eternal loss

   Just as I thought that I should call home today, I forgot. Something tingled under my skin to ask me to call back home. However, I did not. The chance will never come again.

   When I was having lecture moments ago, I received an unknown number. Picking up, I heard my sister called. The sentence is short yet it made me dumbstruck,"Tik, ah mak passed away."  I was too speechless to say anything. After putting down the mobile without saying anything, I remained blank. Then, I began to wonder. What should I do?

   Memories start flashing back one by one. I had a dream last year but I think I have already gained much as I did see my grandma last summer. At least, I did say my goodbye before I came back here. Sorry, ah mak. I cannot be there when everyone is. I have so much to say, so much to tell you. But, nothing comes to mind.

   I owed you a lot and I only can repay you in the afterlife.

Love,
Tik tik