be a butterfly

sometimes i have the thought to become butterfly. weird, isn't it? i myself find it weird the reason i want to be a butterfly. perhaps the reason could be for my yearning for freedom, graceful, or dance.

perhaps freedom is more accurate. i just want to be free from anything. the desire for money can be powerful at times which makes me soulless yet money is the necessary evil in order to survive in this world. by becoming a butterfly, i can sway from flower to flower without a care to a world that seems oblivious towards the real purpose of existence.

is everyone just want to live life to its fullest then die? yeah. majority people do, even for me. i want to travel, i want money, i want a career and i want so many things. but obviously the constant yearn for such a thing can be arduous. but what happens to i want peace, i want comfort and i want to have no desire for worldly stuff. weird isn't, i have an out-of-ordinary thinking. but despite my thinking, i am living a life of an ordinary citizen fulfilling the ordinary dreams of the masses.

perhaps the picture below shows that freedom is not so hard to get afterall. it is always in the mind that gives you the perception of freedom. if only wish is granted upon the falling star.

make me a butterfly and make me fly out of this world.

2012

this upcoming year, hopefully will be a rocking year for me. i plan to watch the new year fireworks in sydney before flying back home. weeee.....(i heard the fireworks are as awesome as the picture depicted)

moreover, yours truly will be going to taiwan. i kept hearing this year from friends that this place is such a food haven. with its myriad type and affordable food, i think it will be fantastic. my life is 50% about good food. dun disappoint me, taiwan. people always say shop till you drop but i prefer to eat till you can't move. maybe i can get a little cny shopping done in taiwan since i did not buy any clothes in sydney this year. been curtailing my spending to go for trips.

this morning, i am so excited that i tell my housemate i am going to taiwan and after that, i started searching sites about taiwan. wth. i totally forget that i have a mid semester exam on wednesday. hoho... excited, excited, excited (i am so excited ♪ ♫ ♩ ♬ ). going through a web checking out the food pictures... *drooling. january please comes faster.

blogger is so excited and from the definition of wikipedia (lame), excited can literally mean very enthusiastic or sexually aroused. okay, maybe he should be more careful of his choice of word next time. from sydney with love.

taste of music

please dun stop the music by rihanna is definitely one of the few popular songs which comes to mind when one wonders. but to me such catchy song is only temporarily hit song. will anyone listen it again 5 years down the road other than it being lambasted in the clubs on your ordinary saturday evening?

for me, music has to be able to soothe the soul, calm the mind and memorable. two years back, i got a question from a friend, "why all your songs are so sad?" hmmm.... if i remember correctly, i answered her, "where got?" surprisingly, this petite chinese lady understand perfectly my malaysian slang. she mentioned her prior secondary education in singapore before heading sydney. well, i dunno what to say. i like songs which are naturally sad and involves the element of relationship, love, break up and emotional. why? maybe because my relationship, love, break up and emotional experiences are lacking. haha....

nod, nod. what to do? never pak toh before ma. how do you expect me to react? i even asked a close friend before how does it feel to be in love. she said it is something to do with your actions that say much about your status of being in love. one, you would want to see the person frequently. second, you want to share everything with the partner. third, your hearts go sour when you don't get to see the person.

okay, i am definitely not in love before. as simple as that. statistically speaking, two friends told me it is not worth to be in love if it ends up bad because the suffering is unbearable. hmmm... can't comment on that. but always thought it got to do with your heart. if your heartbeat quickens, it is a sign? i definitely have that some point in my life. dun worry, it is not recent.

so next time i can tell other people, my taste of music reflects my desperation search for love. =) what a big laugh because i have definitely put no effort in searching the right one plus my every effort in constant avoidance to be alone with another individual. i feel awkward unless the person is a friend.

blogger feels that life is the constant search for something which no one knows what the thing is.

MC

it is often a wonder how i end up being an emcee. is it because i am gossiper? i am funny? or i am just being plain spontaneous? today, there is a volunteer job for male emcee. i am actually a bit shy to take up the job because the event will be attended by almost 300 people. wow. banyaknya orang! anyway, i have volunteered myself because when my president was asking, "anyone interested to volunteer?" and almost everyone in the committee is looking at me. okay, that's how i volunteer myself.

one note: i heard my MC partner is a very pretty girl. okay la, not all is loss i think. hehe...

actually i thought i am just being at the right place and right time to be selected. to me, MC is not a hassle, if i have something to say. luckily, i kept it a secret that I have co-hosted with several other people for a charity event back in malaysia when i was in form 4, if not my committee is very likely to ask me to host the ADND (annual dance and dinner) The first charity i hosted is attended by almost 300 guests as well. my first MC work is pretty taxing because i have to be bilingual being mandarin and english. with my partial chinese speaking ability, i have to act funny on stage to compensate for my lack of chinese proficiency =S. looking back, it

is really quite enjoyable. and that time, my hair was sprayed with purple and slight pink plus glitter. okay, i shall not put any more details. overall was a nice learning experience.

this time around, it will be for mooncake festival. okay people, be ready. chee seng is going to rock your world on Mooncake Festival!

blogger feeling excited and nervous at the same time.

bullshiting

certain party is being unreasonable. what has honest view got to do with your family background. i felt so angry that marina mahathir has been put to such a position. she has given views that is far more forward looking than her father. why must a child follow what the father said. apa mudah lupa? you, the ignorant one should reflect upon yourself. look at her contributions to the country. her tributes for fighting against AIDS for one is very credible indeed. compare to her, what have you done encik RK. talking about shame. you are the one should be shameful for standing behind protected policy and championing those rights. for a person without contribution and intelligence, such a comment is an insult to oneself.

dia tak lupa diri, cuma kamu yang tak sedar diri.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/8/20/nation/9338424&sec=nation

dare to ask people to declare her asset? why don't you declare your asset first? see whose right and whose wrong. a person with critical thinking skill is very much appreciated, a person without should just keep opinion to himself.

note to the rest of malaysians, please speak wisely. do not put oneself to shame. that is the least you can do for not contributing towards the nation development. and marina mahathir happens to be one of the respected member of the community. a great asset.

blogger feeling weird for reading an article that speaks badly about a great human being from a person with no brain.

this article is written for a better Malaysia. for those who can't take it, suck it up and grow up.