recent silence is due to me having nothing much to say at work. not that i have nothing to say, i am being bogged down by something else. initially, i thought i am the odd one out. i have these two junior colleagues of mine. they are very talkative and laugh like crazy. and the weird thing is, i am not laughing and talking. i just give them the silent treatment and a smile. do you know in my circle of friends, i never do that silent thing. i guess i really have to. the thing is, i expect some level of depth while talking. okay, if jokes, i laugh if i get it. but they just laugh at everything and the topic is usually lame. i find it frustrating. what the hell... this is really not my depth.
then comes this whole week training. as my firm has a few department, i was randomly picked to sit with the majority of another department (TCE). i am from GFS department. and i find that i really can click very well with them. at least i get their jokes and i laugh. then this junior colleague of mine is the one emo sitting with us. so here comes my thinking. i am thinking much how to fit in all along but i forget to realise: hey, everyone is different. if you don't click, you don't la. hence, i learn a pretty important lesson. not every joke is laughable. not everyone has to be pleased. and to the hell with them. i ain't doing that and i don't talk cock or cantonese says "chui sui". i am not the problem, i am just different.
Loy Krathong on a Full Moon
1 week ago
I definitely agree that everyone is different and it's good that instead of putting the blame squarely on your shoulders, you'd move on instead =D
ReplyDeletePerhaps you can take example from our secondary or primary school period where we do not necessarily mix well with everyone. There would be a certain group of people that we would rather mingle with... Hell, YOLO so you don't have to please anyone!! Just stick with those that you share frequencies with and not force yourself to be in a group that you don't belong with.