i remember well

when i interact, i observe, listen and talk at the same time. this can be a gift and yet a curse at times. hence, i am appreciative of kind gestures i was showered with yet i remembered well for those bad apples as well. how in the world i am remembering all the fights i had with my primary school friends to the details and also remember how the primary school teacher treated me well like her own child. i felt honoured as a student that time. she trusted me. the most important thing, she inspired me to be the best i can be.

thats why i tell my friends around me, don't treat me bad, don't lie to me, don't do any mistake in front of me. i remember well even though sometimes i remember too much. 

i still cannot forget how this friend who taught i was the snobbish kid ended up being my occasional chatting friend. but the thing is, the chatting gets lesser. but i still find it memorable. because as we walk to after school class, he will keep talking. surprisingly, i am the listener. i am seldom the listener but i remember well.

there is girl who i had a crush on. she asked for a favour once and i remembered, i asked for an ice cream in return. and she said ok. haha. although it did not materialise, i still remember. does this type of human connection and memory only happens to me or everyone else has the same exact memories too.

taipei

ps: does having a auditory memory a good thing?

the simple wan tan mi

if i compare myself to myself years ago, i would say i have changed. not because of all the people i know or all the skills i learn at work or the degree i earned. it's the perspective i currently have. the "i" who wants to travel everywhere, eat everything and see all the views in the world. yet, as i grow, i find that i feel a less satisfaction seeking such past dream. i still yearn such thing occasionally yet the satisfaction has been different.

at times, i feel that if i have a day of quiet reading and a simple wan tan mi at bunga raya, i would be more happy than travelling and eating fine dining. you may say i am the sour grape. i am at a phase which i think  finding contentment in my daily life can be very rewarding. looking at all the positive side of things could not be so bad after all. if we just stop walking for awhile and look around, there are a lot of things to be thankful and grateful about. but here we are, looking straight at want we possibly can get or not and yet, losing what have been besides us all this while.

blogger just want the simple wan tan mi at times. bunga raya street food is not comparable than the sydney fine dining, it is better.

uncertainty

during the past few weeks, i have been rather down. all thanks to my free time thinking. the more effort i put in thinking about my current state, the negativity element becomes too unbearable. you can say i was in the stage where i was practically getting along not really knowing what i was doing. i kept comforting myself that this is just a phase that everyone goes through. i was wrong. 

i had a chat with a friend over my current state. the advice given is apt. i need a plan. hence, i need a good sleep tonight and come out with a plan tomorrow. the future is in my hands. i should determine how it should be run instead of the other way round.