It's Christmas

"Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way"

These are the lovely lyrics I like to listen during this merry season. I always look forward towards Christmas. Though quite a number of friends know my "main" activity during Christmas, just pretend you don't know okay? In conjunction with Christmas, let us just usher this celebration with a good heart. *wink wink*

One of the reasons I love Christmas is that I like the gathering my family will have. Though it may consist of small lunch gathering, it is the atmosphere I enjoy. Besides, everyone will be so happy awaiting their turn for presents including me. A small Christmas tree will be set up. This little tree has a very long history. It has been with us since I was very young and yet it still stand majestically adorned with sparkling decorations.

I am given the honour this year to decorate it too. (The truth is my sister did most of the decorating work and my role only includes opening up the tree and setting it up) Aiyar, it is the thought that counts marr as I always say. Hope that I will remember to take a picture of it during Christmas.

Talking about Christmas always relates us back to presents. I am in deep trouble actually. Yet, the problem occurs due to my own actions. So, no one to blame but my pity self. I still have my sister's present empty plus one for my upcoming friend gathering. Aiyor...what to buy also will constitute migraine you know. As for my brother, a clothes accessory is waiting for him.

In addition, I forgot to write my Christmas cards this year. Mampus la kali ini. I feel so bad because every year, I make it a routine to send cards to close friends. I think this time around the cards will arrive late or some will not get it at all. Sorry. Do I still have to send to friends who are overseas? Ermmm... though questions lar. One more thing before I return to my job of writing cards, Merry Christmas everyone.



Ps: If you have time, try to listen to some Christmas songs. I won't promise they will suit you, but I promise a smile on your face *wink*

Boring...........

The reason I am blogging is because I am waiting for the buffering to finish before I can watch my korean drama. The internet connection is very slow leh. I am so bored till I read my friends' friends blogs. Huhu.... Actually, their blogs are kind of refreshing and creative. With different writing styles and views, I am surely entertained. By no mean I am a stalker. Just to take some ideas how to write better.

My whole body feels very tired after 3 hours of playing badminton this afternoon. Apparently, I forgot to take my nap today but I am in the final part of the episode so cepat sikit lar internet. I want to sleep. An nyeong

Home-cooking lesson 1: "Ham Cha"

My cooking lesson starts today. My mum is nagging actually since I told her when I was in Sydney that I intended to learn when I come back Melaka. So, I choose to cook one of my favourite dishes which is Ham Cha. Let me brief you through the history of "Ham Cha". This is dish is originated from Teochew clan of the Chinese descendants. I learnt about this dish when my maternal grandma cooked this when I was young. I felt in love instantly. This dish is of many types of vegetables. My mum said you can put any vegetables that you like in it. Initially, I dislike vege but I love this dish. I always specially request my grandma to cook this dish. Hoho.... Also, it is best complimented with peanuts.

To sum it short, it is a rather simple dish. I cannot imagine such a delicious dish is so simple to make. Photos here include the 5 types of vegetables, the final process of the rice and my mum: Madam Chan.


The dishes before they are mixed together


The complete dish: Ham Cha


Madam Chan

Photos courtesy from blogger on a day he is full of passion for cooking!

Everyone officially knows I am back home

I think I must be pretty hardworking. With 3 days to go to make my full second weeks here in Malacca, I have worked two jobs. Hoho.... Lucky me to find jobs that quickly and unlucky me to be underpaid. Apa lar.... Maybe, I always encounter employers who underpay their employees.

The second job I worked is as a maxis broadband sales assistant. Omg, super hard to sell lor.. Not only am I underpaid, I have to be so thick skinned to persuade the customers to buy the product that I myself am not convinced to buy either. My boss has said that I am too kind-hearted. I am not forceful enough. I did not know being kind hearted is a bad thing in the first place. Now I finally do. Well, to sum it all, it is hard work,low pay but I love working there. I met a lot of people. Trust me, it is really A LOT.

I even met people who have lost contact with me ranging from 2 years to 7 years. I think almost all my Malaccan friends know I am back already. To mention the name only will fill this whole blog list. Hoho. I also know some good friends there. They are pretty fun. Yeah...I fulfilled my purpose of working: to enjoy my holidays. Talking and meeting lots of people while having fun. I think one of my holiday objectives is being met at least. Hehe... I already start missing the yesterday. Although it is tiring, I still feel happy. I am not really into money thingy actually but the thought of being underpaid does anger me towards certain extent. Money is never really a serious matter to me because I view money secondary compared to other things. I manage to sell 3 plans at least. Phew... what a relief. I don't want to work anymore for the holidays. Wanna rest now. Eyyy...come to think of it, there is a new jusco opening soon. Maybe they want to hire people. I might consider lor.... Hoho...

The smell,the taste and the scene

The first day, I was awaken by the chirps of the birds and sadly, the sound of the water flowing. My sister forgot to close the bathroom tap. Aiyor.....Kacau shj my first morning in Malacca. A supposedly heaven morning with melodious birds chirping plus the little bugs are tainted by this. Scold her later for that. Haha...

Yesterday was truly awesome. Been to makan wan tan mi and oo chien... Sangat sedap le. ALthough I makan wan tan mi twice a day, I don't seem to mind at all. There are different types of wan tan mi: black and white one. So, they are of different taste for me. Hehe.... Been going out and makan all the time. Habis lar aku. People say I look the same le which is a bad thing because I already restrict my food intake in Sydney. IF things keep constant, i might become fat....Arrgggghhhhh. Tak pa, 3 months only. And friends are coming back soon, then can go play badminton liao. Now, only got 1 friend le whom is most probably reading this blog too. Too free de la this guy... Wakakaka..

I will be working later as a waiter. This job is part time and is upon request only. Should be fun... Huhu... Till then

holidays

yes...tomorrow at this time I would have landed myself on Malaysia. Hehe... First time I feel so happy to be able to go home. Too much drama,stress and emotional drain have definitely pull my spirit down. I want to recharge myself. Haha.. I do think the experience here is worth ( this is what I keep telling myself). Being afar from family does have some serious effect on your emotions. Sometimes, I feel so lonely that I can just watch drama the whole day without doing anything. Well, this year has been truly unproductive. Everyone should be feeling the same. I have some friend to friend talks and they are in the same position as I am. Although it sounds cliche, years spent in school and college are definitely more exciting and fun. But, I do understand this is part of growing up too. So, I have set myself a new goals for new semester:

1)Know more people by being more friendly. Been a recluse for too long I guess
2)I want to work. At least I have something new to do. Perhaps, the extra cash might come in handy
3)Learn another language. I am a bit apprehensive. First, I really wanna learn how to write in mandarin but I find it a waste of time since I already can speak (haha,rojak only lar) . Been interested in learning korean though. Since I am such a big korean drama fan. Learning it will defnitely helps!!! Can know more korean people too. Korea is definitely listed as one of the must visit places before I turn 50. Anyone wanna join me?
4)If I cannot find any work, then I think I wanna join one sport club. Very keen to join badminton club. Looks fun and I love playing too. Must keep remind myself of these goals or else my university life is just going to be a normal and lifeless one.

PS: These are the new korean songs from a drama entitled "Boys over flowers" Hope you like it as I do. Adios

Clock ticking for new thoughts

It's three days after my final examinations. Do not wish to talk about that. Brush it aside. 14th November marks the day of my total freedom from any hassle of studying and worrying. It is quite sad to say that I think I was really slacking all this while. I really need a wake up call before new semester starts next year. One reason for it is that I lost my purpose along the way during my studies.
I used to be so sure of myself. My composure is ever sturdy for as long as I can remember. I can't fathom what happen to that. Therefore, during this holidays, I have a few objectives in mind. One, to find my goal after my career path because I seem a bit lost right now. I have dream to be a consultant or any job that allows me to connect to people. So, as far as accounting goes.... That doesn't seem suit my job at all. But, I will make use accountancy degree as a stepping stone. I always hold the principle that a person who has strong faith and belief will be able to reach his goal no matter which path he took along the way. So, it doesn't matter so much to me. Perhaps, I am succumbed to people calling me future accountant.
Three whole months is a real long holidays. I never had so much holidays before. I think I will take this time to read some good books, travel and work. All my objectives in life. If I can do this for eternity, I won't regret every single minute of it. Well,if only I have passion in journalism. Sadly, I am not. I am more of a speaker than a writer. What I intends to speak out of mind is better conveyed through conversation than writing. Haha...
Time to recall my learning experience here in Australia too. First and foremost: No place feels like home is so damn true. If there is one who disagrees with me, he/she must be an alien. It is still an understatement. Alien also wants to go home,right ET? Two, I want to learn to be more vocal. I was a bit apprehensive when doing my assignments this whole time. Afraid that my comments might not be constructive enough so I apparently shut myself up which I think came out as a problem. Hmmmm.... Well, a lesson to be learnt. If you want change, be the change. Ironically, this sentence is quoted from Mr G. You know who you are.
Blogger on the day for final reflection before heading home sweet home. See ya!

tomorrow is exam day!!!!

and I am still here blogging. hell it goes. damn tension. not really tension. People are commenting that I am too relaxing in the way I react for exams. I am so pissed off. Keep listening to songs and watching animes every few hours. My gosh... I am an internet addict!

Tomorrow is my first paper which is Macroeconomics and the lecturer already hinted that it will be difficult. Arghhh... This paper is my final hope to get a HD grade. The rest has just went down to the drain. What am I doing here again? Just to calm myself down and push further. Ok, ciao... time to read macroeconomics. HD....

Blogger on the day he feels a bit insane and optimistic at the same time. So weird I am.

Another month to go........

I just finished the last lecture for this semester. No more tutorials to catch up with and no more lectures to attend. Yahoo!!! In less than a month time, I will be home sweet home once again. Not to forget, succumb myself to all the food until my stomach bloats up. Haha..... well, someone promised me before I came to Australia to bring me go out and eat all the good food. Hint* Hint* Haha..... Cannot "lai mao" Fortunately, I am still saving the last sms you sent me.... Muahahaha which is about 8 months ago.... Well....I have a good memory when it comes to food. Hmmm...let me think what I crave for the most....

First, it will be the satay celup of course. somewhere near boon siew motor shop has a good one. Although it is located near the street, it somehow tastes better. Omg...maybe I love tasting all the dust and carbon monoxide in my food! Who cares la.... Janji boleh makan. Everyone is dying also what. The matter is the rate we are dying only. So, dun worry too much. Eat die, dun eat also die....

Next, we have the dim sum in jalan gajah berang. Sangat "huai nian" the chee cheong fun and loh mai kai.... Drooling... Have to wake up super early to get the dim sum but no worries..Australia and Malaysia have 3 hours time difference. Normally, I woke up at 830am here. THat means I will be awake 530am Malaysian time. Good. ANyone wanna join me?

Okay....time for reality check.... Don't talk about one month's time schedule... Haha....food schedule that is awaiting me..... In two weeks time will be my final exams. I feel ill-prepared lar... Just started revising yesterday.... Been addicted to the anime for so long. I begin to calculate the time spent watching which amount to 300 episode x 20 min each= 6000 mins/ 100 hours. Oh no.... And trust me, this is an understatement. I begin to wonder, if I use the time to revise earlier hor...my results will be superb man... Too late. I am not the one who regrets over the past because I love every minute of it. Bluekkkkkk.... Yeah... At least I feel less guilty by completing the homework and assignments la. I will strive harder next year ok? Promise to do so....
Blogger on the day he feel relieved and gan cheong at the same time. =)

Falling leaves

It is now spring in Sydney. Some trees can be seen blooming with flowers. In fact, I was very excited to see that my university has trees with purple flowers planted, similar to the ones grown in University of Queensland. When I saw those flowers, somehow I felt calmer. This is the wonder of nature. Seeing something sprouting from the earth is actually better off seeing architecture built by human no matter how great the building might be.

As I saw the flowers bloom,I wondered what happened to those falling leaves. Hmm... To put in metaphorically, the falling leaves can represent many occasions in our lives be it: leaving the departed one, loss of a friend or even forgetting the pain that one endured in the journey so called life. Fortunately, with the falling leaves season, it will be another day where flowers will bloom again. That is for certain. This is how nature will work irregardless of how you wish spring will never end. With spring, it comes fresh hope, new beginning and new discovery. It is not too much to say that spring is the season most favoured by everyone.

I hope that everyone enjoys the spring season. The beautiful flowers, melodious birds and the greenery grass. All will be laid upon your eyes. Recently, two of my friends have to cope with departing with the ones they love. I understand how it feels to be like to be leaving someone you don't want too. With it, the memories will flow pieces to pieces as if they just occurred yesterday.

Fortunately for me, I choose to look at the bright side of life. When my grandpa passed away 2 years back, I did not cry. Part of me felt really guilty for not doing so since I am always his favourite grandchild. I am the only one among my siblings who had the privilege to be chauffeured to school using his old bicycle. The bicycle is really big and tall. I still remembered vividly that he will always remind me to open my legs far and wide to avoid my legs getting stuck in the rims. Such memory....

Another event which I never forget. I am the youngest in my family. And due to the short distance between my house and my grandparents' which is about 5 minute using bicycle, my grandpa will come to my house every morning to wake me up. It was back in standard one. I will somehow roll on the bed longer than everyone else despite of my mother's anger. My grandpa will kindly came to my bed and shook me. But being young, the slumber seems too hard to resist but I lost it to one thing. BRIBERY! Haha.... Yeah... My grandpa will slip a one ringgit note into my hand just to wake me up... My sister and brother are so jealous of me and labeled me : money faced. So, I think I am brought up in a condition where corruption works after all. Wakaka...

Well, after losing my grandpa, I took sometime to get used to it too. Somehow I cannot believe that now I no longer have 2 grandpas and 2 grandmas. I felt a little incomplete by the lack of one. I might be greedy but this is how I feel. But if I were given another chance to choose my life, I will still choose the same no matter what. Yes, most of the times the problems at home are always endless, but with the showers of love, care and attention that I garnered makes my life complete. At times, I still felt my grandpa's presence as my mum always told me. Dun worry, if he cares for you, he will always be there to watch over you no matter where he is. And I am still clinging strongly to believe every word of it.



There you go. To both of my friends: I have nothing to say or any action to do but I have one wonderful story to share. Hope that this story makes you stronger as it has made me today. WIsh you all the best and take good care of yourselves. I may not be able to do anything but I promise I will be a good listener.

Blogger on the day he feels like sharing an old story all over again.
CHeers,
Chee Seng

Guilty

It is practically 5.15am in the morning. I was suddenly awaken. I don't know why but I think must be the feeling of being guilty. My friend's grandpa passed away yesterday. I have no idea that it happened. I met him twice yesterday and I did not know anything although I felt something was wrong.

A lot of things is running through my head. I felt really sorry for him. I din know what to say and do. And the fact that I am almost the last among the last to know about it really crashes me down further. Am I the worst friend? Maybe...... That's why I am blogging now. Sorry, my friend. I have nothing to say but just tonnes of apologies to do. Rest in peace, uncle. Although I may not know you, I know there is one person who truly love you.

Blogger on the day he felt the earth can swallow him up

Resolution

It is almost coming to the end of the 2009 second semester. My final paper which falls on 14th November signifies that I am closer in reaching back home. So, it is good time to flashback what have I learnt for the entire year I am here.

1) I have been less industrious compared to the times I was in South Australian Matriculation. But, I so still manage to complete my homework, assignments and attend my classes almost all the time. Thus, I feel that my obligation as a student has been fulfilled. What about my satisfaction about the view as a student? Generally, I find that the education system here is appropriate and students do enjoy to their fullest when it is time to play. However, when it comes to time to learn, they fall back a little of my expectation. To summarize the whole thing, I have been a little inclined to follow suit too. AIyar...the word for it is lazy lor.

2) Exercise. This word seems to leave me far away from my daily routine. I jogged seldom here. One reason: the weather is quite cold. This makes the comforter seems more enticing. On the bright side of thing: I have not gained weight. Hehe... Now, I intend to go back Malaysia to exercise. I should find a jogging partner to.... * hint hint* to Mr Rong Zhen. Haha... He is now having a three-months holidays so, should be quite free to accompany. Let's jog the whole kampung lapan! Not a bad idea I think....

3) Sociable wise....ermmm...Let's say I am little shy when I am adjusting towards the surrounding. I do attend the Malaysian Society activities frequently to fully submerge myself in the Malaysian food provided. Damn cheapo right me? WHo cares la...Only students ma....People will understand....

There you go, my next year resolutions are to be a better student, a healthier individual and a more friendly person.

Beyond

I must be pretty extreme in blogging. It is either I will leave this blog for a very long time unattended or I will keep updating until I feel like update it right after the next post. Well, today I am in the mood to blog about one of my all-time favourite canto pop group. I was not a very big fan actually but my twin uncles love them. So, I grew up listening to these songs running through my head again and again until I fell in love with it.

It is funny to think that not many of my friends ever heard of them. To be exact, I only found 2 friends who have heard about this group. Seriously, they are awesome. Sadly, this group has disbanded because one of the members died in an accident during a concert performance ages ago. If I remember correctly, the guy fell from the stage and passed away. So sad right? They are so good that I think their legacy continues until now. It will not be too much for me to say that their music is really inspiring. For those who understand canto, they will know what I mean.
In their lyrics, they sometimes inculcate moral values in them. Furthermore, their group band name is also very catchy "Beyond" which gives me the feeling that one's dream has no limitation as it goes beyond your imagination. Haha.... Syiok sendiri I guess... Better than nothing to syiok about hor? That will be so kelian.
Oppsss... This blog has used considerable time of mine to do homework.
Blogger on a cheery mood....Phewittt!!! go Beyond!!!!!!!!!!

Back from holidays

I have been away for one whole week. Last week was my spring break holidays. I have decided to join my friends,studying in melbourne to go for a vacation in Gold Coast and Brisbane. Gold Coast is a place where it is famous for its theme parks while Brisbane is infamous for its HOT weather. Really hot lor, my gosh. My skin is practically zhao da de. While my skin is getting darker, at the same time, I really have a great time. One word for this trip: awesome. I went to Seaworld, Movieworld and Wet n Wild theme park in Gold Coast. I really enjoyed to my fullest for this few days. Tiring yet exciting at the same time.
One more thing: the food in Brisbane is mouth watering. The dim sum is so heaven (credits to Maggie Law for using this word). And the buffet consisted of korean bbq and sushi also are fantastic. This holidays is all about eat eat and play play. To combine them together is eat,play,eat play. I think my weight is gaining too!!! No!!!! but who cares. It is holidays anyway.
During this holidays, I gained some perspectives too. Human can be so scary. I listen to stories and I see them myself. Haihhh.... Someone said this is how life gets interesting. True in a way but at the same time, this type of people really fake. I have no words to say anymore. I believe everyone has his/her own self interest to serve. But as you do so, it will not kill you to be good to others right? That's the way I think my life should be. Serving oneself but remember to be kind and generous to others as well. It will not hurt you but it does make you feel good.

Goodbye,my friend

In a few days time, a friend of mine will be leaving melaka to uk to further his studies. A good friend indeed although we did not keep in touch that often in the past 3 years after spm.
First reason I am busy during my time in taylors and he is aso busy in singapore. Second reason is his holidays always do not coincide with mine. That's about it. But we do meet quite often before I come to aussie.
I still remember the first time he caught my attention in class. Actually, he remains very oblivious within my view because his personality does not really shine in class until one day. This event must be very fresh on his mind too as he said that is also his point of time he realized my existence in class. It began with a perfect fine day. And I still recalled vividly it was Geography lesson that time. When I turned my head to the left, I saw two students who were not only not paying attention, but had the guts to play game (the one which whoever cover the most enemy's dots wins).
I ignored them totally until I saw Miss Chong turned to them and started walking towards my direction but from behind. They were doomed! The teachers pulled their ears which to me, funny and hilarious. So, I laughed (ermmm...I should say a bit significant that he remembered that till now). What I want to clarify is that it is an honest laughter.I laughed because they were daring enough to defy Miss Chong. But, he thought I was laughing at him. Haha... So, did I clarify myself here?
Well,as times pass. Our paths normally did not bump into each other very much. I guess our personalities are too different to have any conversation at all. Imagine that he likes chess, physics and anything to do with logics. Hmmm...for me, I am not into chess, never really like physics and what is logic anyway? Your heart should tell you what to do,right? Our personalities make us sort of like complement in some unique ways.
Only when it comes to form 4 time, I learned to know more about him. He also love to laugh like everyone else, just that I find him too robotic. Yes, the adjective to describe him. Believe me when I say that. There two qualities that he has that makes him robotic. First, if you play chess with him, you feel like you are playing with the computer chess. Secondly, a person follows logic. not that it is bad, it is just seemed so ............like a robot. hahaha. And his perception is always full of bright sides of life which I like about him. Ever confidence, ever positivity.
Well, not that I am not positive, I learn from very harsh environment which makes me think positivity does not always come easily for certain people. They really do have to think really hard for them. And his perception about girls is kind of realistic too... haha....well well. it is a secret between me and him lar, can't tell that much. Ohhhh...one more thing that makes him robotic. He never show any sad face before! I think he is not into sharing problems with many people but I think he has his way to deal with them. I remembered once when I saw that I think maybe it is weird if that person never show any emotion but I am not in my position to give my comment at that time.
Well, he is a good guy. Super smart ass. I have nothing to wish him since he will definitely have no problem in studies. Just need some luck in love perhaps, my friend? haha... so I wish you all the best in your love life and future encounters.

the higher you go , the deeper you fall

Feel disappointed right now. I have just finished presenting for my accouting newspaper team task. At first, I thought I was doing okay. But, it turns out to be disastrous. So many negative comments were received. I also cannot fathom what actually happen. I am done... I felt bad not only on my part but also for my other team members. What is done is done. I just hope that I can forget this and take it as a lesson to do better next time. Gambateh. Still have one macroeconomics assignment to go before spring break springs up. Haha...
Blogger on the day he feels like not doing anything.

The memory lane

Felt like deja vu last week. While having discussion with my peers in accounting group, I suddenly remember how happy I was back to the times in school. Laugh like nobody's business. Fun and exciting. I think I must be pretty lucky. I am not sure how my team members think. But I do think the pleasure is always all mine to meet them. They are hardworking individuals who brighten my day last week. They must be thinking I am a very sampat person which indeed is true. I am different in a way I guess. Very daring to speak what comes to mind. Well, tomorrow going to meet them again. I cannot fathom why I get a little excited just to meet them. Hopefully, it will be another nice and fun meeting.
Recently been addicted to taiwanese drama. Of all the dramas, I dun really like taiwanese one. Dunno why, just dun like but this one is different. Funny and of course romance.Some people dislike cry cry drama but for me it is very heart warming. ps: i don't cry along k? just loving it... Seems I am able to watch the drama until 4 am last saturday, this show must be so good that I pecah rekod tidur paling lewat di sydney.
Blogger on a very excited day.

slacking for the nth times

Been busy doing my law assignment last week plus had macroeconomics exam on last friday. That's the indication that my last paper for mid semester is finally over. Sign of relief....
These are my reason for not updating myself recently. Weird to find that I am so engrossed in law which in fact not going to be my major. I can opt to do business law as my second major but the thought of keep researching and researching freaks me out. Still unsure what to do yet other than accounting. I have been stressing myself a little these days. I cannot fathom what actually happen. This is not me. I used to withstand people who do not sleep whole night to study but the thought of people studying now gives me a little creep. Huhu.. Kind of the to the point I feel like not studying. Well, I think I did pretty good on macroeconomics. Presuming I can get a good mark on this paper, sure there is someone better than me right? So, why bother??? I think I need to get my old self back,where I remain oblivious to my surrounding. It has its costs to when I just do whatever I feel like it.
An example would be the during form 5. Seriously,other than my old classmates, I do not remember who I talk to during that year. Been doing my own things,at my own pace and the most important thing is that I feel really happy. Not until recently did I realise I have basically ignore anyone who comes into contact at that time. Can't be bother. I am not really a person who can help you in studies because knowing myself well, the more I talk to you, the more you will less believe the theory. Haha... I know myself as the defying learner. I do not believe anything throw to me at first until you can prove it so detail and within my brain capactiy,then I should believe you. That makes me a stubborn learner. haha... nothing wrong I find that just a little unique on my part. Time to do homework again but still very bored. I think I need to take a deep breath first...........................Okay, I am ready
Ciao,
Blogger on the day he feels a little tensed

If things happen how we expect them to be.....

An odd feeling as reading my friend's blog,sighing about how helpless things could be. Well, I just remembered how it happened to me a few weeks ago but not through call but another different medium. Weird to say that I get message that way until I woke up, feeling terribly shocked by it. Apparently, after this incident, I have difficulty sleeping for a few nights. Ohhh well, if only things happen how we anticipate them to be, but it never will. Life is always feel with happiness and sorrow for you to appreciate what you have. Although it may be short, the most important thing is the moment you have together with your loved ones. Worrying will not help but it can't be help.
It is impossible to ask a person not to be worried when it is the only thing that bogs your mind for the whole day. I felt like I was floating all the time during that time. Glad that I begin to take things as it comes. At least it gives you a peace of mind. Expect the unexpected but hope for the best. Life may not be as good as you think it should be, at least cope with it the best you can.

Merdeka?

It is my home country's independence day today. It feels odd not celebrating in Malaysia for the very first time. Perhaps, given that there is no holiday today, I did not feel the mood at all. No flags waving on the cars or on top of someone's house. Hmmm... Whatever it is, I feel people's spirit is quite dampen. The constant politic that keeps bombarding the papers has reached an untolerable rate. Can you guys just stop for a second? I feel like talk in front and give a punch to every sinlge politicians. Stop being so dramatic. Isn't Asian very nice and gentle people? I think Malaysia's politic arena is not really clean. Keep backstabbing each other. Well, we are not at its infancy years anymore people. So, please wake up!
There are so many problems to be solved but all they care is their positions, who is right, who is wrong. Personally, I don't care. Just do your job. Aren't you supposed to serve the people, not yourself? Judging from the current state, I feel angry but when it reaches to a point where nobody cares, then only the politicians will know they are fighting a losing battle.
Whatever it is, I still love Malacca. Read carefully, I type correctly. Only Malacca, not Malaysia because somehow I feel not Malaysian anymore. Where has the spirit gone? Drain? Well, maybe something is just not right. Forget what I am crapping about. Just here to wish all Malaysians "Selamat Hari Merdeka"

Is it daring or stupidity?

An incident occurred last night when I was on my way home after having dinner for a friend's birthday. It happened at a pedestrian crossing. While I was patiently waiting for the light to turn green, one guy,roughly in his mid 20s was crossing the road. On top of it, some cars were coming quiet fast. Unable to foresee what was going to happen next, I some sort of shouted but low volume, "Eyy, eyy" to that guy. The weird thing is he just stared at me as if I was crazy. The cars were coming! Surprise,surprise.... The cars actually stopped for him who was crossing halfway. I was in such disbelief. Not only the guy crossed as if his datuk punya jalan, the car did not even horn. Such strong pedestrian power in Australia huh? In Malaysia, you will either be horned to death or knock down to death. Hmmm.. I am definitely feeling the culture shock now. Kind of think of it, I should not say anything at all. I acted as if I am the one at fault for calling it out. Phew.... The guy was probably drunk and with such arrogance. Fine......
And I just finished watching Australian Idol. Super awesome but not as good as American Idol though. The thing I find quite strange nowadays is that contestants today are very daring to talk back for any negative comments received. Should I say they are way too confident or stupid? People, if you are really that good, why aren't you signed with any recording company? The judges are plain right in commenting the genre of music they are singing do not suit them. But oh well, the generation Y has strong self belief. Not to blame them but please do some self reflection. Do not take as if everything negative statements are aimed toward criticizing you.
Hmmmmm... There you go. You should decide whether are they daring or plain "naive"?
Blogger pissed off by the way people behave today. So rude!

Buka Puasa Night

Today, Malaysian Society has organised buka puasa night. At first, I was invited to the event. Actually, I have decided to go and then my friend said dun want to go. Yesterday, again he said want to go. A few moments later,hesitated again. And today, he finally thought about it and asked me, " Want to go ar?". I felt like give him a whack on the head but never mind. I see things at the end result which is to go.
The food is overall not bad but I love the rendang. Sangat sedap lar... Unfortunately, second serving is not allowed because there is not enough to go around. Had some fun with friends. I realised there is quite number of muslims in university of sydney but overall are minority in the uni itself.
Test is coming la but I am addicted to the bejeweled blitz game on facebook. What!!!!! I am shocked myself too. Such simple game can get me addicted. The information system note is sitting next to me,lurking for me to touch it. Later ok? Don't you see I am blogging? Fine, I am so frustrated right now. I feel bored but the last thing I want to do is study. Hmmmmm. Understanding where my energy of studying for a few hours straight has gone too. Probably went along with the cold winter wind. Haha... Just plain excuses.
Blogger on the way to read his IS notes.

the thing between interest and have-to

It has been awhile ever since I read a newspaper. I just can't fathom why I somehow forget that I have this pleasure of reading newspapers every Sunday back in Malaysia. I will read for hours and hours,escaping to my own world. I find it amusing to read different things that revolve around me ranging from food,travel and economics.
To be able to find one's interest is truly a blessing I should say. At least you know you like what you are doing, just like how some people who love to doodle, play football and even read comics. Interest is a very interesting thing. You know you like it but you somehow don't know why you like it. What I am trying to say is everyone has different interests. The thing you have interests in might not be what others like.
With the recent announcement of new assignments, I am constantly worried when should I start them. I think I get too carried away worrying when I am supposed to sail through them enjoying every breath of it. Perhaps, my goal has turned from learning to marks. I hope I can find an interest in the subject for me to enjoy doing the assignments. Not everyone will like the same subject but I treat the subjects that I don't like that much a little different. I will just hope I can get at least a distinction for it. This attitude has to change because it is not consistent with the purpose of learning. Learning carries a wider definition beyond things you don't like.
As a student, my duty is to learn them so that it becomes useful one day. But I am wondering how information system is going to be useful to me in the future. Hmmmmmm....
Blogger in a dilemma of choosing the things he likes to do and the ones he dislikes

Demotivation from own act

It has become a trend recently for me to check out people's blogs almost everyday. My gosh... I must be pretty free then which actually is true. I dislike reading information system stuff and the mid semester exam is coming soon. No idea comes to mind if anyone were to ask me: What is Information System? Anyway, I will try my best.
Also, I would like to bring attention that if one opens more facebook or anyone's blog, I think one will feel more demotivated. Can't comprehend why I would feel this way. Maybe it is because people keep saying they are sleepy,hungry and lazy. Maybe this sort of stuff comforts others but it definitely demotivates me too from studying but to watch anime instead. Yeah, that's the way. Blame the rest and point fingers without reflecting one's own action. It has become an obsession to me. Two activites that can keep me away from the internet will be reading storybook and watching televsion. Hmmm... I guess reading a book is not that bad but watching the tele is definitely a big no no as I am now watching almost 4 hours of anime per day. So,to watch more means I am done.
One particular blog does interest me. This blogger is particulary has it's own distinct characteristics. First of all, she likes to curse but I understand the culture has now turned to one that curse for everything although they don't really mean it. But, I am getting used to it, paradoxical in the sense that I don't curse. Second, her point of view seems true to me. It makes sense as the topics range from asian stereotype to Malaysian's idiosyncracies. I hope she can update more often but with less of the vulgarities. Haha.... Ok, I need to find something to do already. Ciao.
Blogger who posted 2 blogposts in one hour. He must be going crazy!

A fruity gathering

Yesterday was quite a day. I was out for the whole day from morning until night. In the morning, I was supposed to have a discussion with my friends in Information Systems group. Apparently, I was late. Yah, typical of me to be late for all the time. I was also almost late for my previous semester first exam paper. Nothing to be proud of.
Then, we went for lunch and grocery shopping. My Malaysian friends group has decided to have a small gathering. The thought of making salad came to my mind. So, I began to think of what to buy in my head : watermelon,honey dew, papaya,orange and apple and the list goes. Unfortunately,papaya or known as paw paw here is not available for sale. But still, my salad is very laku because they used it to play games. So freaking excited man. There are two bowls of salad. Each bowl has 4 types of fruits. One person will hold one card out to see what colour of the card is and we associated the colours with the UNO cards. The combinations are peach:yellow, watermelon:red, green:honey hew and apple:blue. How ironic it was to have apple to be blue! And when one sees the colour, everyone is supposed to use the fork and pick up the right fruit,no more no less. So,it is full of fun because I was pretty swift and manage to see the clowny behaviour of the group next to me.
Full of fun the person with the highest punishment was supposed to sing but because it was very late already, we decided to postpone the singing to the next gathering. Thus, that was how my fruits become laku although everyone is very full at that time.
Cheers,
Blogger on the day he woke up at 1030am,feeling drowsy

Sushi Chef

After postponing the plan to make sushi for one semester, my friends decided to make sushi yesterday. Yahoo! I think I am very excited because this is my first time learning to do sushi. One of my friends, pei jin is the chef of the day,teaching me how to do,giving some hints and guides. But I do come out with an idea to put scrambled eggs on top of the rice,which I love it. Haha....I saw it somewhere before. Thinking of trying. The first few ones were pretty ugly but the more I did, the more I like them. Haha, I think maybe because I don't settle things for second best. I kept doing until I like them apparently.
I kept eating while making the sushi as I am freaking hungry. By the time I am finished, I am pretty much full. Quite glad when pei jin's housemate commented that we can open a sushi bar. I know it is a bit exaggerating but at least now I can say, I made sushi before. This picture is my breakfast for today... Still tasted great. Thank you master ng.
Blogger being a jap for a day

Music listening

I have been bored on friday,particularly because I only have one lecture from 9am to 11am. After that, I am so free until nothing comes to mind when I am thinking how to spend my free time. Thus, I am now spamming other people's blogs. Haha...not so much of spamming. Just a read and listen to their cool musics. Kudos to people who have good music taste. I am real fan for some of my friends' blogs because I love their music for example rong zhen and agnes. But after a month of listening to rong zhen's music, I got tired. Currently, I am really into Korean drama,entitled "Cinderella Man". However, although I have fast internet connection, that website is so freaking jam that I have to wait watching the drama. Ended up giving up watching yesterday.
This drama is a combination of romance plus humour. Of course the element of romance has to be there, if not I will not consider it in the first place. The actor is quite popular which is the main actor in the drama "Stairways to Heaven". Love the songs in too. I rated it a 4 star drama. Quite high considering the fact I am very picky when it comes to korean drama. Their stories are like at my fingertips. I am confident I can score higher in korean drama than any of my course subjects. boring ma i should say. Who likes to study all the time? Har,har,har....
Much to my amusement, my rekindle passion for anime has returned. Now, it is "One Piece". Hoho... I don't realise I am actually an anime fan until my friend told me ," Wow, you must be an anime fan!". Aikksss. I am beginning to embrace the idea I am indeed an anime fan afterall. Good thing. Now, I have one more thing to say about myself. The story is about a pirate encountering friends along the journey in search of a treasure known as One Piece. But this anime has 400 plus episodes. Good because I can continue to watch until n period of time; Bad because I don't know when I can I finish them. I am watching at a rate of 20 animes per week. So,by the end of this year can finish d guar. That's all
Blogger on a very free day... woo hoo!!!

Sleep deprivation

Recently, I have trouble to sleep. Not really recent, just yesterday because I had a weird dream yesterday about someone. In my dream, something bad happened and when I woke up, I could still remember I cried in my dream. When I was suddenly awaken, I checked whether my tears were real or not! Terrified, I begin to question is this some sort of message someone tried to send me. Irregardless of what it is, I hope it will not come true. When it was almost time to go to bed yesterday, I purposely dragged myself until very late so that I am completely tired before turning into my slumber land. I heard someone said that if you are really tired, you won't dream. How false is that? I dreamt again, this time I don't remember the details but I know it is unpleasant. Wei... please let me go can or not?
I know I am crazy talking to the natural order of phenomenon. I even have to calm myself down before I went to bed which I think I slept at 2 plus morning. This dream has better stop if not I scare my sleep deprivation is getting worse. But fortunately, there are some friends who are there to tell me it is alright. Come to think of it, none of my dreams has actually come true. I am glad to notice that by now. Hoping to night will be a good night to slep again.
Deprivation of sleep makes the blogger tired today.

I am not me or I am new me?

These few days have felt like a roller coaster to me. I don't really know who am I anymore. It feels rather odd. I was very sure who I am. I know what I am doing, what to expect from others and what others expect from me. Then, up to a certain moment, I felt tired. Tired to be playing the puppet I did not feel like playing anymore. I guess this is where individualistic characteristics appear somehow. I really ponder why am I feeling this way. Weird,strange and awkward. I never have this kind of feeling before. I am often very sure of what I want.
The problem crops up not from me I guess. Maybe, it is the environment that is changing. I need to step up my game to be more independent. Learning to know what others want may not be a priority anymore. I feel useable. Haha... That's the adjective for it. I don't want to be the person that only exists because I happen to be there anymore. I will exist for I want to be there. Well, it might seem illogical but at least I know now. I begin to see what future beholds for me. A more mature self. Wish saying is the same as doing it. Things in reality do not happen like this.
My rekindle obsession with korean drama is beginning to take on its toll on me. Forgot that I have a quiz to be submitted on Monday. Haha.... rilek la, still got sunday ma. Hmm..... I begin to love the korean language too. This language has been bombarded in my brain until I feel like learning korean language in my next semester. An nyeong ha se yo. This is the only phrase I remember from my previous lessons in taylors. I am not really serious at that time in learning korean that time. Regret a bit but still happy because one phrase is better than no phrase at all. Lol... what the hell is this lol. So many people have been using this short form that I am influenced as well.
Not decided yet, been thinking to do double majors or not. Feel like taking econometrics or business law but will have to forego a few CPA accredited subjects. Haihhh.... If only there is someone to help me.... Maybe I should just study whatever I feel like studying as long as I am doing accounting major. I dare not say for certain accounting is for me but I know it is a stepping stone for me towards something more eventful.
The recent popular trend in Facebook is the stupid quizzes that people are taking to see their own personality (me included). I find it very stupid but the stupider thing is I keep doing it. What!! Haha.... I am definitely curious but I think sometimes it is better for us to know ourselves than letting some stupid software to confuse us. I am always believe fate lies in our own hands. Then, there is this best friends bot thingy which is so absurd. I kept thinking what contributes towards Facebook selecting the people in there. My number of photos taken with those people? I dun deny some are true yet, some are so off my best friends list. Yesh, I have a list in my brain. Makes everything easier in life. Either you are in or you are out. Wah, this cliche sentence sounds like one used by Heidi Klum in the Project Runway. American influence. Cheh... I am definitely crapping here. Sorry for my sheer ignorance to the public readers.
Blogger on the day he feels like lashing out everything.

The rainbow with no ends

A new picture for my blog. This picture was actually taken a few weeks back when I was walking home after shopping. As I looked at the rainbow, it sort of gave the feeling of new hope but I did wonder if everytime a rainbow appears, does it really give a new hope to everyone or anyone who manages to glimpse at it. True enough, the rainbow did not appear for too long. A few minutes later, as I looked up the sky, it was gone. Glad to be able to capture it. Well, it seems endless isn't it? Does it resemble that hope is endless too? Subject to personal opinion then, some people prefer to see things from the brighter side of life and some like me, prefers to see it from the other side.
I have a reason for it; It rained heavily 2 minutes after I took this picture. I had not managed to go back in time to collect my laundry ending up soaking wet. Besides, I took a shelter in a nearby library. On the contrary, while waiting, I have a book in my hand, so I began reading the book. Hmmmm...good to be able to enjoy the book that time.... It would be better if there is a cup of hot coffee to compliment with my favourite past time. As my friend from Perth loves to say: It is heaven! Wakakaka... Here you go, law maggie. I did quote from you. Therefore,I should put referencing at the end of my blog post. (Law, 2009)
Blogger reminisicing the day he was soaking wet reading....

Baking lesson for a good cause

Yesterday is a terrific day. One of my friends,wan lin had a birthday yesterday. So,we decided to bake a cake for her. This is my very first time of baking a cake. It is a chocolate cake with almond and cashew nuts. It tasted great. I love it but it was a bit too small because we just follow the recipe online. I find it rather amusing nowadays that you can virtually find anything from the internet ranging from cooking recipe to road maps. I am beginning to reap the benefits of technology afterall. Wish me good luck for I will be cooking another new recipe today which is chicken rogan josh. Some spicy chicken from the cookbook I have bought recently with 30% discount. Super excited now to try it now. Enjoying university life to its fullest now.... Haha.....
Blogger writing on a sunny day

Hawaiian Poached Chicken

As I was pretty bored yesterday, I decided to venture the city with a friend of mine,pei jin. We actually wanted to shop and look around to see what can Sydney city offer to us,the shoppers. We walked for about 5 hours and miraclously, I never feel tired for the first time. It was fun because I got to see the shopping centres and food. Hmmmm.... Been gaining weight lately and it is so significant because the fat apparently is deposited on my face. So, I got 2 pao pao on my face which are going to be char siew pao soon.
Although after this holidays, my aim is to go on a diet, I think it is going to be futile because for two reasons: one, I just bought a new recipe book during this venture. It is fated. The MYER store has 30% discount on all books. For a book lover like me, this good bargain is truly a blessing. So, I bought a storybook and a recipe book.
And today, I started trying cooking already. So,the first dish would be as the title named after. A successful attempt indeed. Delicious. If this continues, my body will grow horizontally at an exponential rate. NO!!!!!!!! But, I do love cooking nowadays. It cheers me up and defintely enhance my cooking skills. By the way, the cook book only cost 18 dollars. Love it,love it..... Here goes the pictures.....Does the picture looks like what I cook? I hope so....
Blogger on a day with the passion of cooking

A tribute to a friend

If what you see do not reflect the reality in it,how would you feel? If looking the eyes of one person will reveal the path of his life, I hope you can never see mine.
It is the subject that normally I would ignorantly brushed aside whenever questioned. To be able to retell the story needs strong emotional support and courage. After more than a decade enduring it, I would have assumed I would be strong enough to tell at least a person with much preparation. When the question popped up, "Do you mind sharing". I felt that why not. Since I already told part of the story, obviously the consequent event would be to finish it. I have never finished the story last time to anyone. Never have I imagine that chatting with a friend will make me shed a tear.... Since I have had cried so much before, I felt my tears have already dried up.
A few revelations to some friends of mine before have sent them speechless. The irony is I haven't really finished my story yet. If I continue,will they be able to comprehend what am I about to say? And all of a sudden, this environment will be so quiet and somber. I don't want sympathy, I only yearns for understanding and that's the reason my story is left untold. Little did I know that talking family and hardships subjects can make me cry all over again. Together, my friend too shed tears when stories were exchanged. Such warm... as you know what you have been through,where and when the hardships are understood by someone who went through the same as you. It felt surreal because normal people would not fathom them and thought they are life storybooks. I have mixed emotions and no idea how should I feel it: Happy to find someone I can relate my story too or sorrow for she has to undergo life as me.
Fortunately, the tears felt different this time around,it felt warm,no more coldness in it because the tears today are different from tears of yesterday. They are our symbol of our pride and strong-willingness. Successful stories were told too. How sweet they are. When you finally able to talk to someone who appears to be abnormal like you,it feels just great.
To my friend: You are strong and please continue to be strong. We will be each other's comfort and sorrow as we understand each other very well. Success of a person is not measured by material wealth and society status but what we have accomplished in life. Being able to take the first step from the toughest conditions means the first battle is won.
Poor does not appear to be just an adjective to it. It comes with a package which drains you emotionally,spiritually and mentally. To be able to withstand, I consider myself and my friend survivors of the world. Not easy because they are not what we choose but the conditions that come with us....People will give the extra stare now and the paradox is : what have we done wrong for something that are not the faults of ours. In the end, we shall not be afraid anymore because the hardest moments are over and what to comes has definitely be to something better.
I believe I mentioned something about how people should learn to forget how to avoid the thunderstorms. But this time around,it is not the same. We have already been through the thunderstorms for too long and too many times and have become part and parcel of our lives. The only thing that needs to be done now is to learn how to dance in the rain. I guess dancing cha cha in the rain might be a good idea afterall.... Don't you think so my friend? All the best to you.
Blogger on a day he feels relief to be able to retell the story once again.

As it appears to be....

A while ago, I received an email. With it, a picture is attached to. The picture resembles an achievement one lady has accomplished in her life. Together with her, are the one and only Hilary Clinton and Michelle Obama. This lady must be so proud of herself to achieve such a great honour to receive an award from these two prominent figures. Her smile is dazzling.
In addition to this picture, there are some words written which make me feel rather uncomfortable. Somehow, I detected the issue of racism in it. It was written that such great honour to our fellow Malaysian is not printed in our own papers but there is one very small article printed in The Star. However, I do wonder why her picture is not in the main page in the first place.
The fact is she is an Indian Malaysian. Is it really true that because she is an Indian, our fellow counterparts fail to deliver the news. Afterall, I did feel proud of it although I don't know why she got the award in the first place. To me, it has no difference whether there is a news printed or not.
As one might say, I am Chinese, of course I deem it not important. The truth is, if you think from the lady of honour's point of view. It does not really matter. She can stand proud in her very own ways be it her family,friends, colleagues and to exaggerate,even her country. If the country fails to acknowledge,nobody is at a loss. All to gain is herself. If I were her, I would be so happy and overjoyed that I do not care whether there is a news for me or not. What is important is that I have truly made a mark in my life. Afterall, isn't this what every human dreams of in their lives? To make a mark in this world before leaving it. I feel her accomplishment is incredible and I will be always proud of her.
Do not be irritated by what others have not done, but be overjoyed that someone has accomplished this far. In the every end, every news will be forgotten but not you yourself that is. This perspective is gained when I read another email too. In this email, is written that life isn't how to avoid the thunderstorm but is how to dance in the rain.
Blogger on a day whether he feels things are okay no matter how they become.

Hi,old friend!

Today is a very weird day for me. Just when morning I just wished good luck to my friends, today I met my long lost friend in facebook. Such a surprise. We chatted like we have not met for 10 years. I think we have not talked at least for 5 years already. Kind of happy to meet old friend. Sometimes, I do hope I can keep in touch with old friends but will they accept the new me? Especially the really old friends of mine. Been thinking how much I have changed recently. I think I should really give a knock on my head. Apparently, this friend of mine used to go very often to Ridzuan condo! what??? Since when did so many people went to ridzuan that I never meet before. The problem is I never really pay much attention last time. Hope that I will be a better friend now who keep in touch frequently.
One more thing, I just met a new friend of mine who so happen to be my old room mate's friend. Yes, you gajan. Her name is something ying one. Recall her? Isn't this a very small world? Turn around and you will just meet some mutual friend. Haha.. Indeed. Not only has technology played a greater role in our lives, people are getting more in touch with others nowadays and I can't agree more on that.. At least I am happy to find an old friend. He seems so different now from last time.
Blogger on a whistling mood day

Goodbye,my friends

Just remembered today that my friends from Malacca will be heading south to Singapore to further their studies. To avaoid being cryptic again, I shall say their names out and loud. They are Joelyn and Chern YIk. Haha.. These two can be said are my closest female buddies in high school. I think without them, life will definitely be less fun and dramas. Joelyn is pursuing engineering (which has no relevant to my career) so chances to meet in career field is so slim until I can't see any of it. Haha.. But no worries, we shall meet every now and then during Chinese New Years. I somehow always promise myself I will put my schedule free during the Chinese New Year gathering because this the major event I anticipate every year. So much fun and so much sweet,sour,bitter and maybe spicy memories. Haha.. I just use the four sense of our tongues la. There is a saying in Chinese ma "suan,tian,gu, lak" I don't think the pin yin is correct anyway. Just bear with me.
This Joelyn truly made her mark in my life. Imagine all this while in your high school life, you have behaved yourself quite normally. All of a sudden, a bottle water was poured onto you. Not anywhere but the pants. This girl has definitely has some guts in her,considering the fact that I just knew her for only a few days as classmate. Well, I did "repay" her kindness honorably. Haha. That is how the beginning of a great friendship. Haha... She loves to laugh,joke and act blur when doing mistakes. However, the teacher always believe her. Becareful teachers, she is the fox underneath her sheep coat. Well well, revealing her true identity will cause her some great trouble. No worries, she din read my blog so I am perfectly fine. Hopefully she will not come all the way to Sydney to pour another bottle of water on my pants.
Next we have chern yik. Aiyoh...this girl has definitely acted beyond my expectation. All this while, I thought she will be definitely be an engineer. So happens that she chooose the same career path as me. Wei, sister. Are you sure what are you doing or not? Haha.... Well, she comes to me as a very very kiasu person intially. So kiasu until no word can be used to describe her. Along the way, some friends say she is more rilek now. A good guess would be that some good things came out of the sun you group afterall. It is indeed a good change for her but something else I felt was missing too:her confidence. Please have more confidence in yourself,ok? If you are unsure of yourself, who is going to believe you in the first place?
All in all, I wish both of you all the best. Hope to meet you girls someday,not as friends,but as profesionals in our very own arena. Good luck!
PS: I am planning to go Singapore at the end of this year or early next year. Hope to see you there.....
Blogger on a day with best wishes to his friends

Holidays

I know it is kind of late to declare holidays now since my holidays already started since last friday. Been studying quite awhile so, decided not to update my blog for a while. However, these few days have been rocking. Really cool. These days did really repay the time I spent on studying.
My final exam is commercial law paper which it the subject that I have least confidence in. But, my my, the hall that I sat the exam did really impress. It was very beautiful and ancient at the same time that I feel like I am sitting the exam in an ancient castle. I felt really inspired before starting the exam paper. The paper was on the opposite so uninspiring. Haha... There you go,the paradox of the day.I wrote like the whole time for that exams which lasted for 2 and a half hours. Although it is an open book exam, the questions were real tests both to the brains and skills. I wish not to describe it further. Overall, I did manage finish it at the nick of time. Phew!!
The next day, I went shopping with my friends. One of them is leaving back to Malaysia so shopping will be the ultimate choice. Our destination is DFO which stands for direct factory outlet. Well, it did go pretty considering I shop for two shirts and a pair of shoes. 40% man for that puma shoes! Only 36 dollars. Still smiling for getting a good bargain. It was a splendid day though we spend around half an hour to walk to that shopping mall from train station. Walking has been a culture,considering that Sydney is really a very pedestrian friendly place.
Skipping all that, I want to talk about today. Today is full of adventures. I was supposed to meet my friend from perth at 1130am. She ending up arriving at 12pm for being lost in the city. Then, we went to sydney wildlife park and aquarium. Everything is nice and cute. And today, I manage to touch the cuddly koala. Yeah! Another achievement for the day. I did took some photos of the animals but will be posted soon. Also, there are dugongs and sharks in the aquarium. Nothing special but watching those sea creatures swimming underwater did give peaceful feeling to me. The dugong is damn fat man... Muahaha...
In fact, my friend from perth did recommend us to drink the lindt hot chocolate. Great! I took the dark one which I think will be the best chocolate drink I tasted so far. Thumbs up! To add excitement to this, I visited the world largest theatre today to watch transformers. Awesome. At first, I thought the small banner was lying since the size is so minute,nobody will really notice it. But, the size of the screen did send my mouth gaping. My, my... Really huge that when I tried to take a photo with my camera, it cannot fit the whole screen. Imagine that! The cineplex is called IMAX,located in Darling Harbour. The clear definition image plus the great sound are really really awesome. Best day in Sydney by far! A happy,fun, and joyful day indeed.

I am so ..........blank

I feel really blank right now. Actually I feel worse than blank, I feel useless. Part of it can be attributed to my lack of focus. I plan to study whole week as the name suggests, it supposed to be study week for this whole week. Apparently, my time was used nicely with minority time studying and majority time watching movies and dramas. I don't know what was I thinking. I blame it on addiction. Haha.. As addiction is something you cannot control, I can't help but to succumb myself to all the entertainment and excitement it provides.
I am pretty sure part to be blame is the weather here. Too cold, makes me too comfy for my own good. And a little bit part can be blamed on my friends who are constantly moaning about how lazy they are. So, I am simply influenced. So much so for self discipline. In the dire need to refocus.
With my latest interest in time magazine, I begin to see things differently. I realise how much this world has to offer. Perspectives,views and food for thoughts. I love reading magazine because I know I love to read them for the sake of reading,not examined. Well, I have read an article about a guy from america who has cultivated the business by giving back to the environment. He uses a pond to rear fish and brilliantly enough to use the sea water,I presume, to rear fish. Instead of using the conventional way to keep away the birds from the fish, this man actually let the birds feed on his fruits of labour. Sounds great huh? He did mention that 10% of his fish is eaten every year. However, he said as humans, we have the duty to preserve the ecosystem. I feel inspired at that moment. The recent news of those stupid humans doing stupid things really irritates me. Some guys are just borned to irritate people and some are just simply amazing. And this guy has definitely made me see a little,bright light at the end of the tunnel.
Also, I really would like to comment about the policy of making English subject as a compulsory subject to pass in order to obtain SPM certificate. To me,it serves no difference. With the current English level that is so low. If you do not pass it, I think it is a shame. Either you must be fooling around or make no effort at all to study the subject. English is fun. I begin to enjoy the language quite at an old age which is about 14 years old. That is the turning point of my life. I began to cultivate the love for books. Unfortunately, I am doing the right thing for the wrong reason. At first, I realise how poor my vocabulary is and how low my marks in the test. Things that I want to express in Bahasa and Mandarin cannot be well explained in English. I was thinking, "This is it. I am going to change" I start very small. Imagine the first time I took a book in the library, it is meant for those who are in primary school. I still remembered vividly how many pages is that book:45 and the font is like 15 to 20 in Times News Roman. Luckily, I enjoy it. It is about some detective case where children solve the mystery in a synopsis way. From there, I venture into Enid Blyton, which I thought is Grid Blyton in the first time. I was so embarrassed for my friend to correct me. And she did ask, "Don't you read that before? It is a bedtime storybook" I was thinking, "Oh my god,it sure is." Then, I began to love Chicken Soups for the Souls. Inspired stories make my heart feels warm. Haha... I can swear that I almost read finish all the series in the school library.
My sister did play a significant role too. My first ever thick storybook which I read is more than 500 pages would be "The Kitchen God's Wife", written by Amy Tan. At that time, I was really making progress. Reading has become a habit. Though my reading pace is really really slow as I can't fathom most of the words in there, I still read it for fun. The more time you read, the more the words make sense to you. Ah ha!!!! From then on, I never stop reading. This is how people should learn to enjoy English. Not the Malaysian way of memorising. It spoils the fun. Words should come out spontaneously. At least, try the newspapers. It is a big source of information. But the tip is, just read whichever section that attracts you. Then, you will never feel bored about it. Well,well. Some people say old books are just like your old best friends. Make you enjoy the moment and learn new things at the same time. And I have never regretted since.
Also, I would like to highlight that Malaysia education system is not that bad,but please do not lower the standard until so low. What is the point? If you really want to generate a knowledge-based society, do something about it. I luv my country but the people administrating it are not making me proud. Please please.... I am asking favour for the greatness of all. Whatever the reason might be, just make it happen. After all, it will sound really ironic to use the phrase of "Malaysia Boleh!". Do you mind if I switch it to "Yes, Malaysia Can!" That would be the joke of the day. Hahaha.....
Blogger on a very cynical and patriotic day.

Dazy feeling

Having a little dazy feeling. I ought to be feeling confused, relieved and shocked a little bit. After going through a few sleepless nights, I finally know what really happened. Don't worry, the oath of secrecy will be maintained. In this few years, I do learn a lot of people secrets. Some which I combine which I think will be pretty shocking. I guess I love being dependable for such matter. To me it matters because these people do matter to me. For those who don't matter, if they tell me something I won't really care what are they saying. This is me, distinguishing things to a very fine line. What is black will always be black. What is white will be white. To me,it makes things a little simpler and me a little happier.
I can say that I am not really those who are really friendly. I don't trust stranger unless proven to be honest. That's me. Insecurity gives me the feeling of anxiuousness. But I don't want to be kepoh actually. I just love being control. I don't really know what I am saying here. But,at least what I am feeling now is relief. Relief to know that things are not really that complicated. Or maybe is the way my mind reject certain things that I feel is rather not true. I need confirmation but this kind of matter is better left at it. What am I better off without it is better to keep it that way. Okay,now I can fully concentrate with my studies but wait a minute, there are some american series waiting to be watched. Dun worry, I will just relax a little and study a little. This way, things stay in equilibrium.
One more thing, these days I feel so guilty of doing not so good in my previous test that it adds to my rising anxiety levels and unnecessary stress. I would just do anything just not to study ranging from switching on facebook to watching gossip girls which are so nice. Wait a second, I used to watch this series anyway. Having chatted with my close friend yesterday, he did warn me some stuff I need to take care with. First would be my health and second would be my studies. Yup, true what he said. But another one thing he said will be etched in my mind. What he says does reflects my current situation. A little dazed. Well, it turns out to be another long hours of advice and humour I should say. Thank you for it. In a foreign land, it is not those advice that are important,it is the thought that someone does care that really matter the most. Okay, time to fly now. Got some readings to do and revision to take... Adios amigos (this phrase is learnt from my best room mate in the world,he force me to admit it that time). Haha.. You know who you are.....
Blogger on a dazzy day

A lesson to be learnt

A browse to the online newspapers sent me head shaking metaphorically. The issues being displayed are really disheartening. The problems are people fail to recognise the core problem. They ignorantly shelf away the problem and begin pointing fingers at each other. Don't you know that it is the ignorance on your part in the first place? The consequences of failing to assign responsibility to those who really deserved are your own to be born. Sometimes, I wish something really tragic and significant happens then, only they will feel the "ah ha!!" moment. I hope you suffer the doom one day to give you the realisation that you need to have. If not, your plain,stubborn arrogance is not helping us anyway. Curse you my little old friend.

A little happiness that goes a long way

A jolt suddenly ran through me today. Haha... If you know what that means, I think you should know it means a good feeling you have inside you. I can't of remember I used to get it last time when I listen to good music. It is a very simple easy task to get this good feeling but having a jolt is something extra I guess. For me, everything has to be random. As one has already anticipate the good feeling, the intensity of pleasure is kind of lost in the process. The way to be random for me is to listen to the radio. Yup, I love to listen to the radio. Call it old fashioned, "lao du" or "kuno". I still prefer the way songs are played randomly by the radio. One of the major aspect I will think about before buying a handphone would be: Will it have a radio function? Funny right? Other people are so caring about bluetooth,camera,space and other features. To me,a phone is a phone. As long it satisfies my usage of calling and smsing,it is a complete phone.
I guess I am not really the generation Y that the TV show is casting in "Talking about your generation". The characteristics of generation Y would be completely capable of multitasking, yearning for immediate satisfaction and simply plain blatant to any old rules and principles that don't seem fit to them. I,on the opposite is completely hopeless in multitasking. I end up being confused. I guess I am just not really keen to be in generation Y anyway. Well,since age already make up the generation you are in,then you are stuck forever. In addition to that, I think some people also think this generation is very high tech. Okay, this is another big no no for me. Computers sometimes send creeps to my body. I feel inferior when I face in front of the computer although I can do the general tasks like blogging, checking mails and doing assignments. Other than that, please do not ask me more than that. Apparently, other than these few things, the others are not located within my area of knowledge and interest. I guess giving me a million years still won't convince me to learn computer thingy. It just too much of a hassle and does put off my ability in some way.
For instance, I do not like how computer is replacing the writing in general. I hate it because I love my handwriting. People say computer handwritng gives everyone the fair share when it comes to grading their results. I differ this opinion totally. Handwriting actually shows the characters of a person. I find that my talent is wasted. I dislike my work being shown in computerised style. It gives me the impression that the work is not done by me.
Another possible reason is organisation. When it comes to assignment, I am very meticulous. I used to make sure my work is done all in order. A single crooked line will result me in crushing the paper and did another new one. That is the zero tolerance for me to hand in sloppy work. Since computer has substituted everything, only people who master the technique of drafting things will be advantageous. I am,on the other hand, seems to be finding the necessary button to click. What is this? I know how to do assignment and just don't know how to draw it in excel. Haihh... I am losing not to myself but to the damn technology. I am constantly very embarrassed to ask my friend when executing a very simple application. Like, how you find a button for a particular function?
And also, I want to share a very simple pleasure I had a few weeks ago. A review of my law test did send me with a surprise. Although I just pass the test, I realised I have an additional comment attached to my paper. It writes " Beautiful handwriting". Well, well, my handwriting has been given the much needed attention afterall. It may seem a bit trivial at that time, but I feel very happy. It is called the little happiness that you accumulate all the way in the journey so called life. If such thing doesn't make you happy, what will then? Unless you are talking about good music and it will naturally mean somethingelse.
Blogger in a mood to have a musical day.

I am smiling :)

I am smiling now for a few reasons. First of all,now is 1230am and I am still blogging. No big deal unless you know that I have a 8am class tomorrow. Haha....Second of all, I am listening music from my friend's blog. All your fault la,khaw eng cheng. His blog's music very nice. Strongly recommended by me. Haha.... I think I must be too bored do this kind of crazy stuff.
Last but not least,I just finished watching the first movie of matrix. Very very nice. Recommended to my friends who feel bored,friends who have nothing to do, and to friends who are actually acting "busy" but in fact free as usual. Okay... I need really to get some rest already. Good nite,folks!!1
Blogger on a midnight time in the mood to blog.

10 subjects policy-What a crap?

I was really infuriated when I was reading the news that Malaysian students will not be allowed to take more than 10 subjects for SPM. To me, it is more of a shock rather than a welcome response. The sole reason give is that it will be easier to determine who should get the scholarship when assessing the requirement. I am totally stunned by this move. Why restricts people's wish to take as many subjects as they like? Isn't is just a matter of restricting people's freedom? Some people will feel more comfortable in taking an additional subject,outside their streamline. Take for an example,me.
I chose to do science stream because I felt that my secondary school practises(still practising it) favouritism. They allocate the best teachers to nurtures the students from science stream. I personally feel unfair. That's why I choose to study Science stream. Besides, my school did not allow any student to take combinations like 2 science subjects and one art subject. I hate it as this is my prefered choice of studying in my higher level secondary. Well, physics to me does not sound logical no matter how hard and piss off my friends try to convince me. In the end, I have no choice but to forgo my Friday afternoons to attend Accounting tuition. I like the teacher,Mr Bong. He is very nice and knowledgeable. Not to say that my previous tuition teacher is not good,it's just that I seem not able to answer in exams as effective in comparison. I think taking this additional subject adds variety to my course of learning. It is different and unique in its very own way.
Depriving student from learning more is not a way for the nation to progress you know!! In fact, it degrades the nation as a whole. Anyway, I am very disappointed to know that this policy has been approved by the government. Haihhh... I am utterly speechless now. (Head shaking)

Pizza Tuesday

Eating pizza for dinner has been a weekly routine lately. This culture,I should say, is embraced as the restaurant offer discount every Tuesday. On top of that, the pizza tastes great. The name of the restaurant is known as eagle boys. How funny? What has eagle boys got to do with pizza? Anyway, I have consumed pizza every tuesday for about a month now. Loving it... At least, I save my time on cooking and guess what. It only cost 4.95 each. Wonderful...
Blogger during a Pizza Tuesday