Another unpleasant news

   Yesterday was supposed to be a happy day. Although I have still another paper, I decided to go shopping with my friends. The paper is in a week's time. Thus, I thought why not relax myself a little. However, yesterday was not a happy day.

   If you have been reading news today or watching news on television, you will notice there is a shocking accident news. It happened that the car accident involved a friend of mine from Kuala Lumpur. A very nice chap. His first impression to me was friendly, happy and joyful. Unfortunately, he passed away in the accident. To add insult to injury, the whole family was involved and his father,grandmother and sister couldn't survive. I was like ..... Life is really unpredictable at time. My heart goes to the family, especially his Mum. One accident happened and when you woke up, your four dearest people are gone for the rest of your life.

   You will start pondering, "Did I say I love them?", "Did I tell them I I will be there for them?" These are the hardest parts in dealing with deaths. Having to deal with the recent death of my grandma makes me even sadder than ever. I know how it feels. No matter how much tears, how much sorrow you put in, the fact remains that you will never talk, smile, laugh and cry with them again.

   I find this semester sucks the most. I have to deal with the emotional trauma of family loss. I begin to wonder, did I do anything wrong? Or would I have made a different decision if I were to know they are going soon. Luckily, my answer is no. I have secretly say my goodbye to my grandma... I knew she was not holding much longer but the pain of losing someone is still hard. I always wish nobody will have to go through what I have but part and parcel of life requires us to undergo this path. To have someone to bring us joy, fond memories and happiness also comes with pain and sorrow of losing them.

   I think I have said enough. Dealing death issues is very new to me. Am I doing it right? But I believe there is no a right or wrong answer. Only your heart tells you what's right and wrong. My prayers to Joash Wee's family. The latest news I come to know is his mum has to undergo a major surgery today and his brother is in ICU with 50-50 chance.