are you of any good?

with my secured employment comes more question now. should i work or should i study? let's weigh the pros and cons. because inside my head, there is a lot of things going on now. i need to segregate them accordingly.

first, let's talk about work. actually working is not bad, i get to do with quite a prestigious company to begin with. i will be most likely part time studying, part time working in order to get my accreditation. the thing is, i have consulted a senior working in that similar company now. he told me. the job is very demanding. long hours  , little time to spend with family and little time to study. occasionally, he was denied leaves which he entitled due to understaffed problem. what is good is the remuneration is good. your pay is sometimes double with allowance. plus, i do not waste my time researching for a topic which i might not use in the future. besides, one year is enough for me to jump a position ahead. graduating a year late will be fine just not career wise. the plus point is auditing is a very marketable profession after a few years. i can literally go anywhere i like. in addition, i may apply overseas job through transfer. also, i can learn more by putting longer hours in work. i dun mind working OT actually, just that i am a little worried about not having time for studies.

second, should i stick to EY now after considering the pros and cons. my senior told me banks offer the same benefits besides going back on time. and banks will have more holidays. and i can do accreditation papers with them as well. and i heard the starting salary is higher but unsure about transferable skills to other industry. besides, i will be stuck with banking. banking is actually my second option after transaction services. do i work for the money or do i work for the interest?

besides career options, i have to think about honours. finance or accounting. finance is harder more interesting but accounting is easier less interesting. wth, just when i thought i have no hope for accounting honours, a senior lecturer email me to encourage me to apply. =.= (perfect timing).

with so many uncertainty, i am going to apply for everything. and after that, i will decide what i want to do after going back to Malaysia in January. spent time thinking about uncertainty is so not beneficial. rather than worrying, i can pass through the sea waves of uncertainty by flying using the aeroplane. when offers come, then i will pick and choose. who knows, i will only have one option at last. the thought of throwing coin comes to my mind today, i secretly hope what i want. i am just too scare to admit what i want. because there is another programme blocking me: TAP (public service with government which cannot be rejected). the chance is 20%. sometimes, being unlucky is a lucky thing.