you didn't know, did you?

there is this article which pops out in the facebook saying my friend has read it. interesting. it is about the elite uk universities which ban students who undertake certain subjects in A level. while it is not surprising, the universities are doing this out of disclosure. they keep it hidden. this causes some students from public schools who score well are not offered a place to further studies. really? why do people always complain over such small matter? inequality exists everywhere. and it is always the poorer who will be marginalized. you want to know why, private schools which students pay to enrol are often of good background families. of course there is a tendency for universities to accept "good-behaviour and well to do" students.

stop complaining and suck it up. there is no such thing as being poor will entitle you to equality. the only thing that rules the world. the alphabet appears on the superman chest and double vertical line across. nobody ask you to be freaking poor. haha. funny, don't you think so?

if i can collect a dollar for everytime i heard a friends who complain they are poor, most likely i will be quite loaded by now. i am always feel insulted when my friends moan that they are poor. you din know what is the feeling of being poor, did you? do you worry about your school fees? do you worry that your parents have enough money to celebrate cny? and you might never want to join others for visiting because your mum always tell you about financial problem? have you heard of that before? and you associate poor with tears? you don't? that's weird the last time i check you said you are poor.

i always find it an insult when a friend told me he/she has no money or is poor. you are kidding me right? if you are poor, what makes me then? a beggar? or the lowest poor category you can put me into. my friend thought i am well to do because i dun complain. let me tell you the difference, if you are so used to being fucking poor, you stop complaining and suck it up. if you never know the definition of poor please stop using them. do not insult people who know when to use it but choose not to. thats why i seldom talk about money. but i will tell you one thing: i hate being poor and that is not my own doing.

i find it amusing when friend say no la, my parents are not rich and they have a double storey house and two cars parked in the porch. and they laugh about it. i din know discriminating poor people can be so funny. so, stop talking about equality. such word is not supposed to exist in this world. just live with it. and if you think you have heard about how poor people are living, you are far from knowing the whole definition of poor. it is just half of it. yeah, i think i am poor and just refuse to say it because i hate being in that state. and i am desperate to be rich but i am being sick in such a state for so long.

why i dun tell friends, because nobody believes anyway. no point in convincing people who are disillusioned about the real meaning of the word.

i still remembered very deeply. when i tell my teacher i have financial problem and need the school scholarship, she doesn't believe me. i was thinking, " what should i do to prove i am? should i cry? should i just forget about it?" i was quite infuriated because i know deep down there is a friend whose father works as an assistant manager and he can forge the pay slip and the teacher took his word for it. what about me? my father doesn't even qualify for a pay slip. and he gets the scholarship too. fine, deep down, i know there is no point telling the teacher this because i find no merit in telling the truth at all. i was so thankful that in the end, pn noraini took my word for it. and i have observed this for quite sometime, teachers always thought parents of A class students are rich. that doesn't mean everyone is.

it is one thing to be poor and it is another thing to be ashamed to be poor. whatever it is, since i have moved on to the point of not thinking about it, i will be fine. next time, if you want to tell your friend that you poor, please do check you really have gone through poor state. usage of wrong vocabulary is tolerable but insulting a friend is a different case.

blogger feels that being poor has its perks: you experience insult, shame and worry all at the same time. then he is so expressionless that even emo is not a suitable to describe. thus comes the now him: thick-faced, proud and happy =)