitioner in india. i guess he is the most qualified among all my friends to be a doctor because he is a kind-hearted and helpful person. if i did remember correctly, he cried once over something which i find very menial. but of course, this shows his vulnerability and understanding of other's grief and pain. not to label my students nowadays as unprofessional of becoming doctors, but you really need the drive, passion and right attitude to this profession. and from what i heard, some are just monetary-motivated, career-minded and mostly status. hmmm...

people often tell me he is hard to understand. no, he is not. you just need to open your eyes wider and dig deeper in your heart and everything will come to light. not everyone has the same opinion i would say, but you can view it from different perspective. and i am definitely not saying this because he bribed me all this while with the fruits. it is because of his vision that he earns my respect this much.

hope he is doing fine. he's been busy and i have been busy. and when he went back malaysia, i am not around and vice versa. the ironic thing is we actually have the same surname. it is like first time in my life to meet a friend who shares a same surname with me. you can't understand if your surnames are wong, chan, lee, tan, ng and chua i presume. and he is just only 2 days older than me. perfect, because he really has the big brother characters.

Happy Birthday! Chat with me sometimes lar, i know you are very busy.

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