vipassana

 this post marks after an overdue post. many events and incidents have happened. there is a strong compelled feeling to pen down what i have in mind. i will say life changing events mostly

first i have settled into my own home for about 2 years already. few friends complimented it is an achievement. to me, neutral. i do not feel having a house of your own is a moment to be proud of. i am just glad that i have a comfortable place to live in. nice neighbourhood with plenty of nearby places to eat. it is also convenient to jog around here. a small residence that i am happy of. fortunately, this residence makes my family happier. finally i am settled after so many years of renting. 

back to the topic of the post. i am no longer covid virgin per what my friend claimed us to be. left her to be covid virgin. LOLs. i am still thinking how did i contract it ie, Saturday badminton group, friend lunch, friend dinner, friend house warming? it's alright. life moves on. as of this moment, today is my fifth day of having covid. the test kit is still showing a blurry second line. had a few bad moments of leaving my team behind at work. I just started my new work on 17th October. it is back to the beginning company E, where it all begins. life is an interesting story. you never know where it brings you. one thing for sure, i am embracing it with equanimity.

speaking of equanimity, i have attended a ten day meditation course called vipassana. when i heard from few friends about this course, it is just an inquisitive search for calmness. honest thought. no harm learning a tool which calm myself. few friends hid the facts of the strict and disciplinary nature of the course. i just follow through it till the end without any doubt. surprisingly i caught on pretty well on the techniques taught. can be a fact that i was employed during that period helps. this is a fated journey. i have no intention to join meditation course this year as i just changed to another A bank job. after 5 months of continuous challenging and unsupportive nature, i decided to call it an end. while waiting for the new job to start, this course becomes available. blessing in disguise. this course teaches one to observe one breathing, be mindful of one's speech, thought, action, to perform charity and act kindly. without observing the moral conduct, the journey of vipassana will be not fruitful. as one enters the sankhara mode, the objective is to remove the craving and aversion that one loves and hates. i manage to see a few lifetimes being:

a hunter with a GR dog in snow setting with wolves

a military captain with many murder encounters, sexy ladies in qipao, punishment memory, running away from enemy

an ancient chinese setting whereby i was recued and helped by an old friend. both of us were jailed and promised to meet each other in the next life via a Chinese name character. this is the oddest of them all. the most goosebump moment is one of my best friends has this chinese name character. yours truly does not read Mandarin character. 

an English man with polygamy nature in train, in old mansion and butler setting. it is so surreal as i was always moving. the fond of old train is probably stemmed from this life. the area of sexual encounter is totally wild that i think it is better to cut off in this life via vipassana practice. 

i chose not to reveal as much to vipassana brothers alike as i am afraid they might feel left behind. my main objective is to cleanse the previous sankhara and avoid generating new one. hopefully everyone will have strong adhithana in practising. may all beings be happy. 

Bhavatu Saaba Mangalam.