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funny, how holidays feel like touch and go. one week is too short for my liking.

went for a movie today: thor. not a bad movie at all. the graphics are good plus an added bonus of 3D. it is one of the movies that uses quite a lot of 3D effect i would say.

the vampire theme has been circling my mind these few days. i dunno why but they are protraying vampires and witches as hot and sexy creatures. i thought they are supposed to look ugly and horrible but i like the current going. great appearance constitutes to half good drama anyway. another half comes from the story and acting.

i have realised i have grown accustomed to living alone. the thing is everything becomes quiet and peaceful. i can do anything i want without interruption. good thing. or else, i would be laughing too loud, talking too loud anyway. some quiet moment is needed.

i played x box last week. kinda nice. almost similar to ps2 which i can't point out the difference. i am quite good at video games since i grew up with it. it surely does bring back memory when every Dec of your childhood only involves video games. the reason for Dec only sweet memory is because my mum set it that i am only allowed to play during school break. it's okay. i din grow tired of it although i keep playing the same video game. can be attributed to the company that you have or the restriction that was imposed at that time. you treasured the scarcity of it.

it is true, all human aspire things that they could not have but once you have it, you won't treasure it as much anymore. hence, i am trying to learn to survive based on need rather than luxury but the definition of each is definitely not as clear cut. everything is a need nowadays. i should learn that sometimes the word sufficient is actually good. we shouldn't be too craving for something in life. the art of gratefulness is a beauty but not everyone practices it. when does the word enough ever came to you. never? sometimes? or rarely? this sort of craving and yearn for need is said to the be yearning for existence in humanity. if we learn to be grateful and try to achieve nothingness, the cycle of life stops. is it true? i read it before. i hope i can achieve this stage one point of time in life because i do not wish to be live again. not because it is painful, because it is bored. life is too uninteresting, the thing that attracts me is unachievable. the thing that i want seldom comes my way so no point in being disappointed.

blogger felt that he is blabbering too much nonsensically.

i wanna fly high

holidays often gives you the dreamy feeling. you may do whatever you want, whatever you like without any worry. these few days have been awesome. not that because i did something great, it is because i did something i like. i love being surrounded by fantasy, stories and romance. i have been watching and watching series, drama non stop. apparently from the moment i woke up till the moment i sleep. if i can be hopeless one day, i want to be the one hopelessly romantic.

Only You. two strong words, but they play crucial parts in my easter break holidays. they are the soul of my 2011 easter break. it is by accident that i ended up watching two drama series with the same name. one korean one cantonese. and i notice there is one english movie entitled only you as well. they present me with laughters, warmth and love. easter holidays treat me good. and with the company of only you, this easter holidays will definitely be always remembered.

blogger accompanied by Only You for the easter break. if only the person appears.... life would be a bliss even for a moment.

there is just too many people to please

one thinks it is good to have a small event. one thinks the more the merrier. one thinks anything will do. one does not know how to reject. for me, can you listen to me?

this is the first time i am so not looking forward to a potluck with 18 people. initially thought of just not going but just suck it all up since this will be my final year. must be calm. in the end, i made up mind. it will just be a food and chat gathering. then balik tidur....=__+

i think you do not have to look far in the society for difference in opinions. look at your friends are sufficient. they just think so differently sometimes i think do i really know you? and the most important thing is, it makes no freaking sense. can you please listen to me? i promise you, if you let me be an event planner. i will make it a success. and the sad part, everyone wants to have input. which i hate so much. why i can't just be the dictator? of course, i am just being democratic. be nice. smile. hell yeah.....

maybe i am worrying too much. recently i read a person's blog during my random walk through blogs. one guy said, "life counts in the content it has, not the length of it." fine, i should take the advice and breathe in.

there is interesting incident that happens to me during exam yesterday. i was sitting for a finance exam and suddenly a song comes to my mind. it keeps replaying itself on my mind. i was like...wth. where is this coming from? not only that it is so random, it is my first time during exam experiencing a song suddenly comes to mind. must be listening too much or is it time for karaoke again? haha...wait, i DISLIKE singing.... first lie i ever telll. opps that will be the second lie. =)

blogger is having a bad feeling about the event. he thinks perhaps it is time to let go and sail with the flow just like how the christopher columbus sailed through the ocean without a map. and the outcome is fantastic and india was found. wait, did the blogger get his historical fact right? probably. that will be another story.

music at the moment: 癡癡為你等

Teach for Malaysia

Do you ever want to be the force of change? I have been wondering for about few days. Maybe I should give a try to this pioneering programme. The representatives will be giving talk in University of Sydney. They are looking for the best 50 final year university students all around the world to be involved with it. In basics, they will put you in 2 years to teach in needy schools in Malaysia. Throughout this period, you will have a mentor and development officer who will monitor your progress and development. Of course, you will be paid on monthly basis by the education department. From what I heard 2.5k for first year and 3k second year.

For more information: please visit http://www.teachformalaysia.org/

The info session will run from 3-5pm 18th April (holme common room) and 530-730pm at same venue.

The future prospect sounds very promising as well because you will be helped by their alumni members for networking purpose. It has been a success where they have Teach for America. It has been run in 90 countries, Malaysia being the first in Southeast Asia. Do I sound very excited? Hell yeah. I think if I got this, the 2 years will be spent. It sounds so right because my previous post is lamenting about the education system in Malaysia. Take note: they are not looking for teachers but for future leaders championing the cause for education. So what are you waiting? Give it a try, who knows what future leads for you? Only best 50 from around the world will be selected.

I was sceptical at first. Maybe I should give a try. Okay, i need to ciao and continue my finance revision for exams tomorrow.

count me in please.....pretty please?

just when assignments due date are their peak which is tomorrow, i would be please to roam around the field of knowledge to grab some insightful articles to brighten my day. after feeling much better inside out, i would take this opportunity to criticise the weaklings of how they should run my beloved mother land.

it is a well known media. recently, i have seen it in my assignment as well. there, i found an article that says you can actually learn without being spending long hours in school and after school. and it is irritating when asian countries are always replicated as model countries who torture their students by forcing them learn by heart to instill knowledge. the country so happen to be finland, which a few decades ago notice its own failure in education system. truth to be told, learning from mistake is the best lesson in life. by admitting defeat, only then fruitful success sails along.

it describes as their strategy tool in ensuring a successful education system is investing on quality educators, which is more affectionately known as teachers in boleh land. in the research study, it states that finland sets a very high benchmark in entering 5 year teaching degree programme and every teacher has a master.... wow! i guess, they did put a lot of effort in it. and usually only 10% of the applicants got selected into a tailored programme. in finland, they proudly present teachers as their respected educators which happen to be their greatest asset. i wonder what contributes to this such strong admiration. of course, if you have a good culture that instills respect and quality, who doesn't respect you?

in boleh land, the teachers, or i should say some of the them are just there to feed you directly with spoons. i wonder whether their lack of confidence, lack of knowledge and skill or just plain lack of enthusiasm that cause them to teach so dryly. of course, some are very enthusiastic. kudos to them. i acknowledged the fact there are still very qualified teachers in the education sector but them the new generation is giving me a doubtful look. first, the selection process. they do tell me, it is very hard to get a teaching degree. you must have a four flat result, meaning straight A's. I was quite shocked. initially, i thought i was under qualified to even be a teacher. a deeper thought gives perspective probably i am just not cut it due to some weird system.

as one politician puts it, "the system is only applicable for those who are not too fair, not too dark. only fairly dark is accepted. " i refused to be associated with such degrading system which chooses to discriminate me for skin colour. the only i can do is hope for the better.

it is also said that thailand is trying to adopt the finnish model but thailand parents are just too kiasu by sending their children to extra classes once they showed poor results. haihhh..... kiasuism is on the rise. can i be like the mat salleh, plain ignorant but smart? probably not, because i am too dark hence i am labelled as kiasu in the region i am staying.

and please, finland, can you please tell the boleh land people how education system should be run. and for goodness sake, entry level is so obviously lopsided and i often wonder, do they actually learn the term "merit" correctly. it must be the "hall dictionary" (boleh land direct translation) that must be fooling them around. please count them in please......pretty please? onegai, please, tolong, pai tuo?

blogger feeling another moment of silence for such a disgrace is being played out by other country. but the ironic thing is, the disgraced party doesn't feel disgraced at all but proud of the fact meritrocracy definition is fine the way it is. one vision 2020: epic failure.

where is the history in that

part of the reason i hate history subject in high school is memorization. it is just like reading the textbook over and over again just to remember the dates, the events and the well known figures of few centuries ago.

there comes alexander the great. wait, what did he do back then? i THINK he is the one who successfully took over malacca in 1511. eyyy, betul ke tak ni? i am actually not sure but this number seems very nice isn't it? good for those ah pek and auntie who like to buy toto and 4-d. i am very frustrated in school because i have to compete with the rest of the student population for memory skills. it is just plain ridiculous.

i can accept defeat when one explains and argues a theory particularly well. *bow* but i just refused to accept that i defeat for my brain power is lacking. and there comes those geniuses who are smart and perfect memory. sometimes even can remember the pages the facts were written. don't bother. what's the fun in it? actually, no fun and no play. you just suck it up and memorise. i often wonder how i could get an A for that subject at all. my bro and sis love history, to my dismay. i am the only sibling who despises history until now. they said, "history is like storybook. just read and read and you will remember," ohhh really? why should i remember some religious leaders' name and actions? and they took about 5 chapters long just to discuss religious stuff.

In fact, i think the history subject is often bias. i have definitely lost count of the times i have to remember this person is mulia, berbudi pekerti and terpuji. what is this? har har... you think this is moral lesson? when you use words that describe good or bad, you are instilling your point of view into the facts. the only correct thing to be said are FACTS AND FACTS ALONE such as actions, names, years. because all of them can be agreed by everyone. one's action can be bad from one perspective and bad from another. isn't that basic? perhaps, i am a better candidate to reform the history textbook.

so shocking that when i heard i was about to study new history textbooks which contain more religious stuff. sad for the fact that i lost touch with the world but being marginalised to a certain segment of the world. and worst of all, not really interesting. if you want to glorify your own interest, try creating a new subject for it and make it VOLUNTARILY. it will truly shows one's interest. Forcing the rest of the population to agree with you is similar to praising the person who is pointing the gun at him. =_________= there you go, LAME. stop doing lame stuff. at least, stop doing things that will make a fool of yourself. if you can't think properly, nobody is going to blame you for not doing anything. at least step aside and let the people who know to do it. i rest my case. weird isn't it. this textbook scenario is somehow a representative of the current state of our beloved boleh land.

tak tahu buat tapi mati mati mahu buat dan mengaku tindakan tersebut adalah mulia. yes, mulia. saya lagi mulia for telling you this. what i said is FACT.

love in disguise

wahhhh....zhan hai lum sei (cantonese). i heard of the songs before and one of them really send spine shocking limb transmissions. i didn't really know they are actually composed out of a movie. or the other way round. if i want to say the overall rating. it should be a 9. the music, the story and the actor and actress. although the acting skill is considered so so only but i really like the whole concept of it. very genuine and fresh. i have never heard of this movie last year until i was busy searching for the main actor's songs frantically for some new songs. haha..glad to know that i did because i found a good discovery.

the songs are really good. sang by one of my most respected male artists of his generation. i really think he is really that good since long time ago. just din anticipate he can go this far. actually you do not have to go that far to judge a person's characters. maybe the songs speak for itself? perhaps..... if it does, he does exude humility and sadness to me. dunno why sadness.....

okay time to sleep. last part.....zhan hai lum sei. i think a lot of girls must have been killed. =p

blogger losing his sleep because he found a masterpiece discovery in Youtube. Go youtube, you rocks! rocker than facebook =)

kawaii des

i was grocery shopping this morning at coles. i was pushing my trolley through one aisle till a high ptiched yet small volume voice popped out, "mommy, can i tell you a joke?" the mum, "yes, what is it?" the child: " the only rule here in this world is there is no rule." actually, i dun think it was that funny and his mum din really laugh. but then, when i gave it a deeper thought. this quote has been listened before recently.

Aha! the boy was actually quoting from a cartoon-movie production, "Alvin and the chipmunks". kids kids. they can be very cute at times. they say what they heard and imitate them to their parents. i wonder when do we stop becoming children. the answer: when you start thinking the things are lame. we might not know it consciously, but we definitely do it. listen to the children interact, they are absolutely clueless of what they are saying but one thing for sure, they don't think what is said is lame. =)

blogger hoping the child-like behaviour in him has never wandered off elsewhere.

music at the moment: 開始懂了by Stephanie Sun

ever wonder why i love movie associated with romance?

one simple reason: i love to see the glitter of the eyes of the beholders of romance.

actually it is quite easy to see if you watch series for very many times. i guess with many times of watching such element, i have higher expectation of the act nowadays. picky but definitely choosy.

oh, monday got a mid semester exam coming. i am kind of pissed off because i am actually a late starter but people keep thinking i started a long time. fine, since

you expect me so much, i should start doing revision as of now. watch out, me is going to rock that paper.