the boy who daydreams

it had not been a habit of daydreaming for quite a while. if i daydream, i usually feel tired, sad and probably a little lost. not too long ago, a friend pointed out (so directly) that i was daydreaming when i was talking to her. i stunned for awhile. when i got myself collected, i thought, "yeah, it's probably true." i brushed it off as being tired. ever since i started working, i felt tired. i wonder where is all my energy. i felt like an old man. tired all the time.

part of me wants to blame the job but i think i have an answer already. a person today guided me today. he said i am always being haunted by my past. my inability to let go of my past is starting to make my perspective dim. in order to get myself out of this, i need to learn to accept the past and take it as it is and be more accepting of another person's weakness.

i find this a bitter pill to swallow. as much as i would like to deny this, i know it is true. i often think my past is an disadvantage to me. but it never has been the case till now. i need to learn the value of acceptance. previously, i chose to be silent. apparently, now i find that approach more useful. time to shut up, accept and move on.

everyone has a past. i just wish someone will just tell me, "it's okay to have a past." but part of my memory just refuse to let it go. can you tell me how?

can the wind just blows my past away like the autumn leaves?

you owe it to them

i have read a piece of written article. a very good read. yet, i have forgotten where i come across that.

it goes somewhere along this line, 'if you come across a problem and injustice and have an opportunity to change it, it is your duty to change it. you don't owe it to yourself but you owe it to the future generation so that they do not have to go through what you have been through.' i agree. there is a time when one has to step up and says enough is enough. do not let others tell you it is alright to be wronged. use your heart to tell you what to do. you have a brain and heart for a reason. use it and use it wisely. 

blogger thinking the time is now or never.