the culture

you may say it is a instinct. from the way a person talks, i feel the person is lonely. lonely in the sense where he is not only quiet but has limited amount of acquaintance around.

i wonder why. maybe because i am one? true, towards a certain extent. sometimes, i wish not to talk. my friends will laugh. is this even possible that i wish not to talk.

yet, this week i found a friend in my office. we were assigned the same job previously but we seldom talk. until i started mumbling some nonsense. he begins to take note. then we went for makan and i questioned him a lot. up till a point i myself find a bit intrusive.

to be able to found out a person who lacks ability to converse and write in malay is indeed a refreshing one. yet, he is working with some of the clients who speak malay. i wonder how that feels. it would be the same position as me being talking to a french. that must be not easy.

i begin to notice that sometimes a lot of people are having these common thoughts but nobody is willing to share. for one, he feels the office people are fake. yes, i nod to that. in my perspective, they are not fake, they are just trying hard to impress. hmmm. is this what you label as lack of attention and affection? i sometimes can't stop staring at my colleagues who try to impress my seniors. but performance wise, just keep complaining and checking the cellphone. to hell with that, if he is going to survive that way, i think it must be time to strategise.

i have tried my best to keep quiet and smile. my friend told me sometimes, this is what they call soft skill. oh really? i din know talking some cock and bull stories consist of any soft skill. perhaps it is the mentality and the education one receives.

i am a strong believer there are several types of culture in my office. the one who likes to talk cock, the one who just simply work hard, the one who complains a lot and the one who just doesn't give a fuck. i think i don't know where i stand anymore. i just want to get the job done and go home. maybe i haven't met the right type of colleagues then. my social circle can be quite pathetic in the office. i don't have lunch with colleague of the same department.

where do i stand? i don't care. i am just going to create a new culture that talks cock and bull stories of those colleagues who talk cock and bull stories. hmmm.... seee.... the fun in that is the person i dislike becomes the subject. what if karma comes back around. let's just say i am just stating facts.