for me, music has to be able to soothe the soul, calm the mind and memorable. two years back, i got a question from a friend, "why all your songs are so sad?" hmmm.... if i remember correctly, i answered her, "where got?" surprisingly, this petite chinese lady understand perfectly my malaysian slang. she mentioned her prior secondary education in singapore before heading sydney. well, i dunno what to say. i like songs which are naturally sad and involves the element of relationship, love, break up and emotional. why? maybe because my relationship, love, break up and emotional experiences are lacking. haha....
nod, nod. what to do? never pak toh before ma. how do you expect me to react? i even asked a close friend before how does it feel to be in love. she said it is something to do with your actions that say much about your status of being in love. one, you would want to see the person frequently. second, you want to share everything with the partner. third, your hearts go sour when you don't get to see the person.
okay, i am definitely not in love before. as simple as that. statistically speaking, two friends told me it is not worth to be in love if it ends up bad because the suffering is unbearable. hmmm... can't comment on that. but always thought it got to do with your heart. if your heartbeat quickens, it is a sign? i definitely have that some point in my life. dun worry, it is not recent.
so next time i can tell other people, my taste of music reflects my desperation search for love. =) what a big laugh because i have definitely put no effort in searching the right one plus my every effort in constant avoidance to be alone with another individual. i feel awkward unless the person is a friend.
blogger feels that life is the constant search for something which no one knows what the thing is.
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