friends, what friendship?

a friend asked, "have you contacted mr x recently?" i was like.... errr, no. why? because the friend thought that it has been a long time since last time they chatted. my response was it has been many years since i had proper conversation with mr x. then this friend started rambling about how education background affects your view of friendship and how close mr x is with y and z. special treatment will only be given to y and z when they were around.

in my mind, "why bother?". the friend also lamented how the friendship just fades like that. to me, i seldom talk to mr x and we also never hang out. so am i concern? not really. do i lose something? no. to me, he is just a random friend who comes and goes in my everyday life. i am quite surprised when my friend talks about this. i thought by now everyone should be pretty clear who are those around you who will stick around.

i always believe in the principle of "nothing is constant, the constant thing is change". embrace it. until the last breath you have taken on this earth only you will know who stand beside you through the test of time. so i will just live for the moment and do not let circumstances to change how i felt about it. you never know best friends can be enemies next time. so i think i can be the chameleon. i can be your best friend, good pal, chat buddy, classmate, roomie, colleague or even just a traveller companion. i don't mind playing along but i am strong believer in what goes around will come back to you. 

you have nothing to offer other than you. 

treat others with sincerity but do not expect in return. what you have to offer is on your part. if the person treats you the same, be grateful that it happens. i wish not wasting my time thinking about it. people are different. in this short time of living here, we can spend time lamenting about the loss of friendship or we can spend it by keeping the real ones and finding new potential ones. who knows you might just find all the right one because at the end of the day, you just think too much. give others the benefit of the doubt.

blogger feels he can be quite friendly when he wants it, he just doesn't feel that way recently towards his co-workers.