wish 许愿

wish is such a good thing to say. as simple as the voice from the heart. but at times, voice coming from the heart is not that easy to say out. not because it is too ambitious, too big or too fancy, it is because it might be too simple

i attended a friend's lunch farewell. he is going back home, Indonesia to work. if i am not mistaken, he will be back to be part of a great project that relates to power plant. sounds so cool and fancy. yes, he is. even his master is called power engineering. everyone is beginning to colour the lives with exciting dreams. i also heard a senior is quitting an audit job to go for business development trainee. well, at least he knows what he wants in life.

part of me is like the ship, wandering aimlessly in the vast wide open ocean. part of me wants to be like a bird, flying high. nothing but reaching the sky. the big question comes to where is the destination i want to be? at times, i tell some friends that i want a simple life. more often than not, i would tell people my dream. i am definitely a dreamer, not a follower. i want to see changes, i want to be the force of change. at the end of the day, i believe everyone is feeling the same like me, just at different point of their lives.

but that being said, life wouldn't be as exciting if it has been planned for you just to walk it. it would fun sometimes to derail from your main path and take the road not taken. it maybe different, but not necessarily scary. in about a year's time, i would have been landing myself in a job. hopefully the one that i wish. been surveying the market jobs recently. i am little bored with so many jobs offering personal wealth management consultants but they involves selling products. =_= and i thought i can get rid of selling products and services once and for all. 3 days of direct selling thought me that. in the environment of fierce competition, you either be really pushy, thick faced or end up being loser. okay, probably you know the answer.

i think i am being too honest during that time. the reason i am not selling well is because i do not believe in the product. it is just way too expensive and i felt like i am cheating. what the heck. others may say i am too innocent, i think i just wish i can have peaceful sleep at night, knowing full well that i have passed myself as a human being. too much is being said in the society. there is always going to be perspective, it all depends on how you interpret and define what you feel is right.

(the view from my window, how it looks lovely with so many colours in a single tree. can you stay that way always?)

one more wish: if only i could write my blog in Mandarin, that would surprise everyone. probably not in the near future. all i could write is 我是许志成。and i am not really sure that is even correct or not. wait, i can write my blog in Bahasa. i once fell in love with bahasa. then along the way, the love just faded away, just like how the footprints on the sand fades at the wind blows.......