i never knew

har! must be you again reading my blog post. i thought the person reading it is a friend from macquarie, turns out to be a friend from sydney. apa lar..... i almost laugh hysterically for finding a fan out of nowhere. ok, if you found me, consider yourself lucky. i dun promote my blog mia. first reason, i talk bad about other people. second reason, if you read this, means very likely you will be praised or criticized to the core for being a good friend of mine.

luckily i din listen to a friend who specially requested me to remove my reader's location. if not, how to know who the person is jek? if i remove the application, i might turn this blog to a personal diary that i already have one. if you can read my public diary, so i can know who is reading it. isn't the feeling is mutual?

ohhh... to the old fan out there. *wave from chippendale NSW. i know u know where you live.

come let's play a game, an old friend of mine. since we never chat in our entire life on the blue wall and we rarely talk face to face . let's play a memory game. when is the first time we chatted and where was it held?

gotcha!

blogger signing to a day of a minor surprise.

bestie

how you know you have a bestie in life? one, the person is there for you happy and sad. but wait a minute, isn't your family or normal friends are there when you are happy and sad? i think the difference is you can pour your hearts out to your bestie. happy or sad. sampat or lame. this is what i think makes a bestie.

i once asked a friend, who is your bestie? she said, there is no such thing as bestie. the reason is she categorise them according to what she does with every single friend. i was impressed at the moment. categorising friends according to activity huh? so i should categorise my friends to puak kiao kui, dam jiak kui @ yao kui, badminton   kaki and yam cha ghosts huh? that will be funny. i am particularly like yao kui besties because i love to search for good food. though it might be fun to eat good food, the sense of taste is definitely heightened if there is a bestie to talk to you.

come to think of it, i can say i have a lot of yao kui friends. what to do? i am born in malacca so it is hard to disintegrate us from food. but i can say i am not really that yao kui. i am not that yao kui actually. i like to eat a lot of food BUT in small portion. the thought of me leaving sydney soon gives me such a sense of nerve. because i was thinking, do i left anything uneaten before heading back home? haha. deep down i think i am just another yao kui of another kind.

two, bestie is those who know what you think before you know it yourself. wow, this must be pretty amazing. but i think this one sure to fulfill. sometimes, when i do such, a friend say, i know you will do like that. i was like @.@ i just thought of doing it a while ago and you already know. you must be the little worm in my stomach huh?

three, a bestie stands by you whether you are right or wrong. wow. ini i cannot accept. if the bestie is good, he will tell you the truth that you are wrong. so, thats make me a good friend. i dun tell lie. haha although my truth might be wrong. so it is a risk you have to take if you choose to believe me.

fourth, they will talk to you when you need it. eh, this one i think quite easy to fulfil. talk only ma, i can do it anytime. a friend complained i only have 10mins for her. i got exams ma. 10 min is better than 10 seconds to tell you bye and give excuse right right?

ohhh, the last one which is my favourite of all. it is best depicted using a pic:

i guess i am pretty crazy. thank you. this i admit i lack in. 

blogger wishing you a good day. he is wondering who he should go if next time he feels like crying. i guess there is one.

the end.

today should be noted as a memorable day. it marks the end of my journey as an undergraduate. with the end of my 11am marketing lecture, i have no more lecture and tutorial to attend. exams are coming real soon. i can't really say it is the end because exams still have to be faced.

this semester is quite a memorable one. the subjects are interesting yet challenging. tax is one which requires extensive amount of reading. i felt that i have read so much for a subject before. credit should be given because the subject is structured in such a way that is easy to understand for students. i am mesmerized by the fact that australia has one of the most efficient tax system. it is complex yet efficient. with the new introduction of carbon tax, i wonder how this will rock the corporate bodies but one thing on my mind, it will be long before malaysia will be able to catch up. i guess malaysia, being a developing country has no such capability in implementing carbon tax yet. with so many cases to read and understand. my eyes are going @.@ no complain though. more  captivating than the subject itself is the lecturer. his name is brett bondfield. despite his extensive experience in law, his choice of expletive word is limited to one f word. every now and then, you will be bombarded with the word. though not directing it to us, some find it offensive. i find it amusing. one, because i thought lecturer is not allowed to use such word. two, perhaps, i am wrong. third, he is wrong but nobody dares to challenge him.

marketing proves to fall below expectation. i am not referring to academic wise, but i expect more. for me, marketing is more than just theories, it goes beyond every way possible to captivate the audience. for being a commerce subject, marketing is strongly linked to sales. initially, my idea of marketing is about spreading a message. it can be for media cause, business cause or cultural cause. i am more attracted to commercial because if you have money, your budget allows you create mind blowing ads. for me, a great ad is orgasmic ( a word which i learn from a dear friend). haha. she will know when she read this. why the hell is it orgasmic? is it because of satisfaction? because of pleasure? or because of flushes? haha....wait, i am going too far. balik, balik. back to marketing. in my opinion, if i were to given a choice, maybe i will do marketing as a living. imagine, you are the marketing director for mercedes benz, google or apple. must be pretty cool huh?

blogger signing off. this is just a beginning of something new. embrace it as it comes.

have you been inspired?

when was the last time you feel inspired? i think i kinda lost that for quite some time. during school years, my inspiration usually came from my beloved teachers. i think teachers place a lot of trust in me. not for me to do well but for being responsible.

i was monitor myself since standard 1. did i project a responsibility face? not sure though but i kinda like the idea of lepaking the time to remind teacher about classes and to carry books. as the distance is quite far, i like to derail from the short path and take the long one to skip class. haha. misuse of trust. shhhh....nobody knows anyway. and i still remember i can always skip classes because  i have to help my class teacher to prepare decorations such as chalking and ballooning. i guess i have been trained to do art works since young. but then, the real perks are having to escape classes or you can say being forced to skip class. i am sorry to say that my standard 1 class teacher passed away years ago due to cancer. i still remember her, pn mak lai ying. but to be honest, although i admire her art skills, i admire her more for her dictatorial punishment. a case in point, she will use her hand and slap your head if you din do homework or being noisy in class. trying to that now, i think you will be faced with red letter from school management.

then there is pn mariani, this one is the special of all. a malay teacher who watched hong kong drama. thinking back, i din feel weird for a teacher to watch hong kong drama. and the weirder thing is i will tell her the story again if she skipped the drama on the previous day. hence, rather than doing my homework, i would spend my time drama telling to her during standard 3. no wonder i have story telling skill. to put matter more interesting, there is mr cheong koon peng whom loved to give english story telling after his teaching. i anticipated his classes the most. his intonation and gesture left us, the students laughing hysterically. all of these to me are very memorable. i think this what all teachers should do. incorporate human element into teaching is a fun way of learning. once, he drew a big snake swallowing a boy in a stomach. i am 22 now and i was 9. the special thing: i can still remember it so well as if it were yesterday.

such reasons drive me to school everyday. you dun have to convince me to school, i want to go. and comes standard 6, another special individual appears. she came early year of Year 6 period. teaching BM, she turned my failed karangan level to an A. *bow. she was very dedicated. i often wonder why she paid special attention to a normal student like me. in my humblest opinion, must be my non-stop talking attitude after classes hours. all teachers i believe took note of that especially, pn mardiah. she made an announcement during assembly that our class is non human, more like chickens. talking non stop. i think wherever i go, the label goes with me. i shall say that is my greatest achievement ever during primary school. ohh, did you know, i received a slap from pn mardiah as well. why? because we, the bunch of fools, got so excited that the Le tour Langkawi passed by our class and we cheered enthusiastically. she came in and asked us to get out. one by one, faces became red. most ganas teacher alive. poor friends, some received twice. if i remember correctly, i din shout for that lame le tour langkawi =.= innocent boy.

talking about innocent, i believed i was always misunderstood. once, pn tan guat peng threw out my exercise book for not having completed my homework. i was like =O. i did! that was correction which she requested. she smiled after that. very funny is it? to be embarrassed then get smiled later.

life for me during primary school is like a roller coaster. up and down. up and down. but the thing is: i love riding roller coaster. the level of anticipation is unknown till you feel it at the moment. do you love riding a roller coaster?

the ups and downs in life is what makes my life rocks

blogger feels inspired again =) in which the reason he will tell some other time in the future when he looked back like now.

health is part of our lives

a casual evening demands me to go for a read at the health's section. it is crucial that everyone takes care of oneself. the reason is nobody is going to take care of you other than yourself. you can brush it off by saying you have a family member who will take care of that but it is better to be independent. afterall, it just takes a few simple changes.

the topic is food that is beneficial to your body. and i thought i have been smart when i started eating celery. celery used to be one of the not-to-eat list of food. it tasted a bit bitter and like medicine. then, i took notice when a writer said that celery is good for the body. i have forgotten for what reason, but i begin eating it until it becomes part of my favourites now. then, last week, i read the times magazine. it covers the whole section about food by one DR OZ. you know who is him? he is very famous in australia for having a talk show. i watched it once and it is really informative. he doesn't try to sell you any product but encourage the viewers to use natural remedy. one thing i learn for men is if you want to get rid of smelly feet, soak your feet in the pail of water with tea bags. according to him, this will draw moisture out of your feet and thus you will not sweat the following day.wow! logical and useful, isn't it? but being a cheapo, who wants to waste the tea bags, i will rather wash my socks more frequently.

ohhh, back to the article. there is this particular section which i hate. it states there broccoli is a must have vege in your life. wth? of all the veges in the world. some say it is very sweet. huh? is my sense of taste gone haywire or i am hallucinating while biting the hard and tasteless vege? according to DR OZ, it is believed that broccoli strengthens the liver and helps the detoxification system. besides, fibrous content in broccoli helps you to stay full longer without the need to chew more food later. noted! it is time to change my diet. the first thing is to go to coles supermarket and snap the vege. any idea how to cook it?

i found this quote in my blue wall and would like to share it here. i find the saying is true but i question whether the dalai lama really speaks in such a way.

blogger wishing everyone good health. eat more broccoli. off to oink oink session. 

under the weather

due to hot weather, i am sick. i was wondering what makes me to vulnerable to sickness these days. last time i seldom fall sick. must have been my recent over snacking. time to stop buying them. exams are coming soon. resting the whole day. =S

time to rest. 

quote of the day

only friends who can make you laugh will have friends who will cry with them

inevitable change

some point in our lives, change is inevitable. it is once said that the only thing that is constant is that things change. while i experience changes during my teen years, i din realise it until friends start pinpointing my change during form 5. they said i used to be snobbish. am i? i just seldom talk to new people i just know. thats all. i am shy, not snobbish. if i tell my friends i am shy now, they will laugh at me. you? shy? that puts the adjective word to disgrace. i am. if only you can remember when you first met me, you will know i will seldom make conversation. i usually observe. but i become very friendly easily once i know you and daring. yes, i am quite daring in challenging my friends' boundaries. to irk someone is my hobby. thats the reason i always have silent argument with friends. only through argument that we know each other better right?

while it is not my position to comment on others' boundaries, that doesn't mean i agree though. for me, i am more lax on the boundary. once, i played a prank on my good friend and he got angry. so, we din talk for one whole school day. then i asked another friend, she actually agreed with me that you are not really overboard if the friend treated you as a good friend that is. hmmm..... so we din talk la. why talk, because things get better when time passes. turns out my friend is more forgiving than i thought he is. the question on my mind is: do i really need forgiveness for my action? if i did remember correctly, i din apologise it the end and the event just passed as if it never happen.

i am completely at times to be misunderstood. if i believe what i did is not too much, i dun think i will admit my mistake. thats why people say i am stubborn. ohh wait, i am stubborn now huh? people moan that if i standing on the opposite view, they are bound to have a great argument. one, i dun step down. two, i speak loudly. they got cuak i think. haha XD. this is not a tactic, my dear friends. this is an indication of passion. no hard feeling. why indulge in a discussion if you just want to stand on the middle fence. so not fun.

yesterday, i went for the diwali night. i was talking with a few friends. one is particularly new, whom i just know for one year but we rarely meet each other as she is of from different university. when i joked with her, she commented, " i felt that we have known each other for a very long time". i replied, is it a bad thing? another laughter. through years, i begin to let things go bit by bit. she said i am like her friend, tupai. i told her, i am not tupai, i am musang. yea, i think people always say being around me brings a sense of familiarity.  i guess i can be pretty good nature and funny if i want to.

but maybe it is a good thing afterall. being friendly is better than snobbish? i just dun talk that much last time. and once i talked, it is hard to control me. the form teacher always complain, why you talk so much? yes, teacher, i love to talk? so? i have good friends who i always talk to during classes. but during form 2, everyone is just way too serious. chill guys, we need to talk to release tension. i love geography but i dislike the teacher. she always talk in the poor malay that i cannot understand what she is trying to say. i can remember one thing, she complimented tulisan saya sangat kemas. that i admit is one of my great point. i guess technology ruins it. nobody will notice anyway.

blogger is thinking maybe change is inevitable. he was pondering with the idea of giving up some important belief.

be home for dinner

i was watching the drama about family which the father is a food critique. but he will always be home for dinner. the thought suddenly brushed through me. seems like i have missed a lot of family meals since i came to sydney. then, when i headed back home during summer, i seemed to have lost the value of family meal. last summer, due to my infrequency of reaching home on time, i always ate alone. still, my mum will come into the kitchen and talked to me how my day has been. i think my mum dislike the idea of one having to eat alone. but i forgot to tell her this is how i have been through for the last 2 years here. i think somehow she understood back then. when i called home, she always tell me that she had just finished cooking and asked me whether i want a share. of course i do.

i guess this is the challenge facing everyone studying abroad. having dinners and lunches facing the laptops. i hope everyone still remembers the value of eating together with families, not just during chinese new year. eating together not only brings everyone together and definitely not a waste of time. even during high school years, i like to eat while watching tv and my mum will give me the stare. i was like, "i am hungry de, cannot wait." somehow, i did escape the stare there. for compensation i will just drink the soup during real dinner time. the thing is sometimes i love to eat with my siblings more because we can laugh and eat at the same time. but sometimes, when everyone is busy, such time is hard to passby.

this post is just a friendly reminder that appreciates one's meal with family member. you never know how much the value of it until you begin missing it.

ohh yeah!

if you read my previous post, i was all hype about my malaysian society's achievement for that day. we have submitted three nominations for our club for the category of best club under 100 members, best major event and best joint major event. turned out that we are invited to join the awards night because we are finalist for some of the categories. i have this nervous and excited feeling for the first time for my club because this c&s awards night is important to us similar to grammy awards for musicians and emmy awards for actors and actress.   hence, being listed as finalist really puts our malaysian society club out there for people to know us. let me tell you that c&s is run by USU (University of Sydney Union) and overall, USU oversees 200 clubs for the whole university. so it is huge and very competitive.

with our predecessors having won the best club for under 100 members and best performing arts event for mamak night, the pressure is on us to continue their legacy. tension is running high. excitement level spikes up to the roof for 14 of us. when they announced they we actually won highly commended event for "mamak night'. i almost shouted. but we did not win but we appear as the top two event for major event. the winner goes to chinese cultural event by another club. the thing is they have so much support that i think being independent on our own, mamak night is very successful as well. their selling point was lion dance, games, food, chinese culture and famous officials attending the event. we, on the other hand has musical performers, malaysian trivia quiz, mamak night culture and malaysian consulate. so, i should say we are very closely tied.

i co-chair the event with my partner, alya. i was happy that although we din win, at least we put up a good fight for it. we spent a lot of time,energy and effort to make it a success. i am in charge more on entertainment and food preparation besides being the emcee for the event. looking back, i think winning this doesn't really matter but the highly commended title did put sugar icing on top of the sweet memories i will always have for the event.

another new event that our club held is mooncake festival. this event is a collaboration with other four clubs from other uni. and it won highly commended event for major joint event. i was like wow. we are really good eh? this came as a surprise as i had no expectation for this event. again, being the cultural director, i was the co-chair and emcee for the event as well. although we did not win the overall category, we came in second. still, it is a new achievement that has brought us to greater heights. 

and i think i can be proud to say that i have achieved something in my university. event management is definitely one of my key skill now. and even my job interviewer agrees that organising an event will sharpen one's time management. i will say, "yes, it really does." not only does it pushes you to the limit, you must think during at the limits. hmmm. a great experience i would say. besides, our club is the finalist for best club under 100 members but we did not win. ohhh well. winning and losing is part and parcel in life. my president was apologizing to us committee members for letting us down. but i said, you did not let us down. all the memories, friendship and dedication are not wasted. we have definitely grown. winning is sweet but learning is the best thing one could get out of this. 

blogger feels that the reason for both the events winning the "highly commended' title is because he was the emcee for both the events. he joked with his current president that next time, they should consider hiring him for 100 dollars per hour for emceeing the event. and his president brushed it off by saying the payment would be higher than selling backside on the street of sydney. thats the highlight that made his day. he made the blogger laughed non stop for a while there. 

i am so excited

my excitement is super high right now. maybe because i am so happy that i can't sleep. haha. tell you the reason tomorrow because i have to force myself to sleep as there is a early class tomorrow.

are you of any good?

with my secured employment comes more question now. should i work or should i study? let's weigh the pros and cons. because inside my head, there is a lot of things going on now. i need to segregate them accordingly.

first, let's talk about work. actually working is not bad, i get to do with quite a prestigious company to begin with. i will be most likely part time studying, part time working in order to get my accreditation. the thing is, i have consulted a senior working in that similar company now. he told me. the job is very demanding. long hours  , little time to spend with family and little time to study. occasionally, he was denied leaves which he entitled due to understaffed problem. what is good is the remuneration is good. your pay is sometimes double with allowance. plus, i do not waste my time researching for a topic which i might not use in the future. besides, one year is enough for me to jump a position ahead. graduating a year late will be fine just not career wise. the plus point is auditing is a very marketable profession after a few years. i can literally go anywhere i like. in addition, i may apply overseas job through transfer. also, i can learn more by putting longer hours in work. i dun mind working OT actually, just that i am a little worried about not having time for studies.

second, should i stick to EY now after considering the pros and cons. my senior told me banks offer the same benefits besides going back on time. and banks will have more holidays. and i can do accreditation papers with them as well. and i heard the starting salary is higher but unsure about transferable skills to other industry. besides, i will be stuck with banking. banking is actually my second option after transaction services. do i work for the money or do i work for the interest?

besides career options, i have to think about honours. finance or accounting. finance is harder more interesting but accounting is easier less interesting. wth, just when i thought i have no hope for accounting honours, a senior lecturer email me to encourage me to apply. =.= (perfect timing).

with so many uncertainty, i am going to apply for everything. and after that, i will decide what i want to do after going back to Malaysia in January. spent time thinking about uncertainty is so not beneficial. rather than worrying, i can pass through the sea waves of uncertainty by flying using the aeroplane. when offers come, then i will pick and choose. who knows, i will only have one option at last. the thought of throwing coin comes to my mind today, i secretly hope what i want. i am just too scare to admit what i want. because there is another programme blocking me: TAP (public service with government which cannot be rejected). the chance is 20%. sometimes, being unlucky is a lucky thing.

yes

the job interview today was more casual than i expected. as the interviewer had studied in sydney before, i feel like i am updating her on the current malaysian society as well beside talking about myself. she was very interested with mamak night to begin with. then, it proceeded with collaborations with other society. i can safely said 50% of the time is about how i manage my society stuff. pretty good since i know my society well.

next came the internship part. personally, she liked the idea that i have to do more for my internship judging from her tone of voice. hmmm...maybe the pace of my speech has already revealed my interest along the way. the funny thing is she almost agree with what i said. well, a good sign.

i thought i blown out the interview because there is this question which i did not expect but i answered it uniquely. it begins with, "what are your parents expectation of you?". i said, " no expectation. because i am very stubborn. they know that i will not listen to them but follow my own heart". after the speech came out of my mouth in such a nonchalant way, i was like, ' did i do that to impress or did i just do that to fail my own interview". turns out she was fine with the idea that i need to have an interest in things i do. i think, for myself, i am pretty certain what i want. so that scores me a bit of points.

and the next question also came out of the blue but i think i did pretty well. "in your past application, you mentioned no other firms replied you for internship and you are with EY. now, i dun think other firms will interview you considering most of them have left sydney already. and yet, now you are with EY. why ar? i replied, "i must be fated to work with EY".

the place i attended interview today. cool right? yeah, i think it is cool too. 

with that, i guess her laughter has sealed my victory. i was often more surprise with myself for coming out with such an answer at times. trying to tell other firms it is fate, it will not work. but telling her this must be fate must be working well. ohh, btw, i got the job.

random

sometimes, it is hard to deny that life can be completely random. maybe, i have been in touch with finance stuffs that often touch upon random work of the financial data, my life today turns out similar to the finance stuff.

today i went for a talk by sponsor. they actually wanted to introduce new models for scholars. one, which i am particularly intrigued is the ability to transfer our bond to private corporate firms. thats good to hear. at least this option would allow me to do the job which i am interested in. after sailing through the sea of uncertainty, i find an interest in my career path. i dunno since when i develop the interest but it just came. luckily quite an early one. i wanna do transaction services.

so, after the talks, i approached a lady from a corporate company i interned with. she immediately told me to go for interview tomorrow, which correctly stated today at 9am. i was like. thats interesting. i was thinking, do i have to prepare for anything? clothes? academic transcripts? speech preparation? everything checked except for the last one because i dunno what to say. let the randomness of the day handles it.

looks quite dark though. 

i also must thank a person today. one guy found my usb and called me to tell me about my usb hanging precariously on the desktop in university's study center. thats how i end up jogging to university at 1130pm. talking about random, this is one is a funny yet memorable experience. when i walked back, i decided to take it slow. maybe it has been fated that i need to have a calm and peaceful walk at night to university. i have been to hasty in living that i forget to live. do you know the moon is full today? and i just re-realise again how beautiful my university can be.

thats how random plays the life of the blogger on 11 October 2011.

i was a bad friend

yesterday, before i shut my eyes, i kinda felt that it has been since such a long time i chatted with my school friends (mr khaw aside because he is having holidays so tiap tiap minggu chat dgn dia). the rest just give me a fuzzy memory of last time chatted. then suddenly, miss A came along to complain about her current undergoing education. seriously, a HUMAN needs 7 hours of sleep. you are robotic. so i can't compare with you. she was telling me how sometimes academic stuff gave her such a blow to her confidence. yeah, me too at times.

but if you think more closely, at the end of the day, the employers won't really just look at your academic results. being active in non-university stuff is helpful. because employers might be interested in your networking skills as well. although personally i disagree with using the word such as networking, i participate in society because i am sociable animal. while i like to chat with others, i do not like to use friendship card in order to climb up my career path, hopefully. some say, nah, it is part and parcel of life. really? you use friend in your daily life? 

i can't deny that some friends are what i call user-friendly friends. they only appear when you have a value. sometimes, i can feel that another friend is just being used. and the thought of speaking out is too kpc. hence, i decided to write. i usually shy away from such people. remember, user friendly person is not what i call friend. they are just there sometimes. someone ask me, how you know they are like that? easy, when they talk, the conversation has no substance and more often than not, always ask for help without much return. i feel bad for telling this, but i think people like this will go very far in life. one, because they will be more likely to be CEO or business owners. two, because they know when to ask for help. 

but, do you remember what is the purpose of your existence? climbing so high for what, if all you get is money and power. it seldom brings happiness. at the end of the day, you want people close to you to share the joy with you. 

ohh, back to miss A's case. the employer will also look at your personality as a whole. i keep hearing this comments from lecturer and friends. they say they can roughly guess which company (big 4) you belong to based on your personality. ohh really? seems to be if a company hires me, most likely they have a lot of smiley employees . =) a good thing. some people really never smile one. i dun understand why but i am not going to comment much on this. personality case is too hard to observe. ohh yeah, miss A. i think you will do fine. you will complain all the way to SUCCESS. and please remember me by the time you attain success ok? belanja me go eat good food ke, europe trip ke? 

there is a saying, if you worry too much about the destination, you will forget the joy of the journey. i am not a bad friend, am i? see, i spend half an hour dedicating this to you. next time, i will try to give you 10.5 minutes for chatting ok? haha XD

blogger feels that he wants to maintain his good friendship with everyone but there is an enemy who doesn't allow him to do so: TIME

smiley =)

a friend recently commented that she cannot judge the expression on my face. the reason: i keep smiling all the time. is it a bad thing to be smiling all the time? i smile because there is a saying, if you smile to others, the world will smile back to you. i guess they forget to add that but people can't read your facial expression.

ohhh, the photos have been uploaded. haha. i am a learner for that day. pretty fun because they let us use alcohol. so it somehow lightened up the whole learning experience. the guy who taught us is very friendly. he taught us before cooking. you must exercise your hand. do you know how the wave move? swerve and swerve. so make your hand like a wave. interesting.

here you go. the rest of my big face.

teka dia siapa? ohhh wait, the  signboard  gives away the answer

looking good before chop, chop, chop

the friendly fernando

ahhh, this is the one i wanted to show you guys. cool right?

must try ice cream muffin. sedap!

see, the photo taken. my photography skill must be impeccable. oopsss. self praise  =)

blogger signing off for a great week ahead, hopefully.

ohh....it is live!

a jog with a friend turned out to be more fruitful than i thought. the normal anticipation would be able to sweat and have a chat with my friend. little did i know i was offered a free ticket to attend....... oppss. let the photos do the talking.

entrance and cheeky class =)

they are so thoughtful. kiddie knives

Maggie!

so many sauces just for a bread.

must try this! awesome

sparkling jucies

cheeky food class

 it was such an eventful day. it was sunny. the bus driver was kind enough to point us towards the venue. at first, i din know such an event exist in masterchef. it is called masterchef live. everyone is able to get into the event by purchasing a ticket (i got it for free, mucho gracias). the event has a lot of food and drink tasting. i tasted bread, wine, sparkling juice, pizza, pies and lots lots more. by the time, i finished tasting, i literally skipped lunch all the way. i also signed up for a cooking lesson with cheeky food class. photos were taken but it is still with my friend. will update on you soon. it was really cool.

i get to eat,drink and learn. i told my friend, "this is must be my event of the month". just when i thought my weekend is going for a boring watch videos and dramas one. this masterchef live took my breath away. one more reason for loving sydney *wink. ohhh yea, maggie, you saw that pic of maggie beer. the sparkling juice is awesome. i tried the sparkling ruby chardonnay. highly recommended. i din know maggie beer is actually a person's name.

blogger signing off. till i get hold onto the pics of me while cooking. till then, adios amigos.

you didn't know, did you?

there is this article which pops out in the facebook saying my friend has read it. interesting. it is about the elite uk universities which ban students who undertake certain subjects in A level. while it is not surprising, the universities are doing this out of disclosure. they keep it hidden. this causes some students from public schools who score well are not offered a place to further studies. really? why do people always complain over such small matter? inequality exists everywhere. and it is always the poorer who will be marginalized. you want to know why, private schools which students pay to enrol are often of good background families. of course there is a tendency for universities to accept "good-behaviour and well to do" students.

stop complaining and suck it up. there is no such thing as being poor will entitle you to equality. the only thing that rules the world. the alphabet appears on the superman chest and double vertical line across. nobody ask you to be freaking poor. haha. funny, don't you think so?

if i can collect a dollar for everytime i heard a friends who complain they are poor, most likely i will be quite loaded by now. i am always feel insulted when my friends moan that they are poor. you din know what is the feeling of being poor, did you? do you worry about your school fees? do you worry that your parents have enough money to celebrate cny? and you might never want to join others for visiting because your mum always tell you about financial problem? have you heard of that before? and you associate poor with tears? you don't? that's weird the last time i check you said you are poor.

i always find it an insult when a friend told me he/she has no money or is poor. you are kidding me right? if you are poor, what makes me then? a beggar? or the lowest poor category you can put me into. my friend thought i am well to do because i dun complain. let me tell you the difference, if you are so used to being fucking poor, you stop complaining and suck it up. if you never know the definition of poor please stop using them. do not insult people who know when to use it but choose not to. thats why i seldom talk about money. but i will tell you one thing: i hate being poor and that is not my own doing.

i find it amusing when friend say no la, my parents are not rich and they have a double storey house and two cars parked in the porch. and they laugh about it. i din know discriminating poor people can be so funny. so, stop talking about equality. such word is not supposed to exist in this world. just live with it. and if you think you have heard about how poor people are living, you are far from knowing the whole definition of poor. it is just half of it. yeah, i think i am poor and just refuse to say it because i hate being in that state. and i am desperate to be rich but i am being sick in such a state for so long.

why i dun tell friends, because nobody believes anyway. no point in convincing people who are disillusioned about the real meaning of the word.

i still remembered very deeply. when i tell my teacher i have financial problem and need the school scholarship, she doesn't believe me. i was thinking, " what should i do to prove i am? should i cry? should i just forget about it?" i was quite infuriated because i know deep down there is a friend whose father works as an assistant manager and he can forge the pay slip and the teacher took his word for it. what about me? my father doesn't even qualify for a pay slip. and he gets the scholarship too. fine, deep down, i know there is no point telling the teacher this because i find no merit in telling the truth at all. i was so thankful that in the end, pn noraini took my word for it. and i have observed this for quite sometime, teachers always thought parents of A class students are rich. that doesn't mean everyone is.

it is one thing to be poor and it is another thing to be ashamed to be poor. whatever it is, since i have moved on to the point of not thinking about it, i will be fine. next time, if you want to tell your friend that you poor, please do check you really have gone through poor state. usage of wrong vocabulary is tolerable but insulting a friend is a different case.

blogger feels that being poor has its perks: you experience insult, shame and worry all at the same time. then he is so expressionless that even emo is not a suitable to describe. thus comes the now him: thick-faced, proud and happy =)

one who refused to live the belief of others

he is of such famous personality that he is mentioned in and out for a few days. a random check proves this. his departure from the Mother Earth is definitely a great loss to society. to be honest, his passing is not really a loss to me. one, i don't own one of his innovations because i am not really into technology stuffs of person. i am more of food person. i will be sadder if a great chef passed away. but, i came across a story written about him.

he is a person of such valor that i have to respect him for who he is. he is a fighter. you can say he is very ambitious. but i would like to say he is a stubborn person with great individuality style. for one, his work itself says much about him. when he encountered challenges from the company itself. he went out and created his own empire called NEXT. when his production took off, the old company bought his new company back. so cool! you force people who rejected before to accept you back. if you have such value, no matter where you go, you will be noticed. kudos. hopefully everyone has such luck, courage and dedication. if you read his career background, his innovation really comes from his strong principles.

although i have not met you before, it has been a great knowing you through story. may you rest in peace. i will always cherish your saying,

"Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."

blogger feels life suddenly feels short. you may be here today but may not be here tomorrow.

saya masih anak jati melaka, oni

hari agak bermakna. seorang kawan lama tiba tiba bertanya khabar kat aku. biasanya, jarang ada kawan lama yang singgah di profil saya di facebook yang bertanya khabar. tiba tiba terasa rindu pula zaman waktu sekolah rendah. pada masa itu, sangat gembira. kawan lama ini boleh dikatakan kawan baik sewaktu darjah satu lagi. masa itu, dia cukup kerdil dan gigi gongak. wah, sekarang. hansem dan tinggi giler. tu la, anak campuran melayu dan jepun ini memang kelihatan lain daripada yang lain.

kawan ini agak lucu pada masa tu. kita sama-sama bertugas sebagai pengawas. cuba anda teka apa tugas yang diberikan kepada kami. biasanya, jaga pagar, meronda di kantin, bilik darjah dan juga bilik guru. tugas kami agak istimewa. kami adalah penjaga masa. hahaha, macam dewa-dewa pulak. kami ditugaskan untuk membunyikan loceng sekolah. pada masa itu, loceng yang digunakan mempunyai fungsi manual bukan seperti sekarang, semua berfungsi guna elektrik. tugas ini sangat senang. cuma perlu tekan loceng bila tiba masa. sebelum bunyi loceng, kita akan duduk di meja sambil berbual bual.

kawan ini sangat kreatif. dia mengajar macam mana bersiul. aku bukan main susah baru belajar teknik siulan daripada dia. dia kata, senang saja. buat mulut tu macam ikan. lepas tiup. aku masih ingat aku terus balik belajar banyak kali. jadi pulak pada keesokan hari. sebagai balasan, dia meminta aku mengajar dia cakap bahasa cina. pelik kan budak jepun ni. orang minta ajar akademik, dia minta ajar bahasa cina. dah la bahasa cina aku tak beberapa baik. ajar sahaja. dia tanya sahaja lepas tu aku tolong tafsirkan dalam bahasa cina. ini boleh dikatakan teori economy sebagai barter sistem.

memori yang paling aku tak boleh lupa ialah isyarat tangan. mesti tumbuk kat buku lima, lepas tu berjabat tangan dan buat ala rock sambil bercakap "oh yeah". haha.... itulah zaman waktu sekolah rendahku yang cukup seronok lagi menarik ketika bertugas. nasib baik waktu itu tiada cikgu yang memandang. kalau tidak, digeleng kepala cikgu tu.

sebab saya gelarkan diri saya sebagai anak jati melaka sebab kawan ini ingatkan aku dah lupakan daratan. takde la, kawan. saya masih diriku yang dulu. cuma telah menimba lebih banyak pengetahuan. yang berbeza cuma saiz yang tinggi sikit dan suara gelakan sedikit lebih kuat. entah sejak bila kawan saya mengejek suara ketawa saya sangat lantang. biarlah..... apa pun, assignment belum siap lagi. mahu pergi buat sekarang.

dia nampak mcm budak cina...cuba teka mana satu kawan baik saya. sayang sekali tak pernah ambil gambar dengan dia.

ohh.... kawan baik saya bernama onira bin sharif. kita kenal sejak darjah satu lagi dan dia duduk di sebelah saya pada masa itu.

says who

the recent hype would be most likely the words that catch one's attention shared on the blue wall. some are funny i would say. it doesn't really make me laugh. it makes me smile. okay, i will take that. the question on my mind is who says these phrases. created originally? or from a bank website of phrases. whatever, it is, they sure are heart warming until at one point, i find it a little distracted. why is everyone posting? the reason must be because everyone is special. everyone is attracted to something different in life. just like how one likes different color, food and design. it will be pretty ironic if everyone likes the same thing.

okay, i should be back to do my 10-page assignment. i am special too because this is what i like most:

Who can teach me how to write this on a cup of coffee?

blogger is in the mood for coffee.......

the part of me that needs to smile

people often ask why i always smile. simple, because i think life is good. i am satisfied with my current state of life.

do you know that if you have gone through the worst in life, you will learn to smile more? some might notice i seldom to share the past, the reason is i dun find the worth in sharing. if i do, the expected response is absolutely silence. i did share with five friends in life. nothing to be proud. i share because they care to ask. one thing i learn about life. it is not easy. when i begin to share my story, a friend told me. yes, i know. if you were to meet me a few years back, i will be exactly in the same position as you. the difference is, i am still in the same old position and you have already moved on past the stage.

since young, i think i cried a lot. sometimes i cried myself to sleep. and the thing is it is not even things that i can control. they are not about studies, relationship and friendship. so my worries have deeper impact. from young, i din expect much in life. i just want to have a normal, ordinary life. once, i told a friend about my story, she said. you dun look like you have been that much in life. yes, i did. that's how i manage to comfort her for being unhappy when problems crop up. somehow my story always makes other feels much better. can you imagine how my story makes me then? worthless. to be feel such a feeling when young is really not easy. i am quite thankful that suicide is never on my mind. i always thought such happenings never exist before in my life. thats the reason i did not care to share. probably, one day when i am old enough, i might write just to let sad people to feel better about themselves.

i think i have grown. but something still etches deeply. i have a grudge. i never forgive. with my strong details of memory, i can always think back and remember every important single moment in life. that's why i seldom forgive. one, i hate liars. two, i hate people who treat others like craps. i can tell you that feeling like  a crap is the worst. you do not even want to live for another day. that's why i rarely share. who wants to hear the crappy story. yes, nobody. if i were to tell all over again, i am afraid i myself cannot control the tears.

life is difficult, i think things have been improving. sometimes, i must really question. who the hell writes my life path. if i were to meet the person or divine being, i may choose to never to live. i hope nobody goes through. a shocking tale was told to me. actually, someone has contemplated suicide. i get to know this last summer. i think thats how bad it is. given the situation, i think even it occurs, i am not surprised honestly. thats why i choose not to forgive. the memory is still strong. maybe, one day but not now.

and some friends actually complain how their lives are just ordinary. be thankful you are ordinary. you just never know how extraordinary life can be and i dun mean the happier one. i think seldom people will share sad stories. have you read the "The Kitchen God's Wifebook" by Amy Tan. i think the book is written based on true story.

since so much has been thrown at me, i still survive. so there is no reason not to smile, do I? and friends said i am stubborn. why not, because i need to be stubborn to stand on my ground things that i believe in. i believe that your value is not determined by others. you decide how much you are worth. i believe in living the now because the past is just memories. best forgotten. and i believe be appreciative of people who believe in you. because only they will know your value in life. cling on to them and never let go. if you feel sad at times, just talk to them. actually, my life has been where i get a lot of support especially teachers. i do not understand when one stranger auntie looked at me and said boy, you look like you have been through a lot in life and i think you will be okay. at that time, i dun understand what is she saying but little did i know she actually meant my past.

enough said, now is 433am and i need to sleep.

the red carpet

Hollywood affair

here you go as promised. do i look alright for hollywood affairs? guess not. actually this is the clothes i wear for work. apparently, my hair cut got more attention than my clothes. duh. it's alright because i did cut my hair just for this event. so the thing is the 10bucks worth more than my clothes collection. maybe next time i should take picture with my double carved line on the side.

blogger finds it unnecessary to get new clothes just to attend an event.

thats me

yesterday was quite a night. i attended the dance and dinner for all new south wales malaysian committee night. it was eventful with everyone wearing their best dresses and suits. not me though, i just go with something simple. yes, i dun like to fuss about clothes. that's me. if i spend too much time, it becomes a chore and i dun particularly like doing a chore.

the disappointing thing is i din win the lucky draw which happens to be a netbook but my president won it. so, you can say, i am kinda happy he won it because he put a lot of effort and time for my society. rumour has it that he ended his relationship due to work commitment, partially to malaysian committee. such dedication. well, for a lot of guys, work comes first so let's not go there.

the second thing is dance. and i was kind of put off by the fact it became more like a club dancing rather than an annual dinner. fine by me since i get to watch some unique dance moves. personally, i am not the party social animal. i am more of an observer. my friends commented i was particularly quiet on the night. if you know me well, i dun really have much to say. the reason is there is this white dress girl, sitting two tables away. quite pretty and classy i should say. my friend did push me to talk to her. if you were guessing did i talk to her, the answer is no. it will be weird la, tak kenal. she is not even a friend's friend.

my friend said she shall be called the white dress girl because i never got a chance to talk to her. a question on mind is why is it so particularly important that i am in a relationship. it is not like life should revolve around it. i prefer a quiet and fuss free life. that's how i live. maybe things will change in the future but for now, nope. at times, i believe i have outgrown myself. i am acting like a 40 year old plus while i am only 20 plus.

recently, the word officially pops out again. the duty of correcting the society lies on me. can i remind you there is no such a need to put the word officially in sentences? although it might sound better to you, it does not. it only shows your lack of language proficiency. let me give you example, i have officially finished my exams! and i have finished my exams! tell me: why is the word "officially" being placed? does that mean you can " i have unofficially finished my exams"? no right? hence, please. remove the word.

think before you act because act becomes habit and habit makes your personality. you definitely want to have error free personality. blogger OFFICIALLY signing off. being cynical is fun at times. (shall post the dance and dinner party pictures when they appear on the blue wall). ciao!