I feel holidays comes when I can just sit in front of my lappie and watch drama for the entire day. Thats how I define holidays. Watch dramas for the entire day without a care or worry for anything. Awesome. I have just finished watching "Mysteries of Love" by Raymond Lam and Yong yi. A very scientific yet romantic drama. This is not the first Hong Kong drama that implements the concept of Physics in detective cases. Oh well, since I can relate to what I learn during upper secondary Physics, I find it very interesting. Additionally, the romance element  compliments the drama very well. Thumbs up. A five star rating... Must watch. It is known as 談情說案 Personally I give a 5 star rating. Phewittt.... 


   My holidays starts with a great start. I organised a steamboat gathering with my friends the day after my examinations. I had a great time: eating, playing and laughing. However, now I am clueless of what to do other than watching anime and drama. In about a week's time, I will be having a vacation in New Zealand... Weeeee.. A vacation in New Zealand is not cheap! But I find it worthwhile, once in a life time opportunity. My friends are planning to ski and bungee jump. But I am opting out of the latter activity due to personal reason. 


   Friends from New Zealand are coming to visit us. So, there is another upcoming gathering on the 30th June. Then, another friend invited me to go Blue Mountain on the 4th. I think I am having a better winter break in comparison to last year. Though last year I went to Melbourne and Canberra, I think this winter break is going to more fun, merrier and exciting! 


   The tendency to do a self reflection after every semester is very enticing. I think this is the only way I can know how much I have improved so far. If not, I will just stuck in the same place. 


   For this semester, I think I am more vocal in expressing my opinions in front of my group mates during assignment. I think I did exceptionally well for People and Organisations team assignment. I had an overall Distinction. Hopefully my final examinations will push me further to achieve a High Distinction. My group for this subject is in such combination which is unique on its own. It is a five member team comprising an American, a Norwegian and two local Australians. I looked forward towards this team because this is my first time ever that I am the sole Asian. They are very creative, expressive and hardworking individuals plus funny. Haha... I had a great time. Thanx Michael, Ingvill, Susannah and Faye. Great to know you guys.


   Next, I also have another interesting team members for Management Accounting A subject. They are two  kind and helpful girls. One is from China, Ella and Hong Kong, Joanne. You know why I found our team unique? The reason is all of us love "One Piece" anime. I did not know about their preferences about this anime until the very last discussion for our assignment. I was like ..... OMG. Such coincidence. Haha... One loves One Piece like her life and soul. See, guys. The hobby of watching anime does bring people closer. 


   Other than that, Information System group is pretty normal because I know two out of the 4 members. Fortunately, we perform quite well. I think we have a good combination of people who love modelling and explanation. I happen to always team up with a Vietnamese guy, Anh. His name sounded like Anne but with a H sound behind instead of E. I find him very funny. He always smile all the time. I kept disturbing him about his lengthy hair which looks like a Japanese and Korean chap. During the holidays, I kept bumping into him.


    The shocking news I had from him is that he is actually a part-time accountant while studying, I was like "Wow". You didn't tell me before. No wonder, he is always running around. Now I know why. But he is very gan cheong during team assessment. He is very well versed in the subject but he wants me to jot down because my handwriting is neater and I have better command in English. Yet, during one team assessment, he got frustrated because my perfection for super clean modelling puts him at an edge. Haha, I love to kacau him all the time. I told you what," I draw modelling very slow one" My friend agreed he is quite gan cheong during assessment. Nice to know him because I like people who smile and laugh a lot. Cheers you up even in the most desperate and intense situation. 


   Overall, I have a great semester! I think this is the best semester I ever get. Another reason is attributed to my lackadaisical attitude in finishing an assignment. I stay up until 3am to finish a Finance assignment. I learned that I need to start assignments earlier. Though I love the last minute adrenaline rush, still next semester is going to more challenging as expected. I am going to strive for excellence. Even my results are just average, I am happy with my average results because every individual has his expertise. I know where my expertise lies. Academically, I score above average students result but I know I can be better in terms of time management and taking things more seriously. 


   

exam belum habis

It is has been almost a week now. The duration between my third paper and last paper is 9 days. Hence, Chee Seng has been slacking all this while, ranging from watching drama and anime (DAILY) and eating non stop plus went shopping already. He acted as if holidays has started. Somebody please give him a slap as a sign of wake up call, please.

I felt guilty actually. The textbook is opened, lying there on the table, next to my laptop. But I am biased as I pay my undivided attention toward to the latter overall. Haha... I discriminate against you, Textbook! It is all the management fault for delaying my exams until so late. People already lost the drive of the exams and yet I am here blogging. Hoho...Management Accounting A paper. Want to say it is hard, it is not hard. Want to say it is easy, it is not. Just have a lot of stuff to remember. I really should start studying again. I finished two chapters already. Weeeee.... I am studying but at a real slow pace. Considering so much distractions, I am doing fine.

I have the Hong Kong drama, "Cupid Stupid" and new anime to watch "FairyTail" . The anime is nicer! But, I can't afford to watch everything in a day because the update is only once a week and at times, once a fortnight. Damn it, why do all the nice animes have to prolong you? Like Onepiece and Naruto as well. Arggghhh... Damn geram. Now, I am thinking what I should do during winter break. See, my mind is drifting away yet again about holidays. I have taken the wrong step. I should have booked myself a ticket back home this winter rather than staying here. Sangat sien lo..... Anyone can suggest what can I do during Winter Break?

Another unpleasant news

   Yesterday was supposed to be a happy day. Although I have still another paper, I decided to go shopping with my friends. The paper is in a week's time. Thus, I thought why not relax myself a little. However, yesterday was not a happy day.

   If you have been reading news today or watching news on television, you will notice there is a shocking accident news. It happened that the car accident involved a friend of mine from Kuala Lumpur. A very nice chap. His first impression to me was friendly, happy and joyful. Unfortunately, he passed away in the accident. To add insult to injury, the whole family was involved and his father,grandmother and sister couldn't survive. I was like ..... Life is really unpredictable at time. My heart goes to the family, especially his Mum. One accident happened and when you woke up, your four dearest people are gone for the rest of your life.

   You will start pondering, "Did I say I love them?", "Did I tell them I I will be there for them?" These are the hardest parts in dealing with deaths. Having to deal with the recent death of my grandma makes me even sadder than ever. I know how it feels. No matter how much tears, how much sorrow you put in, the fact remains that you will never talk, smile, laugh and cry with them again.

   I find this semester sucks the most. I have to deal with the emotional trauma of family loss. I begin to wonder, did I do anything wrong? Or would I have made a different decision if I were to know they are going soon. Luckily, my answer is no. I have secretly say my goodbye to my grandma... I knew she was not holding much longer but the pain of losing someone is still hard. I always wish nobody will have to go through what I have but part and parcel of life requires us to undergo this path. To have someone to bring us joy, fond memories and happiness also comes with pain and sorrow of losing them.

   I think I have said enough. Dealing death issues is very new to me. Am I doing it right? But I believe there is no a right or wrong answer. Only your heart tells you what's right and wrong. My prayers to Joash Wee's family. The latest news I come to know is his mum has to undergo a major surgery today and his brother is in ICU with 50-50 chance.  

tomorrow is exam day. Panic stricken. Always happen during my first day. Not really panic, just feel like talking to someone else. Since everyone is so busy studying, I just talk to the wall then. Not lazy to study, just feel a bit tired. Eyes want to sleep but it is only 833pm. Jia lat leh...

tomorrow is a morning paper which is Information System. I really "LOVE" this subject. This subject requires students to overload themselves with information and in the end, the answers are rather general. Something people deem as general knowledge. And the lecturer adds towards the excellency as well. The lectures she taught somehow differ from the textbook. What is the purpose of you teaching then? Might as well skip the whole lectures and memorize the textbooks. And she thought herself as very experienced in her field.

 With a lot of job experience. Miss D, you know right, having a lot of experience means two things: 1)You are OL _ and 2) You must be fired quite a lot of times. Haha... But she is quite well known in her area of expertise actually. She said she was in the committee to help the Australian Bushfire. Hmmm...But, I can't seem fitting what her role will be? Talking general stuff like : we need to have a proper plan because that is what the project management studies said. Also, information system is crucial because I am the one in charge?

Do I sound bad? Actually I don't really like her, another typical educator who emphasizes rote learning. Damn it, it is university level already. I was like ......... Fine, I shall memorise and apply the best I can. I must pull a lot of good energy before exams? Do not blame others. Afterall, I should be studying hard now then blogging. The paper is 13 hours away. Weeeee... Wish me luck!

thanx for calling

A moment ago, I received a phone call from a friend. Kind of surprising as I was taking a breather after studying for about an hour. The thing is I enjoy talking to this friend who often makes me amused of the knowledge that he has. He talks about the world,politic and social stuff which do not ring a bell to my mind. But he once told me, I am smart just could not be bother. True, he is on his way making his marks in life and I am here, still stuck figuring what I want to do when I graduate.

Time flies. I make up my mind that I most probably will not continue my honours years. I want to spend my life searching my dream job. But wait a minute, what is my dream job? Hmmm... Actually I like a lot of things, I love to communicate to people, I love to organise but with no deadline and love to be a little creative at times. I am also a person who tends to push others to do their best but at the same time, I always ridicule my friends a lot too. Come to think of it, I can be a good motivator actually. Haha... But it will waste my degree right?

Not really, in this business world, I am beginning to feel that my business degree won't bring me far. What gives a graduate the special something comes internally and specifically, your personality. Employers want you to be motivated and the drive to excel. But I don't want to be bossed around, I want to be the Boss! Hohoho... A dream of mine which I can have flexible working time and 6 figure salary. Yes, that is my ultimate dream. I think the limitations are drawn when people are beginning to form expectations. Do not do that. Make the expectations form around you. Then, you will be able to set the limit. That is what I learn from this friend. He is very optimistic and street smart. I learn something from him: Think positive. You do not know what future lies ahead of you. So why not go out there and paint the world the colours you like =)

As sweet and beautiful dream sounds, I need to get myself to face book again. I mean literally, because I have exams on Tuesday. Wish me luck both to my exams and my dream! Here I come to rock your world.

down the memory lane

It is the second week now. Sometimes, my mind will stop and ponder back to the past. How sweet the memory can be. It is true that you treasure things more when they are lost. Yup, during the time you are at the moment, you never thought that you will never come back for that moment anymore. How nostalgic.

The image of my late grandma still lingers on my mind. How she used to joke I were his youngest son because I like to call her "Mother" as a joke. =)

The day I received the news, I started to think who should I comfort first, "My aunt, my sister, my uncle or anyone?". Then, I stopped for awhile. The person who needed it the most was myself. I thought I am pretty tough myself for not shedding any tears during my two grandpas' funerals. It appeared that I am not as strong as I think I am. Well, the tears just flowed out without you thinking what you should do.

...Memories.... Can you tell me once again that I am your "lai chai" again? Although it sounded odd, I know deep down it will never be true. Fine, memories that I had is better than no fond memories. I kind of felt sad whenever some of friends told me that they are not close to their grandparents. Being around them give you the pleasure of being pampered. Yes, pamper. They make you feel like you are the most important soul in their lifes. Grandparents seldom nag and scold. Forever, joking and laughing. Who can give me these kind of feelings now? This is part and parcel of life I guess. Time to grow up then. Nobody is there to pamper you anymore. 

The happiness gained for these years is taken for granted. Rather than counting how short it is, it should be how long it has been. Time to face it. Bye, grandma! My mum said if the person loves you when they are alive, most likely they will still look after you in the afterlife. Hmmmm.... I wonder.....

goosebumps

There are not many artists whose songs can send goosebumps. Goosebumps as in the electric shock flowing down your spine. I don't know normal people feel like this, but I usually react like this when I listen to extremely nice songs. Guess what... Khalil Fong is one of them. Haha.... I don't know who the hell he is actually until I saw a few friends discussed about him in Facebook. Therefore, I decide to do some research about him. It happened that I heard his songs before, just dunno who is he. Haha... There you go, one idiosyncrasy of mine. Love listening to good music, but couldn't care who the hell he/ she is.. Guess that I am not bias to one person, just the song in particular...

Here you go: I like this one most =)

Shut down

After my first exam paper, I have practically dissolved to relax mood. Been spending time wandering around in the Cyberworld for who knows how long without any effort to study. I need to find a study partner, so that I can talk and study at the same time. Who is damn free now to talk and study? Crazy ar you? Study la.... Tak tahu la....

I am feeling a bit restless. The semester begins with a high anticipation yet ends like this... *Sighhh.... Never mind, tomorrow I shall find my motivation to revise... Browsing through a few pages is better than not browsing hor? True...